so i went home today. janson came with me. :) i forgot to grab my directions to his house, i was so proud of myself when i found my way on my own. haha. (yes i am a dork, i know... lol). we stopped at the wal-mart in alliance cuz i wanted to see if they have the book i'm getting tim for his birthday, but they didn't. (and yes hun, i will be buying you a cherry cheesecake sucker every time i go in wal-mart from now on.... ha). then we went to mcdonalds so i could get my paycheck (minus the raise that i thought was going to be on it, slacker workplace!!!!), then went home. janson was in awe of how small leetonia is. lol. i took him on beeson mill road and then down columbia street and up chestnut st. the 'main drags' of leetonia. hah. we weren't there very long when we ended up going back to salem cuz i had to go to auto zone and get a headlight for my car. janson was so quiet when he was at my house. every time we got in the car, he'd talk like normal (maybe even more than normal, lol). but when we were at my house, he barely said a word. we watched the hulk, and it was good. :) i missed tiny little bits here and there cuz i was doing my laundry at the same time, but it was still good. leah called as we were getting ready to eat dinner, and i told her i'd call her later when i knew what was going on. tim and i made our 'devious plans' for little sibs weekend. lol. except not really. we just decided that we're going to watch a certain movie at janson's house. :) i love my little brother, he's the coolest!!! i called leah back and made plans to meet her at 7:15 at lazy bean cafe. it closes at 6, apparently.. haha. so we went to mcdonalds and i used the phone there to call paul's cell. they met us at mcd's. i love that girl a lot. i've really missed her. paul and janson are a lot alike, in a way. they both just kinda sat there while leah and i talked and flipped out, well basically we were just being ourselves. :) mike tkach and mike esenwein came in while we were there. that was cool. i hadn't seen esenwein since graduation. we left there after awhile, and other than stopping for gas in salem (cuz it was 15 cents cheaper than it is out here in canton) we came straight back. janson talked a lot on the way home. :) when we go to his house we sat outisde in my car for an hour. that boy... i tell you what. he is amazing. :)
so i get back to school, and janson had IMed me telling me that he left the hulk in my car and had to come get it or jake would kill him. so he brought jake and josh over to pick it up. they took the time to make fun of our room (which, by the way, is rather clean right now!!!). lol. we went down and visited people down the hall (cassie, christina, molly, sarah, jenny, est), then christina, janson, jake, josh, and i came back up here. they left, and christina and i talked in here for a bit. she's awesome. i want to get to know her better. (oh, hun--she said she wants to do something with you sometime cuz she hasn't for awhile).

i've never felt like this before. ever. i almost don't know what to do with myself. it hasn't been that long, but it feels like its been forever and that it could go on forever. and i wouldn't mind that. i've become so dependent on him already. its like i think about him all the time. when things go wrong, my first thought is 'i want janson'. i dunno... its crazy to me that he cares. i've never had someone care about me this much before. wow. i really like him. :)

ok i'm gonna play a little uru, then get to bed. or watch some tv. i don't think i'm going to go to church tomorrow. eating that chicken at home might not have been the best idea after all... lol