blah blah blah.

i worked 3:30-6:30, went and watched MY ali play some powderpuff FB, then went to applebee's for dinner with ali, kelli, ox, doug, shannon, tj, and donny. that was fun. i like those people. they crack me up. i needed cracking up tonight.
ali kelli and ox went to walmart, but i wanted to get back here. so i didn't go to walmart. i got back just as celebration was ending, of course. i missed my first celebration. thats sad. thats the start of the crappy part of my night.
so i get back to my room and theres a note on the door from caryn's friend jami, telling us that she left us brownies. i was like awwww thats nice. but then i get into my room she'd left the brownies wrapped in tin foil ON THE FLOOR!!! so needless to say, there were ants everywhere. millions of tiny little ants. so i spent a good 10 minutes taking care of that.
then i realized that my swelling-ness on my was even bigger than before, so i went on a benadryl hunt. dani, the RA for the other half of my floor, had a lotion/cream kind. so we used that.
so i get back here and reno's still not in his room. i IMed mike to find out if he was there, and he was. reno used mikes screenname for a sec, made fun of me for my crappy night, then hurried off to bed. i know he wasn't trying to be mean, but the mood i was in made the whole thing worse. everything that i'd been holding in for the last 3 months or so just came pouring out, and i just sat here at my computer and bawled my eyes out. i miss heidi. i miss being around people that know me. i miss being able to call heidi when i need to talk-more importantly, when i need to cry. i couldn't stand being in this little room anymore, it was starting to feel clausterphobic. so i went out for a walk. i went out to that little white gazebo, sat down, and just bawled and bawled. after 10 or 15 minutes, i started freezing, so i came back in. i dunno... i seriously think that something is wrong with me. i shouldn't feel the way i do, but i do. i feel crummy almost all the time. and no one can understand that like heidi can. i'm not gonna make it with her so far away. i just can't do it.

just a random thought.... is it normal to feel so lonely when i'm surrounded by people?? theres a ton of people that i could call right now (well if i weren't at work, anyway) and they'd be like "yeah! lets hang out!" and yet, i still feel like i'm alone. i don't know. i think there's something wrong with me.

english was cancelled today!!!!! oh wait. i'm up anyway. thats right... BLAH!!! sleep is good. but esther, chelsie, and charity crack me up. so even tho i didn't sleep that well on the hard floor, it was still hilarious. who else would just lay there and rhyme for awhile? chelsea even helped me study for a bit... speaking of studying. its the devil. i'm going back to it now....

reno...i know you don't think i suck. i'm just a jerk!!!! i'm sorry :(

"christians don't sue people."
-caryn
"christians don't throw christians computers out the window!!!"
-me

that was a lot of posts in one day..... all well. i need to get back to my studying for my pw test tomorrow..... that sucks big time.

HOW DARE YOU! u shouldnt eat the ginger bread man
for shame!How could you he was my
friend...*tear*


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anyway.......

i figured out the reason for my extreme crabbiness the last couple days: PMS!!!!!



ok i'm done with this post now, i promise..............

chapel this morning was good stuff. i cried. it was pretty much the first time this year that i haven't been bored in chapel. wow tho... it seemed so easy for him to talk about the fact that he might die any day! and when he said he's written his sons letters for every birthday from now until their, what was is 21 or 22 birthday?, i just cried. awesome awesome speaker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

crawling on a tightrope
the bravest thing i have is hope
daylight, save me

i feel........i don't know. its like it never goes away, its always there lurking, lurking in the back of my mind. whenever i get "too happy", it jumps out at me like "hey! what are you doing! you can't be happy!" and i hate it!!!! but its always there.

tests from emode:

You are the Girl Next Door
Cute, fun, and sweet, you're Sandra Bullock, Jennifer Aniston, and Meg Ryan all rolled up into one — the perfect Girl Next Door. Naturally pretty, unpretentious, and generous, you demand your share of respect, but you aren't particularly high-maintenance. What's your ideal date? Probably a Blockbuster night — you don't mind skipping an evening on the town if it means getting some old-fashioned snuggling on the sofa. Careful yet spontaneous, you're a little bit of the Guy's Girl, a smidge of Sorority Sister (the nice kind), and just a hint of the Hippie Chick. But you've got an appeal that's all your own, which is why the guys can't stay away. People are attracted to your strong values and traditional ways. Your winning smile, bright eyes, and loving nature will make anyone want to hold on tight and never let go.

Your type is the Goofball
Laughter is the way to your heart. A guy with a great sense of humor isdefinitely the one for you! You want a Goofball, someone who can laugh athimself and make you laugh, too. There's no bigger turn-off than a guy whotakes himself too seriously. You know that if a guy is silly, he's generallyself-confident and secure. Your man is a people magnet and everyone'sfavorite friend. There's never a dull moment with your jokester nearby. Youcrave excitement and laughter, and your goofball enhances those things inyour life. You probably think life is too short to spend it without asmile. Your goofy guy will ensure that that doesn't happen — hislighthearted and silly ways make everything a little bit brighter.

Yellow
You're yellow, the color of joy and energy — two things you definitely bring to everyone around you. It's hard for anyone to be sad or lonely in your presence; your sunny disposition and cheery outlook just won't allow it. The warmth of your personality shines through in the kindness you show friends and family (and strangers, too). Always ready with a lighthearted joke or heartfelt compliment, you know how to make people feel good about themselves, so they can't get enough of you. Yellow is a warm and inviting color for a warm and inviting person — you!
More people like you:
Emode Members:
13% Yellows
The World:
11% Yellows

caryn's response to some public service announcement about hungry children and their voice on the radio:

"i'm hungry. where's my voice??"

i miss you sarah :(

ok so i'm on the lookout for a new favorite band. any suggestions??

Did you hear the news today
I'm not coming home,
No
And I wished it all away
I felt so alone
And the darkness crept it's way
Like stars we know will die too soon
There is never any sunrise here in the shadows of eclipsing moons
Crawling on a tightrope
The bravest thing I have is hope

Daylight, save me
Daylight, save me
Tonight, tonight

Halogen, the lights will flicker
Incadescent burning lies
And the silence stands for nothing
Desperate I search the skies aching for a spark
Trembling in pitchest dark

Mission Control: U.S.S. Gloria, this is mission control, do you copy?
We have lost contact with the U.S.S. Gloria

U.S.S. Gloria: Mission Control, this is the U.S.S. Gloria, do you read me?
Mayday, we have lost primary guidance functions

News Reporter: The crew is now out of radio contact.
Presently there is no way for us to know whether they are alive or dead.
Our hopes and prayers go out with you all.

Mission Control: U.S.S. Gloria, this is mission control, do you copy?

U.S.S. Gloria: Houston this is the U.S.S. Gloria.
Good to hear your voice
We are coming out of the eclipse now.
I see the sunlight. it's beautiful
the sunlight is beautiful.

Jesus Christ, Light of the World
You never did forget me
And when I bled in darkness, You held me
Still held me
When desparate nights I cursed You
You loved me, still loved me
Jesus Christ, You dry the tears
You break my heart of stone
Your words are life
Cut marrow through
The darkness, to the bone
A heart of flesh You gave me
Only You can save me

Savior
Daylight
I am coming home
Daylight by Brave Saint Saturn

an incredible song. if you want to hear it, and trust me you do, IM me (relientkbandgeek) and i'll send it to you.

i think that i would probly go nuts without me and kelli's weekly car talks on mondays. she knows me so well. i can talk about anything and know that its ok to do so. its good stuff.

so reno's monitor is dead. so is his car. but his monitor being dead means that i don't get to talk to him online now. but i'm not girly, so that shouldn't matter....

i'm going to bed now. well actually i'm not. i'm gonna write out my reading response for english cuz i don't have any black ink and can't print it. then i might play my new addiction. THEN i'll go to bed :)

if you ever need to buy me something, for any reason, i want this. but not a window cling. i want a patch. :) it cracks me up.

quizzes cuz tracey is bored!! :)


Morpheus


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
places. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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haha no comment....


You represent... loneliness.
Always alone and always sad about it... unlike
angst, you don't have to look for a reason to
be miserable. You want to be in the company of
people but aren't sure how to act when you're
with them. Sometimes you have to make an
effort. You can't always wait for others to
come to you.


What feeling do you represent?
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did i already do this one?? lol

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Your Heart is Grey


What Color is Your Heart?
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YOU EAT PEOPLE!!!


what's YOUR deepest secret?
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hrmmm..... that was random.... lol


A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem
and people are always bringing you down for
being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel
like youre too mature for your age and are
frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to
accept you because youre not like them.
Your virtues: Intelligence, understanding nature,
modesty.
Your flaws: Lack of social life, inferiority
complex, timidity.


What kind of girl are you?
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hahaha that really makes me laugh. I AM NOT A GIRLY GIRL!! no matter what brit, lolly, and jess say!!!! :)


you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.


which happy bunny are you?
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ok i think i'm done. for now. until i find more quizzes.... lol

	*blue mage* a magician who uses the enemy's own abilities curious; observant; knowledgeable
[Final Fantasy Tactics Job Class]

Which Homestar Runner character are you?

this quiz was made by jurjyfrort

oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah!! sarah's in ohio!!! she called me!! yayayay!!! :)

I'M GONNA SEE HEIDI TOMORROW!!!

i spent the night at MY ali's last night. good stuff!!! we did fun stuff like watch movies, eat pizza, go to the football game, yell, rescue a school bus from the underworld, just lots of good SWAPUTD fun.

i went to the CC meet this morning. seeing craig is always fun. he cracks me up. he says funny stuff. and does funny stuff.

my little brother is great too.

so is doug v. yay for leetonia!! lol. i never thought i'd say that....

reno and i watched the 10th kingdom today. all 7 and a half hours or so of it. i got just a little antsy..... haha

now i'm watching the video from me, ben, brian, and matt's trip down to see heidi and shannon. that weekend was great. i just wrote a sappy email to all of them cuz i was inspired by the video. we're crazy. i wish i could somehow get a picture of when we were all trying to get our heads into the camera the day we all laid on heidi's parent's bed for like 2 or 3 hours or something.... good times!! i miss you guys. we should talk more. and get together.

i like days like this. i can just sit around and do nothing after staying up late last night. last night was fun. reno, melissa, kristen and i watched wild america in myers. then a whole bunch of people watched the labyrinth. i love that movie.

just because i could, i was up till like 3 or something watching tv. switchfoot was on carson daly's show, that was good stuff. i love switchfoot.

this morning around 9:30, i found out that i hadn't turned my speakers on my computer off cuz someone was compulsively IMing me. i didn't wanna get out of bed, but they just kept IMing me and IMing me.... so i dragged my butt down off the top bunk and talked to christy for a little bit. then i turned off my speakers and went back to bed. i got up around 11:30, although those last 2 hours weren't very restful. the buddies aren't very quiet while they clean....lol

and thats my day so far. tomorrow morning is the CC meet, and i get to hang out with tim and craig!! woohoo!! :)

another hour and a half, and then i'm officially on fall break!! woohoo!!! lol. i just emailed my position paper to my psych prof, i hope he accepts it. i don't care if he takes points off.

i'm hungry. i don't know why. i had 3 pieces of pizza for lunch. REAL pizza. from papa john's. my humanities class had a pizza party cuz we got screwed over during the olympics at orientation. :)

i don't really have anything to write about. i'm reading a really good book. the lost boy by dave pelzer. its the sequel to a child called "it". also a really good book.

i think i'm going to end this post now, cuz i don't really have anything else to say.

oh yeah i do-the mexican is a stupid movie. ok. i'm done now. ;)

my entire weekend changed earlier today, with one email.

i was going to go home this weekend, go to the football game with nathan on friday, have dinner with christy on saturday, hang out with my family, maybe see some friends, stuff like that. but now i'm not going home. cuz i got an email from HEIDI!!!! woohoo!!!!!

so now i'm staying here all weekend. friday i'm gonna sit around and do nothing. saturday i'm gonna go to the CC meet, watch tim run, hang out with craig... stuff like that. sunday morning i'm going to kidron. to see my heidi. at some church that i've heard of, i think i've even been there before, i just don't know where it is... lol. then i'm gonna bring sarah b back with me!!! and she's staying here sunday and monday night. :) :) :) big weekend for tracey!!!

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HEIDI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hope my mom doesn't get mad or upset or anything... i emailed her about it... all well. its my heidi. and craig. and sarah. i'll go home next weekend. :)

I'M GONNA SEE MY HEIDI ON SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*************YOU, YOU,YOU***************
1.What is your full name? tracey deanna yoder
2. Nicknames? pete. trac (normally i hate it, but there are a few people that i let it slide with... ), i dunno... i don't remember anymore right now
3. Age: 18
4. Sex: girl
5. Social Security: some numbers that i never can remember
6. Where do you live? canton. or leetonia. take your pick.
7. What school do you attend? malone college
8. Siblings and their ages? tim-14 rusty-21
9. Pets: my bamboo plant. :) and i have a dog at home
10. Zodiac Sign: aries
11. Righty or Lefty: righty

*********YOUR LOOKS*********
12. Hair color: brown
13. Eye color: the color of turds :)
14. Height: 5'8 or 9
15. Do you wear glasses or contacts? glasses. i have some contacts, but i hate them
16. Do you have any piercings? an eyebrow ring
17. Where do you want more? not sure. maybe some actual EAR piercings.... lol
18. Do you have a tattoo? nope
19. If so what and where? .......
20. Do you wear any rings? just my purity ring
21. Do you have a certain fashion you follow? whatever i throw on

**********JUST LATELY***************
22. How are you today? when am i not tired?? lol
23. What pants are you wearing right now? pj pants that i bought at massillon vdo a year or 2 ago
24. What underwear are you wearing right now? ummm i think they have flowers??? lol
25. What does your hair look like at the moment? wet and out of my face
26. What song are you listening to right now? i'm not. but the last song i heard was one off of the jekyll and hyde soundtrack
27. What was the last thing you ate? soggy cereal. mmmmmm :-D
28. How is the weather right now? rainy, windy, and cold
29. Last person you talked to on the phone: delight
30. Last dream you can remember: my dream about sarah eades and her paper last night!! lol
31. Who are you talking to right now? farrah and brian
32. What time is it? 12:27 AM

********More about YOU!*****************
33. What are the last four digits of your phone number? 7839
34. If you were a crayon, what color would you want to be? orange
36. Do you like the person that sent you this? stole it from farrah's DJ
37. How do you eat an Oreo? twist it apart, eat the cream, then the cookie
38. What makes you happy? stuff.
39. What's the next CD you are going to buy? not sure. maybe tfk or bleach?
40. What religion/denomination are you? christian
41. What's the best advice ever given to you? be yourself. or something cheesy like that.
42. Have you ever won any special awards? nope. well i got the "bravery award" or something equally cheesy after my first summer working at camp cuz i crossed burma!! lol (NEVER AGAIN!!! *shudders*)
43. What are your future goals? to graduate.... lol
44. Do you like to dance? nope
45. Worst sickness you ever had? whatever that crap was that i had a few weeks ago. i was so much sicker than i told anyone.... lol
46. What's the stupidest thing you ever done? HA which one?
47. What's your favorite memory? weekend at heidi's and the weekends at bens
48. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? i wouldn't be a jerk anymore!!
49. Who do you like? reno
50. How many kids do you want to have? no idea
51. Son's name? i'm still sticking to micah!! :)
52. Daughter's name? no idea
53. Do you do drugs? nope
54. Do you drink? nope
55. What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use? whatevers cheap. but i do like thermasilk a lot :)
56. What sport do you hate the most? ones that i don't understand
57. What are you most scared of? being left behind
58. How many TV's do you have in your house? 1 or 2?
59. Do you have your own? i do in my dorm room
60. Phone line? 1
61. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? my teddy bear, which i left at home :(
62. Have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone: nope. well my finger.
63. Who do you dream about: i dunno
64. Who do you tell your dreams to? no one... lol
65. Who's the loudest friend you have? loudest?? ummm.... chrissy? lol
66. Who's the quietest friend: jenny smith :)
67. Is cheerleading a sport? nope
68. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? ask danny ;)
69. Which came first, the chicken or the egg? chicken

*************YOU and LOVE************************
70. Do you believe in Love? yeah
71. Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend? boyfriend
72. Do you have a crush? josh groban!!! lol
73. Who is your crush? see above ^
74. Did you send this to your crush? nope. he's famous. *sigh*
75. Do you believe in Love at first sight? not sure
76. Where would you like to go on your honeymoon? somewhere cool
77. What song do you want played at your wedding? something pretty?? lol
78. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? hair
79. Are you too shy ask someone out? yup
80. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? my heidi. she's the bestest friend ever! :)
81. Do you find yourself attractive? not at all.
82. Do you see yourself as ugly? yep
83. Do others find you attractive? well reno must (at least i hope.... lol)

*********ON GUYS FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT (for girls only)*******
84. Boxers or briefs: don't care, i don't wanna know!!! lol
85. Curly or straight hair: CURLY!!!
86. Six pack or muscular arms: don't care
87. Good or bad guys: good
88. Hat or no hat: a variation! lol
89. Ears pierced or not: doesn't matter
90. tan or no tan: PURPLE!! (in other words, i don't care)
91. Dimples or not? don'tcare....
92. Stubble or neatly shaven: stubble :)
93. Rugged or sporty: whats the difference? lol
94. Studly or cutie: cutie
95. Accent or not: accents are very fun, but not necessary
96. Glasses? don't care
97. Smart or dumb: well not completely dumb...
98. Sensitive or not: sensitive can be good
99. Dependent(whipped) or independent: haha whipped... thats funny. but definitely a little of both. reno isn't whipped yet. although stokes thinks he is... lol

***********Pick One: THIS OR THAT**********************
100. Lights on/off: off=sleep!! happy!!
101. Sun or rain? sun is good. but rain is fun to play in!
102. Micky D's(McDonalds) or BK(Burger King)? bk food is better, but i work at mcds... lol
103. Do you like scary or happy movies better? depends on my mood. mostly happy ones
104. Backstreet Boys or NSYNC? PLUS ONE!! :-D
105. On the phone or in person? i hate eye contact, so the phone can be good at times!!
106. Paper or plastic? plastic
107. Sausage or pepperoni? pepperoni
108. Summer or winter? summer. i hate snow.
109. Hugs or kisses? hugs
110. Chocolate or white milk: white
111. Root Beer or Dr. Pepper: YUCK neither
112. Glass half full or half empty? half.
113. CD or Tape: cds
114. Tape or DVD: dvds
115. Cats or Dogs: cats
116. Mud or Jell-O wrestling: ............. lol
117. Vanilla or Chocolate: vanilla
118. Skiing or Boarding: neither
119. Day or night: night
120. Cake or pie: pie
121. Diamond or pearl: ugh. fancy stuff. diamond i guess?
122. Sunset or sunrise: set

***************YOUR FAVS*******************
123. Color: orange
124. Food: chex mix!
125. Fast Food: mcds
126. Candy: SOUR PATCH KIDS!!!!
127. Beverage: milk
128. Ice Cream Flavor: superman
129. Sport?: rugball!! :)
130. Animal: pig
131. Fave type of music? just about anything. except r&b and country.
132. Radio Station: radio u
133. Song: lots of songs
134. Band: i'm not sure. i'm having a mini crisis regarding RK.. lol
135. Fav. Actor or Actress: sandra bullock
136. Fav. day of the year? don't really have one
137. Fav. month? may or june
138. TV show? GILMORE GIRLS!! :)
139. Grocery Store: marc's
140. Scent: not sure
141. Teacher: i guess i don't really have one anymore. but carchedi was my favorite in HS
142. Board Game: ummm.... life or monopoly or scrabble
143. Saying: torched, definitely

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~HAVE YOU EVER~~~~~~~
144. Loved someone so much it made you cry? not necessarily in a dating sense
145. Drank? nope
146. Ever gotten dumped? nope
147. Broke the law? driving laws
148. Ran from the cops? nope
149. Stole something? yeah
150. Tried to kill yourself? never actually tried
151. Made yourself throw up? yes
152. Been in love? i don't know.... lol
153. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? no

**********On A FiNaL NoTe*******************
154. Do you like filling these out? yeah... i'm kinda addicted i think.... lol
155. How many people are you sending this to? whoever reads my weblog
156. Do you want your friends to write back? its a post
157. Who is least likely to respond? ......
158. Who is most likely to respond? .......
159. What first comes to mind? about what?

so yeah... back to the concert that i promised i'd write about but hadn't got to yet....

you know what? i don't feel like it. i waited too long, and now the moment is gone.

it was awesome. thats all that needs to be said. definitely one of the best concerts i've ever been to, right below trans-siberian orchestra and maybe that carman concert. wow. good stuff. good good good stuff. and i got to see it with two awesome people, which made it better. mmmmmm was it awesome!!!!!!!!!!

yay!!! i'm going to the football game with nathan capps on friday. i haven't seen him since....ummm....the street fair maybe?? its been forever. i was talking to him online earlier and i told him i was coming home this weekend and wanted to hang out. so we're going to the game. like the leetonia losers that we are.... lol. i'm excited!! :)

You are a black cat, stubborn yet friendly, you
stick to your values and preferences, and no
one can convince you otherwise! You are the
legendary cat of mystery.


What color of cat are you?
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i'll finish FIF later. i promise. but i need to study now. i just want to say one thing: if i had to pick one night of my life to live over and over again for the rest of my life, it would definitely be last night.

ali my ali, are you sure you commented? cuz i don't see it... lol

this weekend has definitely been one of the best weekends of my life. wow.
i was horribly late leaving on friday cuz i lost my checkbook. i ended up leaving without finding it. i think i left here around 4:20 or so, and i told elizabeth i was leaving at 3:30. it was an uneventful trip, until i got right outside of west liberty.... i am SO thankful for kelli's cell phone. i used it 7 (yes 7) times on my way down. to call david/jimothy to tell him i was coming and that i wanted to hang out with him, to call liz and tell her i was running pretty late, to call holly kelley and tell her i'd find her when i got to the game cuz i was running late, to call david to tell him i was close to west liberty, then i got lost. after like 20 minutes or so, i called russell's cell phone to tell him i was lost and get directions. he didn't answer it. so i drove around for awhile not knowing for sure where i was. radio u was playing much stryper music. it was fun for awhile, but then i wanted it to go away cuz i was tired of it.... lol. then i called david again. he told me where to go. then when i got almost to the high school i called david again to tell him i was almost there (for real this time, lol). i got to the game a little bit after half time started, so i went over and found holly and watched WL's halftime show. then we went to the bathroom cuz i was gonna pee my pants. lol. then i saw bunches of people, i can't even begin to name them. elizabeth jumped on me when she saw me. it was "quality." :) i hung out with her and jill schlabach until david came, then i talked to him. that was good stuff. i don't talk to him as much as i should. i miss that kid. after the game me, liz, and david went to subway to see lacey. i love lacey!!!
ok i'm starting to "drag", and i have a class at 9.... "highlights" from here on out.... lol
elizabeth took me on my first 4-wheeler... i was scared outta my mind, but it was still fun.
mel called me at liz's. she couldn't come over, but it was still great to talk to her!!!!
the bonfire saturday night was great. brian schlabach even came for a bit right before i left. i didn't think he would. i was glad. i hadn't seen him in forever!! i had to leave like 10 minutes after he came tho.
i went on the outerbelt. i was proud of myself. it only took me about 50 minutes or something to get from WL to columbus. powell. whatever.
i talked to reno online at marlene's. her computer is very very very slow.
we went to church with craig and linda this morning. i like their church more than i used to.
rusty tim and i played scrabble for awhile this morning. i don't think the 3 of us have ever sat down and played a board game before. that was interesting. but fun.
lunch was good. good food and stuff like that. the whole family thing was alright too.
my car is officially falling apart. but its still driveable. :)
i had to drive the speed limit the entire way back cuz my family was behind me. i usually go about 5 over. but i couldn't. all well. i got to malone a little before 4, and we ended up having plenty of time.
i was happy to see reno again. i think i am becoming girly. i missed him, and i was only gone for a day and a half..... grrrrr on me..... lol
we got to kent easily, and it was AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME to see lynne again!!!! i've missed her so much!
we got to the chapel a little early, so we made a mcd's run.
i really want to finish this, but man am i tired.... i love five iron frenzy. and i'll still love them in the morning when i can think coherently. although most of tomorrow is going to be spent studying for psych.... blah.

i'm getting stuff done, and i then hope to leave in like 30-45 minutes for WEST LIBERTY!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!! good times ahead.... :)

The World Is MINE! by Demonac
Name:
You will conquer:	Antartica (but nobody noticed). France (but nobody noticed).
Your title will be:	Colonel
You will succeed by:	Sending back a T1000 from the future to eliminate the opposition.
Your Enforcers will be:	Ninjas (they flip out and kill people).
Your first act as ruler:	Impose World Peace.
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

The World Is MINE! by Demonac
Name:
You will conquer:	the Entire Universe (except for Arakis).
Your title will be:	Primogen
You will succeed by:	Building a giant Earthquake machine.
Your Enforcers will be:	Nanobots (nobody can stop nanobots).
Your first act as ruler:	Declare peace (it confuses the heck out of your enemies).
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

i love lynne :)
skilletgirl8 (4:11:03 PM): if he ever hurts you...kabam!

BOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

yay for ali!!

monogram1 (4:46:58 PM): hey
t boredatwork y (4:47:01 PM): hey
monogram1 (4:47:11 PM): so do you want to work on the weekends?
monogram1 (4:47:19 PM): or are you looking for a week/daytime job/
monogram1 (4:47:19 PM): ?
monogram1 (4:47:34 PM): because if you want to work weekends, you can definitely get a job at Friendly's
t boredatwork y (4:47:37 PM): whatever works. i just wanna work like 2 or 3 nights a week
monogram1 (4:47:43 PM): yeah... me too
monogram1 (4:47:54 PM): I think that's what I'm gonna be working
t boredatwork y (4:48:24 PM): what kind of hours on the weekends?
monogram1 (4:48:36 PM): like 8-4 or 4-12
monogram1 (4:48:56 PM): but they're really flexible... like i need to be out of there by 10 on sundays and they were cool with that
t boredatwork y (4:49:17 PM): i work 2:30-6:30 on campus on sundays, so i don't think that would work
t boredatwork y (4:49:55 PM): but i might be able to work friday nights and then saturday morning/afternoon
monogram1 (4:49:57 PM): yeah
monogram1 (4:50:13 PM): if you go, just tell them when you're available and how often you want you work
monogram1 (4:50:27 PM): like I gave them all the times I could possibly work and then said... I wanna work 3 days a week
t boredatwork y (4:50:30 PM): how far is friendly's from here?
monogram1 (4:50:31 PM): and they'll schedule you for that
monogram1 (4:50:38 PM): how far are you from movies 4?
t boredatwork y (4:50:54 PM): the one in canton? like 10 minutes maybe
monogram1 (4:51:00 PM): like 15 minutes
t boredatwork y (4:51:22 PM): hmmm.... this might work. minimum wage?
monogram1 (4:51:30 PM): depends what you wanna do
t boredatwork y (4:51:44 PM): what are the options?
monogram1 (4:52:00 PM): waitress, do dishes/bus, kitchen, work in the ice cream part
monogram1 (4:52:15 PM): I wanna waitress... so that's like 4 bucks an hour plus tips
t boredatwork y (4:52:34 PM): waitressing sounds good, except i've never done anything like that before and it scares me.... lol
monogram1 (4:52:41 PM): I haven't either
monogram1 (4:52:45 PM): we can learn together!
t boredatwork y (4:52:59 PM): this is exciting, cuz i really need a job
monogram1 (4:53:43 PM): :-)
t boredatwork y (4:55:30 PM): i need an application and stuff don't i? hmmm... i have no idea where friendly's is....
t boredatwork y (4:55:31 PM): lol
monogram1 (4:55:41 PM): go get an app
monogram1 (4:55:42 PM): I need to go eat
monogram1 (4:55:42 PM): later
t boredatwork y (4:55:48 PM): ok ttyl
monogram1 (4:55:58 PM): it's on Wales
monogram1 (4:56:04 PM): how do you get to Movies 4?
t boredatwork y (4:56:09 PM): everhard
t boredatwork y (4:56:20 PM): and its on everhard
monogram1 (4:56:25 PM): yeah... so go on everhard past the movies
t boredatwork y (4:56:32 PM): ok
monogram1 (4:56:38 PM): and you'll go for a while and everhard will turn into hills & dales
monogram1 (4:56:55 PM): and then hills and dales runs into wales at a stop light... it T's
monogram1 (4:57:03 PM): turn left and friendly's is right there on your left
t boredatwork y (4:57:25 PM): ok. i'll try to get there tonight or tomorrow night to get an application
monogram1 (4:57:27 PM): I lied... turn RIGHT and friendly's is right there on your left
t boredatwork y (4:57:31 PM): cuz i think this will work
t boredatwork y (4:57:33 PM): haha ok
monogram1 (4:57:34 PM): yay!
monogram1 (4:57:39 PM): ok
monogram1 (4:57:40 PM): see ya
t boredatwork y (4:57:42 PM): ttyl!
monogram1 signed off at 4:57:47 PM.

it'll suck to work weekends, but hopefully i'll still have saturday nights free. :) i need to go get an application. :)

Yo friends. This is Ali on Tracey's blog. She is silly like me and shares her password freely. Heeheehee! Can I just say that Pete is extraordinary. She has forgiven me of so much crap, and we have been through so much drama. I'm glad you love me Pete! And I'm glad we don't hate each other.

Pray for MY Tracey too... she had a bad blood-giving experience and is sick. I'm praying for you chica. And by chica I mean chia. Peace, love, and zombie dogs.

Ali

oh yeah!! i forgot this great quote until i read it in kelli's xanga.
"and then i was like 'go make me a sandwich!!' and it did!!"
-ryan oxford




so yeah. its official. i have a boyfriend. game show style.... haha :)

i just tried to give blood. it didn't work very well. after 20 minutes of trying to get my bag full, they decided to stop. i wanted to keep going, but my body didn't like that idea. i was all dizzy and stuff. i feel like i could puke. delight walked me back over here to make sure that i'd be ok. i'll be ok. i just need to lay down.
i'm not a happy camper. this is the 4th time i've given blood. i gave a whole pint all the other times!!! stupid body.... grrrrr

so tired... but it was worth it.

i had an awesome discussion with kelli and ryan oxford last night. we went to starbucks after bible study, as usual. we ended up leaving there around 9:30 to go to kelli's house cuz kelli and i wanted him to play his guitar and he wouldn't in starbucks. we were there until almost midnight. but it was great!! we talked about hardcore spiritual warfare--i don't know ryan very well, but man do i respect him! he'll have been a christian for 2 years this winter, but he's had so many demons. it scared the crap out of me listening to some of the stuff thats happened to him. kelli's had one too-the same one twice. thats something that i don't know how i would deal with. i get freaked out so easily, i think i would be too scared to breathe, let alone cry out to jesus. especially if it came down to a physical battle.... *shudders* but anyway, it was awesome. i didn't get my paper done till 1:30, but all well. i'll sleep tonight.

i needed to laugh. and jon made me laugh.

eligibilitydude (3:57:15 PM): tracey in the placey, rockin out to outer spacey :-)
relientkbandgeek (3:57:23 PM): lol hey jon
relientkbandgeek (3:57:40 PM): whats up?
eligibilitydude (3:57:43 PM): whassup dog (in the metaphorical sense of the word)
eligibilitydude (3:57:53 PM): n'much... how're you
relientkbandgeek (3:58:00 PM): lol you crack me up
relientkbandgeek (3:58:06 PM): a little stressed, but thats ok
eligibilitydude (3:59:42 PM): stress is the opposite of an invisible vicious dinosaur... you can see it so much more clearly, but it is much less reason for loss of sleep
eligibilitydude (4:00:57 PM): you have obviously never been attacked by an invisible vicious dinosaur or you would understand so much better
eligibilitydude (4:01:11 PM): so what's stressin you out?
relientkbandgeek (4:01:51 PM): you just made my profile.... lol
relientkbandgeek (4:02:11 PM): i'm trying to plan a bunch of stuff thats going on this weekend (including a five iron concert) and its hard... lol
eligibilitydude (4:02:17 PM): yay!
eligibilitydude (4:02:28 PM): (yay about the profile, not the stress)
eligibilitydude (4:03:08 PM): so FIF is letting you plan their concerts now?
relientkbandgeek (4:03:23 PM): oh man do i need sleep.... lol. no i'm going to one :-)
eligibilitydude (4:05:58 PM): cool
eligibilitydude (4:06:11 PM): well, i know the feeling of being overwhelmed
relientkbandgeek (4:06:50 PM): its just trying to get all these directions thats making me go nuts, cuz my directions computer program says that two of the roads that i need don't exist...
relientkbandgeek (4:06:51 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:11:26 PM): wow
eligibilitydude (4:11:32 PM): better luck if it existed
relientkbandgeek (4:17:22 PM): i have directions to both from people, but i wanted my computers directions....
relientkbandgeek (4:17:22 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:18:32 PM): i see
eligibilitydude (4:18:38 PM): is anything else adding to the stress
relientkbandgeek (4:18:57 PM): school work, family.... but thats a given
eligibilitydude (4:26:08 PM): yeah
relientkbandgeek (4:27:30 PM): so hows school and everything going for you?
eligibilitydude (4:30:40 PM): ok i guess
eligibilitydude (4:30:44 PM): i am dropping out of school
eligibilitydude (4:30:58 PM): but everything else is hunky dorier than an episode of cowboy bob
relientkbandgeek (4:31:14 PM): why are you dropping out?
eligibilitydude (4:33:12 PM): i dont know if it is what I need/want/am supposed to do
relientkbandgeek (4:33:21 PM): what was your major?
eligibilitydude (4:33:40 PM): english
eligibilitydude (4:33:48 PM): i was hoping to speak fluently one day
eligibilitydude (4:33:53 PM): but oh well
relientkbandgeek (4:34:12 PM): lol
relientkbandgeek (4:35:04 PM): i wish i could drop out....
relientkbandgeek (4:35:05 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:35:19 PM): well pray and see what God wants
eligibilitydude (4:35:29 PM): He really does know everything.. it si cool
relientkbandgeek (4:36:21 PM): i think i'm supposed to be here, i just don't like it.... lol
eligibilitydude (4:37:05 PM): aw
relientkbandgeek (4:38:31 PM): its alright, i'm just not used to putting this much effort into my work.... lol
eligibilitydude (4:40:59 PM): yeah
eligibilitydude (4:41:09 PM): eat ice cream, it helps
relientkbandgeek (4:41:39 PM): mmmm ice cream is good. but then i'd be a blob
relientkbandgeek (4:41:40 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:45:10 PM): whatever
eligibilitydude (4:45:15 PM): you are too skinny as it is
relientkbandgeek (4:45:25 PM): ummmm keep in mind you've never seen me.....
relientkbandgeek (4:45:25 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:46:29 PM): well that doesnt mean a thing
eligibilitydude (4:46:33 PM): you are too skinny
eligibilitydude (4:46:34 PM): so there
relientkbandgeek (4:46:57 PM): whatever you say jon, whatever you say :-)
relientkbandgeek (4:47:17 PM): now if you wanna talk skinny, take a look at that picture that you sent me. thats just not fair. my little brothers like you: tall and skinny
eligibilitydude (4:47:40 PM): did I send you a pic?
eligibilitydude (4:47:45 PM): oh yeah I did
eligibilitydude (4:47:49 PM): did you sned me one
eligibilitydude (4:47:58 PM): I am not skinny by the way
relientkbandgeek (4:48:40 PM): is that not you in your picture then??
relientkbandgeek (4:48:41 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:49:14 PM): yes it is me
eligibilitydude (4:49:26 PM): but it is prbably just the way the light is hitting me
eligibilitydude (4:49:31 PM): aren't you skinny too?
eligibilitydude (4:49:34 PM): I thought you were
relientkbandgeek (4:49:47 PM): no. not skinny. but not fat. just sorta in between....
eligibilitydude (4:50:17 PM): like, average?
eligibilitydude (4:50:33 PM): Would it be oo personal to ask your height and weight, cause then I can just go from that
relientkbandgeek (4:53:38 PM): i guess i don't really care. if you hate me cuz of it you're a jerk, lol. ________ (edited by me... lol)
eligibilitydude (4:54:35 PM): nope, dont hate you
eligibilitydude (4:54:41 PM): you sound healthy though
relientkbandgeek (4:54:42 PM): lol good
eligibilitydude (4:54:57 PM): so I wont give you a hard time about being too skinny or vice versa anymore
relientkbandgeek (4:55:21 PM): nope i think i'm just about right, although i wouldn't mind losing 10 or 15 pounds
eligibilitydude (4:55:30 PM): who wouldnt
relientkbandgeek (4:55:34 PM): lol yeah
eligibilitydude (4:55:42 PM): i wouldnt mind losing about 10 or 15 pounds in my legs
eligibilitydude (4:55:44 PM): :-)
relientkbandgeek (4:58:18 PM): i should start exercising... should.. but i won't
relientkbandgeek (4:58:19 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:59:28 PM): we should work out together
eligibilitydude (4:59:30 PM): i need to also
relientkbandgeek (4:59:44 PM): i've never worked out before.... i don't know how!!
relientkbandgeek (4:59:45 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:59:51 PM): i gotta go pick up my friend levi
eligibilitydude (4:59:58 PM): See ya!@
relientkbandgeek (4:59:59 PM): ok i'll ttyl!
eligibilitydude signed off at 5:00:23 PM.

much laughter was involved with that conversation... lol

"do you want me to pull the curtain down?"
-me
"mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm."
-caryn

how about i have the worlds most quotable roommate!!

mmmmmm frosties are WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!! i got hungry and wanted food. i tried to get reno to go to ihop with me, but he wouldn't. so i got my roommate to go with me. we ended up going to wendy's to get frosties cuz they're good stuff!!! plus they're cheaper than ihop, and wendy's is closer than ihop! yay for fun roommates like caryn!! :-D
i'm meeting lisa and nathan at 7am for breakfast.... and i'm still up!!!! mwahaha!!!!

"you know the car dealership martin? i saw a lot of martins on the back of cars, and i was like 'i didn't know there were that many martins in the world!' and then i realized that it was a car dealership...."
-caryn

"wouldn't it be cool if i put a hole in the left nostril and the middle of the nose like right here underneath whatever you call it and the right nostril like in the middle and then put a string through it and then tie it and make a bow??"
-caryn

"do you really want me to put on my headphones and blow myself up?"
-me
"do you know how amusing that would be?"
-caryn

"man why does my underwear keep riding my butt?"
-caryn

"how about my underwear rides me like a person on a horse."
-caryn

"either no underwear or new pair!"
-caryn

my handwriting analysis.... lol

Regarding letter size... you clicked "Medium". Because your writing is neither really tiny or really large, this aspect of your writing is not a significant piece of your personality puzzle. We know you are not as intense as those tiny writers and you aren't as "flighty" as some of those really large writers. So, you fall into the middle-of-the-road on this character trait.

Concerning the letter slant of your sample (slant reveals emotional outlay)... you chose "Vertical". You use logical sound judgments to make decisions. You\re ruled by your head, not your heart. You tend to be cool, calm and collected and are good under pressure. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, you have poise.

Some may see you as "detached" or "unemotional". It's not that you don't feel emotions, you just have more discernment when and with whom you express your inner most feelings. You keep them inside longer than most people do. (If your writing is very large you can be very social, friendly and talkative, but still emotionally logical.)

The first time someone makes you mad, you probably won't say anything. But, you'll mentally put a mark on the wall and keep your mouth shut until they piss you off again and again. Then, BOOM! You'll explode, all that pent-up anger comes pouring out! And, you won't feel any regret at all, because you know they deserved it.

It may sound harsh, but you're ruled by self-interest. In emotional situations you ask yourself, "What's best for me?" And, unlike others, you actually have the discipline to follow your logic rather than your emotional whims.

In a relationship, you tend to show your affection by the things you DO rather than the things you SAY. The only exception is if your mate has expressed a need to hear "I love you" on a daily basis, then you'll gladly express this out of respect for your partner's needs.

Relating to the letters "d" and "t", your selection of "Retraced stem that is taller than normal" indicates that you demand respect and expect others to treat you with dignity. This trait is one component of integrity and usually leads to someone taking extra care in maintaining their appearance and their reputation.

I'd be willing to bet that you look at yourself in the mirror more than twice a day... won that one, didn't I?

Looking at the letter "i", you chose "The dot is close to and directly above the stem". Dotting your "i" so close to the stem tells me you have a great eye for detail and a keen memory, too. I bet you never forget what people say to you and can recall it years later, especially your lovers comments.

Oh boy... the letter "o"... this is a very insightful letter. When you picked "Exit loops on the right side", that told me you can be VERY secretive. As a matter of fact, the larger your inner loop, the more you tend to avoid giving complete and straight answers. You won't lie, but you won't just spout off information freely either. Your best defense is to answer questions with questions... "Would I say that?"

When I asked about the shape of the tops of the humps in the letters "m" and "n", you chose "Rounded on top". This let's me know that you're a "Cumulative Thinker"... you take the time to gather all the facts before you make decisions. I'll bet you read EVERY word of the instruction manual before you start a project. It's nice to get all the facts before you make a decision and then proceed in a systematic fashion. The only downside to having very rounded humps is that you often think of what you should have said during an argument and bring it up 30 minutes later. You may be smart, but some people think on their feet a bit faster.

This is an important trait! When I asked you how high the t-bar is crossed on the stem of the letter "t", you chose "Midway up the stem". This tells me that you set goals that are realistic, practical, and obtainable and that your self-esteem is good, but not super high. I would suspect you still have an aversion to taking too much of a risk and you'll hedge on the side of security.

The good news is your confidence is strong enough to leave a really bad situation and take those first key steps toward living your dreams. People that cross their "t's" in the upper middle are pragmatic and secure with themselves. But, there are still more dreams to achieve... so stretch yourself even more!

When asked how the t-bar ends, you chose "Knife point toward the right". This tells me that you are a bit of a smart-a**. Uhmm... sorry... the politically correct term is "sarcastic".

You see, sarcasm is a wonderful means of defending your ego. Often this sarcasm comes out as a wry sense of humor. People love that. But, if you're at all insecure, it can be directed at others and be a bit caustic and hurtful. Might I suggest that you bite your tongue next time you want to pipe in with a smart comment.

This is a great trait! Concerning your lower case t's, the last question deals with the TILT of the t-bar. You chose "Upward toward sky"... which tells me that you're optimistic, forward thinking, and a self-starter. Optimism is one key trait of successful and happy people. So, even if your life sucks today, you automatically assume that it will be better tomorrow!

Good for you... concerning your y's and g's, you chose "Narrow... some loop". This tells me that you are very selective about who you let in your inner loop. You are choosy about your relationships... no one can accuse you of being "easy"... that's for sure.

Concerning your y's and g's, you chose "Medium loop". This tells me that you have healthy physical drives... yes, that means both sexually... and in your ambition. So, you aren't a prude but you're not a slut either... you just "like" it.

Wow!... Concerning your y's and g's, you chose "Extra LARGE loop"... which tells me that you have a very active imagination.

Character traits associated with large loops include: gullible, great story tellers and big sex drive! You like variety in your life and you get bored very easily.

here are some random quotes that kelli and i found last night that amuse me much:

Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons!
For you are crunchy
And taste good with ketchup

Sign on baby's bib: SPIT HAPPENS

I can see clearly now, the brain is gone...

Look out for #1. Don't step in #2 either

Copywight 1994 Elmer Fudd. All wights wesewved

"Karate is a form of martial arts in which people who have had years and years of training can, using only their hands and feet, make some of the worst movies in the history of the world."
- Dave Barry.

"I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound as they fly by."
- Douglas Adams.

"Clean laundry helps the confidence level, which helps the self image, which helps um, you win games, which makes you rich, which leads to greed, which leads to more money!!!, Which causes immense spending, which then triggers high anxiety, which causes a heart attack at the age of 31 and puts you in a coma for 10 years while you lose all of your money and you start at the beginning again!"
--Benjer Petersen

"This morning I took two Ex-Lax in addition to my Prozac. I can't get off the john, but I feel good about it."
--unknown

Never trust a computer you can't throw out a window
--Steve Wozniak

To the optimist, the glass is half full.
To the pessimist, the glass is half empty.
To the engineer, the glass is twice as big as it needs to be.
To the plumber, any liquid in the glass is potential income.
(With thanks to John Pettitt and Ed O'Connell)

It happens. Sometimes people just explode. Natural causes.
from Repo Man

"My fellow Americans. I've signed legislation that will outlaw Russia forever. We begin bombing in five minutes." --President Reagan, before a scheduled radio broadcast, unaware that the microphone was already on

The best thing about Alzheimer’s is : You can hide your own Easter eggs. - Gramps

One day your prince will come, mine just took a wrong turn got lost and is too stubborn to ask for directions.

Duct tape is like the force, it has a light and dark side, and it binds the universe together

When you're a fat little kid, there are no more see-saws...only catapults

"Life is a role of toilet paper; long and useful"

All my hard work has boiled down to two things "May I take your order" and "Would you like fries with that"

Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall,
and all the kings’ horses and all the kings’ men...
ate scrambled eggs for 2 weeks

I have the body of a god... unfortunately its Buddha -Abigail Silverman-

ok so i got a little carried away.. but i find them amusing!!! lol

i have "moderate depression", according to a test i just took.... lol

Results:
Your Total Score is 15.
(Range 0-27)

None 0-5

Mild 6-10

Moderate 11-15

Severe 16-20

Very Severe 21+


NOTE: The above cutoff points are based largely
on clinical judgement rather than on empirical data

from kelli's journal:

ali-you should leave your hair like that and see what it looks like in the morning.

pete-but i have to go church in the morning

kelli-i have a shower

pete- a shower, but i just took one today!

yes i did say that... hehe :)

for happiness, see ali's journal. it, as kelli would say, cracks my leg. and now in the words of ali monnot...

i love you tracey.

did you see my mennonite cup?

did you see the dove?

look.

kelli can i have more apply-appleness for my mennonite cup?

do you like project?

yes you have.

this is them.

paper?

my water tastes apple.

i learned.

not usually.

will this kill my fingers?

but if i'm not?

it what?

my finger will explode?

it looked like a plus sign instead of a cross, like jesus died doing math!!

you guys are freaks.

you know that dc talk song or tobymac song "where my freaks at baby where my freaks?" he wrote it about you guys.

death and fear and dying!

shhhh!!!

i can't dance.

i like it there. it draws attention.

did you ever have water go up your nose?

like instead of "yo do you have a kleenex?" like "you do you have any dental floss?"

can i laugh?

wow.

magic! magic new pants!

raspberries are full of death and poison.

it tasted nice.

what?

no.

no!! raspberries are death!

no my grandma makes raspberry jam and you eat it and you say "you keep making raspberry jam and i will give you all my money and keep eating it!!" instead of liquid jesus, its jam jesus!! and its full of life and goodness! like jesus.

all the girls in the bathroom talking who they gonna take to the sadie hawkins (continues to sing song)....

i just said they kept on walking. like my ears kept on walking.

why do you put an a on staci's name? is that how she spells it?

on the end. an a.

your phone needs spell check.

oh.

4 years ago? how did you guys meet? mogadore? you went there 4 years ago? you went there that long? why didn't i know you then?

ok thats all. my brain can't keep up with ali's mouth...

i'm at kelli's house with her and MY ali. good stuff. weee!!! ali wants the computer, so i'll post later... weeee!!

this is great:

monogram1 (11:16:17 AM): I just asked kelli if she liked meat lovers
monogram1 (11:16:23 AM): except i said 'PETE lovers
monogram1 (11:16:24 AM): lol
relientkbandgeek (11:16:55 AM): lol good job ali
relientkbandgeek (11:16:58 AM): i'm so proud
monogram1 (11:17:04 AM): lol
relientkbandgeek (11:17:09 AM): everyone loves their pete lovers pizza!
monogram1 (11:17:15 AM): i sure do
relientkbandgeek (11:17:20 AM): ok that whole thing is definitely getting quoted in my weblog

"i'm washing my face because it tastes like sweat."
-caryn

"you just signed off now."
-me
"yeah it does that when its being constipated like that."
-caryn

so after last night's "fun", i've decided that i'm not taking pain killers any more. at least for awhile. its not gonna be much fun for me, cuz i have headaches almost constantly. but its to the point where i take pills every couple hours, and that can't be good for me... this sucks... i'm so tired of being in pain all the time. they didn't use to be this bad. but they are now. its so ironic, if thats the right word, that as my headaches are starting to get worse, i'm deciding that i'm not taking pain killers any more... i dunno. this whole thing sucks.

"peter's back. my friend peter. haven't you met him?"
-caryn

i feel so cruddy right now. i'm gonna blame it on my choking experience in the cafeteria, cuz that makes me feel better. my head is pounding, i'm really dizzy, and my ears are ringing.
so just on a whim, i looked up ibuprofen overdose online. and its scaring the crap out of me. i said that that stuff was wrong with me before i read the symptoms. am i ok? did i overdose? i didn't mean to. my head just hurt really bad.... i know how many i took today, but i can't remember if i took any yesterday or not. but i don't want to say anything cuz i don't want to make a big deal. this is probly nothing. its probly just me being too tired, and the coughing in the cafeteria made me feel like this. right?? (i'm scared....)

RODGORT13 (10:22:41 PM): like i hate when high pitched(your not really) girls talk about dumb things and guys and then they giggle
relientkbandgeek (10:23:15 PM): oh i hate that too!!! thats why i'm not a girly girl!! that proves my point!!!
relientkbandgeek (10:23:17 PM): lol
RODGORT13 (10:23:20 PM): yay
relientkbandgeek (10:23:32 PM): i need to tell my friends that think i'm girly now... then i can win

thats all i have to say. :)

awwww time for a quick melodramatic "i miss high school" moment. check this out. its by linda knight.

"Hold fast to your memories,
To all of the cherished moments
Of the past,
To the blessings and the laughter,
The joys and the celebrations,
The sorrows and the tears.
They all add up to a treasure
Of fond yesterdays
That you shared and spent together,
And they keep the ones you loved
Close to you in spirit and in thought.
The special moments
And memories in your life
Will never change.
They will always be in your heart,
Today and forevermore."

during fall break, girls, we are getting together. maybe i'll actually come to PH on a friday night, since i never did in HS... lol. i look forward to seeing all of you. :)
and for those of you that don't fall under the catergory of "girls", you're most likely someone from mcdonalds or have worked there at some time, and you know that i couldn't come home without seeing you guys. :)

i really like him. :)

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at least i have both of those classes with you...
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david you crack me up. you need to hook me up with some directions so i can come visit. or get your butt over here. cuz its been waaaaaay too long since the last time i saw you. like 3 years or something like that??

kelli knows me almost better than i know myself. she knows things that i won't admit to myself. i was in a crummy mood earlier. then i went to bible study. good stuff. even better, i went to starbucks afterward w/kelli, ox, and rachel. OH WAIT-even BETTER!!!! i used kelli's phone to call lacey to tell her happy birthday, and then to get elizabeth's number. i called liz, and everything works!! I'M GOING TO WEST LIBERTY!! in 10 days!!! i CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna see my sis!!! for a whole weekend!! woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ox played his guitar for us in the parking lot before we left starbucks. happy guitar music. he's really good!! i definitely want one of his cds when he gets them done. and he's gonna burn both further seems forever cds for me!!! HAPPINESS!!! if he doesn't remember to do it before bible study next week, he'll bring them to celebration. i'm excited. :) so anyway, after we left there kelli and i had much discussion in her car. she's known me for so very long. i love her. i can tell her anything, and know that its ok to do so. she figured something out about me that i've never told anyone. she also had some interesting insight on it...
this whole guy thing? i'm liking it. definitely different than anything i've ever done. but he's great. i'm still scared outta my mind about the whole thing tho. letting him in is gonna be hard. i hate letting people in. only a few people really know me. heidi, kelli, ali, and travis. i think thats about it. i dunno.... i really like being with him tho. its just gonna take some time.

"unless you listen to this song. i miss you by incubus. it makes me want to...i don't know.... do something to random boys."
-ali monnot

edit: i discovered while talking to her at b/s tonight that it was BRANDON BOYD not RANDOM BOYS..... haha just fyi

i got this from ali. its fun stuff.

If I were a month I would be: may
If I were a day of the week I would be: saturday
If I were a time of day I would be: 1 am
If I were a planet I would be: pluto
If I were a sea animal I would be: manatee
If I were a direction I would be: south
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: kelli's computer chair
If I were a historical figure I would be: elvis prestley so i could dress like that... haha
If I were a liquid I would be: dish soap
If I were a stone, I would be: marble
If I were a tree, I would be: a pine tree in pine cove
If I were a bird, I would be: humming bird
If I were a tool, I would be: a nail
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: a weed (not weed... A weed)
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: cloudy
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: pipe organ
If I were an animal, I would be: armadillo
If I were a color, I would be: orange
If I were an emotion, I would be: apathy
If I were a vegetable, I would be: broccolli
If I were a sound, I would be: the way it sounds when it rains on the roofs at camp luz
If I were an element, I would be: earth cuz ali says so
If I were a car, I would be: something with four wheels
If I were a song, I would be: bend and not break by dashboard confessional
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: peter jackson
If I were a book, I would be written by: frank peretti
If I were a food, I would be: chex mix
If I were a place, I would be: a porta potty
If I were a material, I would be: plastic
If I were a taste, I would be: something that people spit out
If I were a scent, I would be: body odor
If I were a religion, I would be: an ali cult
If I were a word, I would be: pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis
If I were an object, I would be: the floor cuz i get walked on
If I were a body part I would be: arm pit
If I were a facial expression I would be: expressionless
If I were a subject in school I would be: music theory
If I were a cartoon character I would be: clifford the big red dog
If I were a shape I would be: anarchy sign
If I were a number I would be: 23

travis: you're not heartless!! i'm the jerk that twists it around in my screwed up head and then spouts off crap like i did last night. you're seriously an awesome friend to me. you know how i am about letting people close to me tho. i don't say this often, but i love you. you're a good friend. just ignore me when i'm a jerk. or tell me that i'm being a jerk. :)

i like movies. i'm bored. this is a list of movies that i think you should watch.

the saint (val kilmer... mmmm. :-D)
robin hood: prince of thieves (i LOVE this movie. i should buy it. the soundtrack is AWESOME.)
a beautiful mind (my little brain has trouble comprehending it. but i love it)
10th kingdom (tv miniseries. the best one ever.)
fotr (yeah... i'm one of those geeks... haha)
two towers
extreme days (i laugh my butt off every time i watch it.)
what dreams may come (i need to see that again. once wasn't enough.)
alaska (kid's movie.. hehe)
warriors of virtue (another kids movie)
fight club (i only saw it once, but it was really good)
minority report (again, i only saw it once, but wow....)
family man (kinda cheesy, but the idea behind it is cool)
what a girl wants (hehe i LOVE that movie!!!)
gladiator (i'm not much for violence, but this is an awesome movie)
braveheart (if you haven't seen this you should shoot yourself. or go watch it. either one works... lol)
the patriot (i've only seen it once, but i remember that i really liked it)
the last of the mohicans (my mom hates it, but i love this movie. its really good.)
ghost (chick flick i guess, but still great)
princess mononoke (i borrowed that from lynne, and it was the best anime i've ever seen)
x-men and x2 (i have 2 brothers so i grew up watching stuff like this.... its great!!!)
the ring (i'm not much for scary movies, but that one was really good.)
titan a.e. (its a cartoon, but not necessarily a movie just for kids. its great. i have the soundtrack too.)
almost famous (i can't believe it took me so long to think of that one!! great movie!!!!!!!)
the back to the future trilogy (go buy them on dvd. its great. trust me.)
hook (that one needs no explanation. just watch it. :-D)

ok i'm tired of doing this now. but leave me a comment. tell me what movies i should watch. :)

so i had a great weekend. hanging out with brit, lolly, and jess was great. i'm really gonna miss jess and lolly. they need to come back and visit soon. the 4 of us are DEFINITELY gonna hang out a lot during fall and winter breaks. its fun to know that i'm actually gonna have friends when i go home.... haha jk. i have friends. but yeah. here's some random stuff from the weekend....

Lolly: Do farts have lumps? Ooops, then I have definitely crapped my pants!

Lolly: I'm a DAY tripper

Brit (As Lolly pulls on the towel rack): Don't pull my rack! [i wasn't there for this one, but it still cracks me up)

Lolly: I love cauliflower, even if it does look like genital warts

Jess: Lolly, did u really break his day??? I mean nose???

Tracey: I am NOT a girly girl!!!!

Reno: My phone number is Dog-8-kid!

Lolly is the turd (i can't remember what she is... ahhh!!!). Brit is the turd sucker. Jess is the turd eater. I'm the turd sniffer.

Dragging Greta by a string in the Marc's parking lot, then carrying her around in the store.

The claymation videos that we made on Friday night.

Watching Extreme Days-OH THATS RIGHT YOU PILES WATCHED IT WITHOUT ME!!!! *sniff*

My "i am not a girly girl" monologue (that is very unfortunately on video tape.... for NO ONE but the 4 of us to EVER see.... lol)

Anything involving Greta was good stuff.

Making fun of my cheesecake at lunch....

Lolly is in love.... awwww :)

and finally.... JIM TRAFICANT IS A HOTTIE AND A HALF!!!! and he's all mine... you can have your jafar.... haha

good stuff. good weekend. i love you girly girls!!! <3 <3

so my mom randomly came to visit me for a little bit today. her, vicki wining, and mildred grim were on their way home from the ladies retreat and they stopped to see me. it was nice. mom took my drip candle home (*sniff*) since i can't have it cuz its in a wine bottle. that makes me sad....

i need to start studying for my old testament test on thursday.... yuck...

I TALKED TO MY HEIDI TODAY!!!! she was online when i got back from marc's with brit, lolly, and jess. it was great!! i got to "fill her in" on everything thats been happening with me. i'd been wanting to talk to her about it for awhile, and i was so excited when i got to!! i bawled my eyes out when she got offline, but thats another story.... lol
i'm watching contact on tnt. i like this movie. i haven't seen it for awhile so i only sorta remember whats going on, but its good.
katie and alisa crack me up. i'm definitely requesting them to be my campers again next summer.
i have a headache. but thats ok. i usually have one. i'm gonna go now. i'm walking around with reno while he checks computer labs... woohoo... lol
go central!! :)

i'm talking to travis. cuz he emailed me. and we're having a really good conversation. that makes me happy. cuz i knew i wasn't gonna be able to follow thru with what i said the other day, (last sunday) i'm too much of a dork. me and reno are probly going to the soccer game tomorrow. and going to the dariette on the way. cuz thats good stuff. :)

i spent most of the day with brittany, lolly, and jess. those 3 crack me up. it was great. we made fun videos. that no one will ever see..... haha.

i went to church (undistracted). it was awesome. i'm glad that delight was with me tho, cuz the weather was HORRIBLE on the way back and she definitely helped me a lot, cuz i could barely see the road.

after i got back, i went back up to brit's room to hang out. that was when we made our videos. reno came up after he got back. i think that a good way for me to "test him" is to have him around when i'm with my friends, cuz i go nuts sometimes. like last night during/after celebration, i got reeeeally hyper. and tonight was pretty crazy too. i figure if he still likes me after seeing me like that, i'm good to go!! lol

i like him. (and now everyone who knows me is saying "tracey??? like a boy????? she hates boys!!!!" you shoulda heard lolly when we were talking about it earlier... lol) but yes my friends, its true. i like him. it scares the poop (i'm the turd sniffer!! haha girls) outta me tho. cuz i've never really done this before. i've never felt like this before...

ok so ali monnot is great. we just talked for awhile. these are the "highlights" of our conversation. haha good times with my girl in the hallway under the most hideous mural i've ever seen in my life... oh wait no!!! definitely not worse than the one in el campesino's. so anyway. fun stuff right here...

"communication...vidal in this whole relationship thing."
-ali

"ok so i'm just gonna talk and you tell me when to slow down or whatever."
-ali

"this is the God-to-honest truth."
-ali

"all cuddly-on-the-couch-whats-your-middle-name?"
-ali

"do you know my middle name? do you know my favorite cereal? you don't love me!!"
-ali

"first quote i get from the guy is the epitome of his personality."
-ali

"do you know his favorite cereal?"
"no."
"then you/i don't love him"
-ali, me, then both of us at the same time

"the last time we had this kind of conversation you told me i needed to be more Mennonite."
-ali

"do not fear."
"i don't fear. i have you on my side."
-ali, then me

"i'm so glad that we don't hate each other."
-ali

"i piss people off when i talk."
"and he doesn't know that yet cuz he doesn't know you."
-me, then ali

"keep these. live by them.
-ali

"lightbulbs don't ding."
-me

"dudette lets go get some hot dogs!"
-ali quoting ox

"if i was planning my funeral it would be kosher, but its yours so thats horrible!"
-ali

"alright, anything else you wanna ask the guru?"
-ali

"confession is to catholic church as ask the guru is to boyland."
-ali

"you just said boyland."
-me

"you can send me a copy [of the email] if you want."
-ali

ali-i just put them all in there. they amuse me greatly. :) thanks girl-you seriously keep my head on straight for me. it might fall off or something if you weren't around to kick me in the shins, call me a jerk, and get me back on track. i love you!!!

ok stuff to do... paper to write (i have to plan my funeral... haha), maybe write an email, and i need just a little bit of sleep.. :)

quote of the day:

carynpatriciaf (5:35:10 PM): good...im glad God put me here on this earth for some reason...to make Tracey laugh..i do in fact have a purpose! AMEN!

I'll wait a million years to feel
The way that I feel right now.
And I can't say now its figured out
But everything will work out somehow.

maybe its not directed at me, i dunno. but if it is, then it makes me wanna cry. he brings out the "girl" in me. the one that still holds on to romantic hopes and dreams, while the rest of me says "stupid tracey. such things don't exist."

ThisisLeahRo (10:20:50 AM): tracey, I'm with you... cerealology.... actually, maybe I'll do donutology just to be a little different!! Love you...
relientkbandgeek (10:21:12 AM): haha we can open up a shop--cereal and donuts. and we'll analyze them :-)
ThisisLeahRo (10:21:30 AM): yeah... while we read their butts to tell their fortune!!
ThisisLeahRo (10:21:30 AM): hehe

today's convo of the day... that girl cracks me up, leah i love you!! :)

so i want to get to know him better, but i'm scared. i don't open up easily. and i know that eventually i'll have to. that right there is enough to scare me away from all this. i don't really know him. what makes him different from the other people that i've known? i dunno... this whole thing scares me. i like him. and i'm scared of it...
i definitely think that boys are confusing too, by the way. guys always say that girls are confusing. well you know it goes both ways!!
I MISS MY HEIDI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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today was good. haha i just realized that theres sweet and sour sauce on my shirt from the late night meal... all well...

i miss heidi a lot. there's so much going on right now that i want to talk to her about!!! things are happening like crazy, and its so weird to not be able to just pick up the phone and call her. that girl is gonna get a bajillion page letter from me by the time i'm done.... lol.

its good stuff tho. i'm still scared of it. cuz its really different for me to like someone. especially since i've been so adamant about my anti-boys stance for the last few years. so i dunno... we'll just see where things go i guess.

now to bed with me, i wanna read for a bit before i fall asleep...

"The key to having a good relationship is our ability to allow another person to see us as we are. This usually means lowering the masks we sometimes hide behind and being open, honest, and perhaps even vulnerable about who we really are." -Twists of Faith

thats in esther's profile. she told me to read it after we talked yesterday. and lemme just say it kicked my butt when i read it. wow. thats exactly what travis has been saying to me. and exactly what i'm afraid of. i don't know what i'm getting myself into....

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ok so i've had time to think and can explain myself more now. its not that i don't have an awesome time when i'm in kidron, cuz i do. those guys crack me up. and there are definitely times that are just great. but in order to get to those times, i feel like i have to force them to do stuff. i dunno. maybe i'm not making any sense? i don't want anyone to think that i hate them or something, cuz i definitely DON'T! i just want to let them "initiate" things. cuz i'm tired of it. but i don't hate them!

so... other things are happening now, and i'm a little scared. scared might not be the right word. reserved? i dunno.... i've never really dated before. but i like him. and that scares me. it makes me feel vulnerable. (ooo good word usage tracey! woo hoo!!) ok i'm gonna post this, read for a bit, then i'm done working and off to lunch, then psych....

btw i got a 21/25 on my speech in communications, i was excited!! :)

oh yeah-last night was great. we spent about 8 or 9 dollars each, including a movie, popcorn, dinner, and dessert!! bruce almighty was hilarious. and God wore white chucks!! you can't beat that!!

HAPPY SING SILLY CAMP SONGS DAY!!!! sing a silly camp song to yourself today! here's a list of suggestions from ali's journal.
These songs may include but are not limited to ....
this little light of mine
no no never never uh uh uh
meet me in the river
little white box
stayed on
love the lord your God
riii--- rii-riiide on (boogey down and praise the Lord)
an austrian went yodelling
I am a C
the valley song
Jesus' brother Bob
FRUIT of the spirit (He's a peach of a savior...)
etc
etc
ETC!!!!

and you know what? ali forgot one of my favorites. shame on her. THE MEDLEY!! no week at our little mennonite camp is the same w/out the medley!! (especially when you're a counselor and get to be one of the leaders!! woo hoo!!). so yeah. sing a song. a silly song. a silly CAMP song. make yourself happy. and have a good monday :)

i love ali monnot. we're going to a movie tonight. read this.

monogram1 (5:16:36 PM): well I guess it can be the first 'semi-weekly pete and ali's under 10 dollar night out!'
monogram1 (5:16:38 PM): lol
monogram1 (5:16:40 PM): or something
t boredatwork y (5:17:04 PM): lol sounds good to me
monogram1 (5:17:21 PM): s.w.a.p.u.t.d. NIGHT OUT!
monogram1 (5:17:30 PM): lol. swaputd night out
monogram1 (5:17:33 PM): swaputd
monogram1 (5:17:47 PM): sometimes I'm funny... and sometimes I'm so dumb that I'm funny.
t boredatwork y (5:17:51 PM): swaputd
t boredatwork y (5:17:56 PM): i can't pronounce that very well
t boredatwork y (5:17:59 PM): lemme try again
t boredatwork y (5:18:04 PM): sssswwwwaaaappppuuuuttttddd
t boredatwork y (5:18:06 PM): ok i think i got it now
t boredatwork y (5:18:07 PM): lol
monogram1 (5:18:33 PM): :-) I think you just pretend there's no t and then it's swah-put
monogram1 (5:18:41 PM): or swah-pud
t boredatwork y (5:18:49 PM): oo that makes it even easier!!
t boredatwork y (5:18:49 PM): lol
monogram1 (5:18:58 PM): yay!
monogram1 (5:18:59 PM): :-)

we're going to go see bruce almighty at the dollar theater. i haven't seen it yet. its supposed to be hilarious. woo hoo! and i need some happiness, so it'll be good stuff.

i decided something today. i've been thinking about it for awhile. i'm not going to ben's anymore. i'm not going to force travis to talk to me on IM anymore. i'm not going to go to any more soccer games. i'm not going to try to talk them into coming to visit me. i'm done. i feel like my friendship with those guys is totally one-sided. i'm the one that emails, hardly ever getting a response. i'm the one that drives over there to visit. i'm the one that shows up at ben's time after time, even though i tell them that i'm not driving over there any more. well this time i'm really not. unless i get some sort of indication that i'm wanted, i'm done. i'm not going to force them to be friends with me and hang onto friendships if they're not interested. i came to this conclusion earlier today when i IMed travis and he didn't talk. as usual. after awhile he put up an away message, so i IMed him and told him something along the lines of this: i'm not going to force you to talk to me on IM any more. if you want to talk to me, you can IM me, cuz i feel like i make you talk to me when you don't want to... blah blah blah along the lines of that. i told him that i was on my way to work, and if he wanted he could IM me on my work screen name, knowing that he wouldn't. and he didn't. why do i bother? they don't care if i'm there or not. when i am there, i just feel like a 3rd wheel. so i'm done.
and don't think this is gonna be easy for me. this hurts. i'm afraid that i'm gonna break down and not follow through with it, as dumb as that may sound. but i'm tired of trying so hard and feeling like i'm just in the way. travis told me last night that i needed to be more open and tell people that i'm mad or hurt. well right now i'm both.
so. until i hear differently from a nussbaum or a lehman, this is it. i'm done. i'm hurting and no one cares.

i'm in kidron. i wasn't planning on being here so long, but you know me. i always end up at ben's when i'm out here.
i got up at like 10 till 9 this morning, then went and watched some CC with reno. my little brother got a PR, so that was cool. tim and i hung out with craig for awhile, then he left, so tim and i ate lunch and hung out in myers until 2 (cuz he couldn't be in my dorm till 2). then we watched what a girl wants cuz travis IMed me the program that i needed to watch it. i like that movie. HEIDI CALLED ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was super excited. i love my heidi. :) she's going to sweden now, not mexico. slight change in plans.... lol. so then tim and i went to camp. i'm gonna finish this when i get back on campus...

ok. i'm back. the 50th anniversary thing at camp was nice. i'm glad that i went. i saw fun people. i mentioned to deb that i'm interesting in shadowing a director for a week next year, or maybe even co-directing. i dunno. i definitely want to shadow tho. i called ben after all the stuff was over, cuz it was only like 8:15. so i went over there around 8:30 or 8:45 (after a nice public fight with my mom....). i was there till a little after 11. brad had about a million people over watching movies, so i sat out in the other room with travis. it was fun. but i dunno... he can see thru me. not a lot of people can. i think that might be a bad thing...

all well. i'm gonna get off here now, maybe sleep a little. i'm tired and sleep sounds good right now.