why can't i ever say what i want to say? i worry so much about making everyone else happy. but i don't know what to do when i'm not happy. deep down, all i want is to say "i need you", but i can't make myself say it. i don't want to inconvenience anyone, i don't want to force anyone to talk to me. so i go through it alone, not knowing what to do or how to make myself feel better...