i'm trying not to hurt. i'm trying not to cry. i'm trying to be brave. its just not working. my heart is rebelling against my head and i hate it.
i hate being in a room by myself. i don't know why. i never have before. but i can't handle it now.
i hate trying to sleep. every time i start to doze off, my brain rebels and starts thinking a lot.
i hate that there's nothing i can do to make it easier for either of us.
i just don't understand God sometimes i guess.... is it ok to say that? why bring someone into my life, only to take them away again? what was the point?
i'm not blaming anyone for this. i just don't understand. and i'm tired of hurting.