its like being on a roller coaster. one minute i'm at the top of a hill and things are going great and i'm feeling the whole 'i'm gonna be ok' thing. and then the next minute, i'll see something that provokes a memory, or i'll think about something, and its like plunging down into a huge black hole. i don't know if i can take this. i think it would almost be better if i was depressed all the time, or happy all the time. cuz this whole up and down thing just isn't working for me. it hurts too much.....