so this is dumb. and it shouldn't matter. so don't read this post. but if this is my journal, then i get to be honest in it....

everyone is close to someone else. i'm not going to use names. but its true. people get tired of me, i think. we're great friends, then someone else comes along. everyone gets excited about this person doing this, and that person coming here or going there, and no one gives a damn what i do. but i guess thats life.

and thats another thing. stupid mcdonalds. i've picked up the lovely habit of swearing since i've been back. but all well. it will soon vanish when i'm at malone where i don't hear much language. its not a big deal anyway.

sometimes, i wish that i didn't have to go back (but i'd miss my wonderful marvelous roomie!!!). but that i didn't have to stay here. i don't know. someday i'll find the place that i fit in and that i'll be happy. it happens the most at camp. but thats also the place where i feel the most left out at times. lol. the irony. i hate life... lol