kelli knows me almost better than i know myself. she knows things that i won't admit to myself. i was in a crummy mood earlier. then i went to bible study. good stuff. even better, i went to starbucks afterward w/kelli, ox, and rachel. OH WAIT-even BETTER!!!! i used kelli's phone to call lacey to tell her happy birthday, and then to get elizabeth's number. i called liz, and everything works!! I'M GOING TO WEST LIBERTY!! in 10 days!!! i CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna see my sis!!! for a whole weekend!! woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ox played his guitar for us in the parking lot before we left starbucks. happy guitar music. he's really good!! i definitely want one of his cds when he gets them done. and he's gonna burn both further seems forever cds for me!!! HAPPINESS!!! if he doesn't remember to do it before bible study next week, he'll bring them to celebration. i'm excited. :) so anyway, after we left there kelli and i had much discussion in her car. she's known me for so very long. i love her. i can tell her anything, and know that its ok to do so. she figured something out about me that i've never told anyone. she also had some interesting insight on it...
this whole guy thing? i'm liking it. definitely different than anything i've ever done. but he's great. i'm still scared outta my mind about the whole thing tho. letting him in is gonna be hard. i hate letting people in. only a few people really know me. heidi, kelli, ali, and travis. i think thats about it. i dunno.... i really like being with him tho. its just gonna take some time.