today's leah's 18th birthday. jen ritzert came out and they spent the night at the dutch inn last night. they came over to see me, too. i got leah milk duds and made her a fun cd (that i was still working on when they came... lol) my mom made her tang bread, but they had to leave before it was finished. i gave her my fluffy steering wheel cover that won't fit on my steering wheel, too.
i started thinking after they left. i remember back in like jr hi when the 3 of us and amy vadasz (jen's best friend at the time) were all in the same cabin. we had the stupidest fight that week. amy and i got so mad at jen and leah cuz they kept going off on their own and not including us in anything. it was so stupid, but we were SO mad!!! and then as soon as we got home, things were ok again cuz i had leah back. i feel like i've been gyped (gypped? gipped? giped? i dunno how to spell that word) or something. i guess from what jen says amy has really changed a lot (and not for the better) since the last time i saw her. i was never real close to her to begin with, we just had fun that week since our respective best friends were ignoring us. leah and jen are really close now, and i don't have anyone. i mean, i am SO CLOSE to heidi, don't get me wrong!! (76 days till i see her!!) but i dunno... i was just a little bummed after they left. sometimes i really miss being close to leah. she was my best friend from like 2nd or 3rd grade until a few years ago when we had that fight. yeah, we're still friends, and we still do stuff sometimes (altho not as much with jenny gone), but things will never be the same. ever. i guess thats ok. we both grew up and grew apart. its just kinda depressing to think about sometimes.