i really do love/appreciate roger. we had a really good talk tonight. i wasn't sure what to expect, but yeah... some stuff was said that i won't ever forget. roger and i have been through a lot, but our friendship has stayed intact. there was one thing that he said that will stick in my mind forever. i saw him the night that janson broke up with me the first time. he walked me to the write place because i didn't know where it was. he said that i was a walking zombie, and i threatened suicide. he said he didn't sleep at all that night. to be honest, i don't remember the suicide part. i don't remember a lot of that night, or most of the days and nights to follow. but the fact that he cares that much... that means a lot to me. roger is a good friend, and i love him.