did i ever mention how much i hate crying? cuz i really do. a lot. but yet, i've spent the last hour and a half crying. i guess i'm still in shock. i dunno. i'm not mad, i'm just hurt. i'm trying to understand, i am. i'm just hurt a lot.

you thought that i didn't trust people after heidi? ha. that was nothing compared to now. there are no exceptions in the world. everyone will hurt me some time or another, no matter how much they tell me that they won't.