tonight was an interesting night. it ended well, but for awhile there i wasn't so sure. i just get so freaking depressed sometimes. i was such a jerk tonight. to many people. but mostly to janson. and yet, all things said and done, we're still dating. he puts up with my crap. not only does he put up with it, he totally overlooks it and likes me anyway. that boy is amazing, let me tell you. i've become so dependent in the last week and a half, its crazy. i can't wait till tomorrow night, even if it is a million hours away......