Wednesday, November 05, 2003
ali--i'm starting to forget stuff... lol. IM or email me with parts that i said "i don't remember" or "i forget" or whatever if you remember them!
we got to the coffee house and got drinks. i know ali got a cappuccino (and she said its better than starbucks!!!), i got an apple cider (gross gross gross it was gross) and david got... hmm... chai maybe? i don't remember for sure. so we sat on this little couch by the window. we were just sitting and talking when a girl (yes ali a GIRL!! she was like 19 or 20 at most, not a lady like you keep saying!! lol) came over to us. she was doing a survey for her drama class or something like that, and she asked us a bunch of fun random questions. these were our answers, or the ones that ali and i remember, anyway.
Best Thing You've Ever Tasted:
David-
Ali- baked oatmeal
Tracey- my grandma's cheesy potatoes
Worst Thing You've Ever Tasted:
David-
Ali- deoderant
Tracey- rancid milk
Best Thing You've Ever Touched:
David- some expensive fancy Gibson guitar
Ali- gearshift on a Plymouth Prowler
Tracey- curly hair
Worst Thing You've Ever Touched/Felt:
David- running on hot asphalt barefoot for 2 days
Ali- breaking leg and having bones splinter out of her flesh
Tracey- being burnt
Best Smell:
David- fresh baked bread
Ali- coffee
Tracey- coffee
Worst Smell:
David- dead skunk in a small room
Ali- rotten eggs
Tracey- rancid fermented milk
Best Sight:
David- horses running in the moonlight
Ali- a Monet painting
Tracey- sunset
Worst Sight:
David- the paintings that were on the wall in the coffee house
Ali- festering laceration
Tracey-
Best Heard:
David-
Ali- good acoustic guitar playing
Tracey- Dashboard Confessional
Worst Heard:
David-
Ali- bad electric guitar
Tracey-
so those are the ones that i can remember. it was funny to listen to each others' answers. i don't remember why for sure (except that ali and david were making fun of me), but at one point i ended up not talking for like 15 minutes. david kept trying to get me to talk--like he put his arm around me, then tickled me. i frantically motioned for ali to tell him to stop, and she explained that i get nasty when i'm tickled... lol. i don't remember how i started talking again, but i gave in eventually. all well. i coulda lasted longer, tho!! we headed back to campus then, and funny stuff happened on the way back. ali was driving down the road, got confused for a sec or something, and the next thing i know she's turning onto a one way street--the wrong way!! i was like "ali! one way street!!" she quickly pulled into an alleyway that was near us. only it wasn't really an alleyway, as we discovered at the end of it when she came down off of the curb to get back onto a street. it was like a little parking drive or something. it was sooo funny. anyway. when we got back we just hung out in the student center until 11 when michelle got off work. they played nertz, i crocheted, played with michelle's moldable eraser (i want one!!!!!), checked my email, wrote in my journal, stuff like that. we played the band game, too. it was ali and david vs. michelle and sara, and whenever michelle and sara couldn't think of one i popped in. it was funny to listen to. at 11, we headed back up to michelle's room. ali and david painted daises on a big red rubber ball (like in the song the pirates who don't do anything) while michelle and i sat out in the kitchen eating oreos, talking, and looking at pictures. i love michelle. she understands me totally, no matter what i say. i like that. it was a good time.
i'm tired now. i'm going to bed. ali tell me if i missed anything!
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
Monday, November 03, 2003
ok lemme think....
so we went to the bank. david and i stayed in the car, and ali stayed in her car. we watched her for awhile cuz it was hilarious. i don't know what she was doing, but she was in her front seat, but in her back seat at the same time.... i'm not exactly sure why.... lol. so then we headed to the thrift store, with ali following us cuz david was the one who knew where it was. he has radio ADD and switched stations after every song, it was funny. we listened to all kinds of stuff: the best part was when we listened to trashy rap music. it cracked me up to no end to be sitting in david lantz's (jimothy!!!!) car listening to in da club and right thurr. and having him know the words.... lol. i really wanted to call leah and tell her, but we didn't have a cell phone in our car. he informed me that we were going to a little salvation army thrift shop on the way because he'd told everyone in the other car about this great awesome huge thrift store and he found it very funny to take them to salvation army. he even did that little thing with his hands that bad guys in movies do when they're discussing their evil plots. i laughed a lot. david is shady. thats what michelle and ali tell me. so david knew where he was going, but he forgot how far it was. he almost ran out of gas. i think that woulda been kinda funny. but it woulda sucked. so we went to salvation army. and we all bought stuff. it was a good salvation army. i bought a crap load of books, a sesame street sheet (it has numbers, so i'm not quite in the ali and cara sesame street club cuz theirs' have abc's. but i'm close. lol), and a pea coat!! it was $16, and i really liked it, but i wasn't sure if i wanted to pay that much. they convinced me to get it, so i carried it over to the register with me. then ali informed me that everything with a yellow tag was half off. and my coat had a yellow tag. so i got an awesome gray pea coat for $8. that was happiness. i talked to a fun old man in line. he wanted to buy my coat with his senior discount, then sell it to me so i would have to pay even less for it. it was fun. then david got gas. good boy. lol. then we went to the other thrift store. it was huge. we were there for a long time, looking at stuff and messing around. i bought some more books and a record (simon and garfunkel-bridge over troubled water!!!). there was some fun stuff in that thrift store, let me tell you. after awhile we headed back to CCAD cuz michelle had to work 4:30-11. on our way back david was like "should we go the same way we came or a different way?" i said something about not being decisive and that he should pick. he told me i had to pick. i said no. he said yes. and so on and so forth. i asked him what if i i didn't answer, and he said then we'd never go back. i still didn't answer. he was like "you think i'm joking don't you?" and i was like "no i know you're not and thats the problem...." lol. it was so funny to be sitting there arguing about something so stupid as what way we were going to go back to CCAD. we ended up going the different way, in case you were wondering. so we got back to the school and michelle went to work. ali david and i ate some el campesino's. that was only the 3rd time i've had food from there. but its good stuff. after that we went to the student center to keep michelle company at work. i don't remember what all we did. we watched the end of some movie, i crocheted, ali michelle and david played nertz, just hung out. after awhile ali david and i decided to go out for coffee. so we went to the coffee house, or something like that. i forget the exact name.
i need to write a paper for psych thats due at 2. i'll finish this later. soon if i have time. later today if i don't.
Sunday, November 02, 2003
so. ali and i made a 3 and a half hour trip (that includes going from her house to el campesino's to the gas station and then finally getting on the road) in what? like 2-2 1/2 hours??? lol. quality. it was a great great ride down. we ate all the chips and salsa from el camp's (hahaha suckers!! lol jk) and drank pepsi and just talked. it was great. i love car trips. especially when i can just be me. so when we got down pretty close to columbus, ali got so freaking hyper. it was hilarious. she was like bouncing in the seat. CCAD is so easy to get to. that makes me happy, cuz that means i can go back some time. :) so we called michelle when we got on campus, but she wasn't in her room. we were like ahhh!!!!!!! but then i randomly saw her sitting on a sidewalk next to the road we were driving on. so we parked. then ali and i ran around like maniacs "hiding" from michelle. we hid behind all these trees and bushes and stuff, then at the end we started saying her name until she heard us. it was much fun. many hugs and much happiness ensued then. so this doesn't take absolutely forever, i'm just gonna summarize for a bit. we got our stuff into michelle's room, gave our IDs to the desk, got ali a visitor parking permit, tried to go to the woodshop so michelle could do homework but it was closed. it was halloween of course, and we saw some strange stuff... lol. and lots of boob. we saw so much boob!!! lol. we met michelle's friend and next year apartment-mate sara, who was fun. michelle helped her with her halloween costume and stuff. i don't remember if it was before or after that, but michelle gave us chipotle for dinner. horrid. but maybe it was just that particular one i dunno. just horrible. lol. we went to kroger's. that was fun. much fun. we bought fun fun stuff, like bread (and i tell you what, this was more than bread. this was a freaking legal weapon. this was the longest hardest piece of bread i've ever seen in my life. we were using it as a sword, dropping it on the floor to listen to the noise that it made, stuff like that... lol), ben and jerry's cuz i'd never had it, a hilarious card for david, and michelle bought stuff for her dorm. when we got back on campus we went to the student center so michelle could do homework. ali and i played spit, then she taught me nertz. which really is just dutch blitz with regular cards. that makes me happy--i can play it without having dutch blitz cards now, cuz i don't! so the 3 of us played that. what did we do next? i think we just went up to michelle's room and hung out. we got a pizza with her suitemate, ibeliz (i know i'm spelling it wrong, but i have no idea how) and ibeliz's boyfriend lee, even tho we weren't really hungry. lol. we ate much ice cream. chubby hubby, phish food, and cookie dough (ali i'm a slacker!!!). yummmmmy. i let ali give me a hair cut. i was scared!!! lol. i haven't had a real hair cut in awhile, just trims. but i now have layered hair. for the first time in my life. i was so scared while she was cutting it... lol. i think i like it. i need to blow dry it and maybe curl it, then i'll know for sure if i do. but i'm pretty sure i do. :) after that we talked for awhile, tried to find a movie to watch but no one had one, so we just hung out in the lobby watching trading spaces until we started to fall asleep. then we went to bed, talked for awhile, michelle pretended to be a puppy (you had to be there... it was so funny), then fell asleep. we were going to get up early and go to polaris yesterday morning, but we forgot to set an alarm, so we didn't get up till like 10. that was nice. i like sleeping in. we met melanie at 11:30. that was great. i love mel. she's great. we ate lunch at wendy's (the FIRST wendy's ever!!! lol) and just hung out with her. she had to leave around 12, which sucked, but it was awesome to see her. after that we hung around in michelle's dorm waiting for david. i don't know what time it was, 12:30 or 1? when there was a knock on the door. it was sara, she'd found david (or he'd found her or something) and brought him up to us. lol. that kid cracks me up to no end.
i'm tired of typing right now. i'm gonna read. since i have like 7 books now or something. more later.
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MASS funness! Wee! Fun quotes and things from this weekend in short and brief:
"I'm gonna go get raped now guys."-Pete
Painting daisies on a big red rubber ball.
Playing nertz!
Driving the wrong way on a one way and falling off of curbs.
Wet willies!
Squirt gun wars.
Peacoats!
Listening to Big Pimpin, In Da Club, and other trashy rap songs.
The death of iced chai.
Seeing too much boob.
David and I warring against each other.
BEN AND JERRY'S!
Hearing Tracey and David argue about whether or not she climbed a tree or not.
Taking El Campesino's all the way down there.
Making goals.
The car ride to and from with MY Pete.
Michelle kicking me in the stomach in the middle of the night.
Cutting Tracey's hair.
"Hot Dang."-Me
The disgustingness that is Chipotle.
Finding Michelle on the street.
Being interviewed in the coffee shop.
The goodness of the double shot caramel cappuchino I got (kelli my love... it was better than Starbucks cappuchino!)
The fact that David Lantz knows all the words to the 'right herr' song and knows all the words to 'In Da Club'.
I can't think of many more... I feel like telling all about the weekend... but that's pretty much it... OH! And I left my journal there! Death and fear and dying... that means I have to start a new one and that makes me sad sad sad. I had much goodness in my old one. I think I left in the student center. My Shelli is looking for it for me. I'm going to go and check my bags one more time to make sure... and try on the mass quantities of clothing I bought while thrifting.
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t boredatwork y (2:41:17 PM): what??? lol
Rayne1435 (2:41:29 PM): it was some weird test
Rayne1435 (2:41:31 PM): i took it
Rayne1435 (2:41:38 PM): it said to enter 3 females
Rayne1435 (2:41:46 PM): then to enter 3 friends that were male or female
Rayne1435 (2:41:50 PM): you're my lucky star!
t boredatwork y (2:42:02 PM): haha thats hilarious!!!
Friday, October 31, 2003
Thursday, October 30, 2003
24 hours from now, me and ali will be in columbus. with michelle. YAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
To the tune of "Backstreet's Back"
Gandalf:
Fellowship, (yeah)
What a bad trip (yeah)
fellowship
I am your white knight
Gandalf's back, alright
Hey, yeah
Oh my Gods, I'm back again
Dwarves and hobbits, everybody sing
Gonna bring the whiteness, show you how
Gotta question for me better ask it now, yeah
Pippin: Are you the original?
Gandalf: Yeah
Merry: Are you the same one?
Gandalf: Yeah
Legolas: Are you actual?
Gandalf: Yeah
Aragorn: If you're going to help me, you better cut that lighting now
Gandalf:
Fellowship, (yeah)
What a bad trip (yeah)
fellowship
I am your white knight
Gandalf's back, alright
Alright
The balrog's whip was quite a shock.
I smote his ruins upon the rocks
So you thought I'd died there when I fell,
But I got it goin' on again
Yeah
Pippin: Are you the original?
Gandalf: Yeah
Merry: Are you the same one?
Gandalf: Yeah
Legolas: Are you actual?
Gandalf: Yeah
Aragorn: If you're going to help me, you better cut that lighting now
Gandalf:
Fellowship, (yeah)
What a bad trip (yeah)
fellowship
I am your white knight
Gandalf's back, alright
Alright
So every hobbit, everywhere
Don't be afraid, don't have no fear
We're gonna help the world, make it safe again,
As long as we are living, we will try to stop the ring
Fellowship, (yeah)
Had such a bad trip, (yeah)
Fellowship
I am your white knight (our white knight)
Gandalf's back
Fellowship (fellowship)
Yeah (such a bad trip)
Was such a bad trip (fellowship)
Yeah (fellowship had such a bad trip)
Fellowship (fellowship, bad bad trip)
I am your white knight (fellowship)
Gandalf's back, alright!
found this on a disturbing website
Glycerine by Bush
It must be your skin that I'm sinking in
It must be for real 'cause now I can feel
And I didn't mind
It's not my kind, it's not my time to wonder why
Everything gone white
Everything's grey
Now you're here Now you're away
I don't want this
Remember that
I'll never forget where you're at
Don't let the days go by
Glycerine Glycerine
I'm never alone
I'm alone all the time
Are you at one, or do you lie
We live in a wheel where everyone steals
But when we rise it's like strawberry fields
I treated you bad, you bruise my face
i couldn't love you more you've got a beautiful taste
Don't let the days go by
Could've been easier on you
I couldn't change though I wanted to
It should have been easier by three
Our old friend fear and you and me
Glycerine Glycerine
Don't let the days go by
Glycerine
Don't let the days go by....
Glycerine Glycerine
Glycerine Glycerine
Bad moon white again
Bad moon white again
As she falls around me
I needed you more when you wanted us less
I could not kiss, just regress
It might just be clear simple and plain
Well that's just fine that's just one of my names
Don't let the days go by
It could've been easier on you you you
Glycerine, Glycerine, Glycerine, Glycerine
again, if you want to hear it lemme know, i'll IM it to you. i'm relientkbandgeek.
Monday, October 27, 2003
we worked on little saint's stuff all day long. i made a wal-mart/dollar general/dollar general/marc's/dollar general/dumpster diving run with chelsie, which was fun. i hadn't talked to her much before. we were gone for a long time. but it was cool. i found out that she's neighbors with josh rettig. thats so weird! i find it amusing that i have to come an hour away from home to meet people that live so close to me! i wonder if lynne ever met her? anyway. we listened to dashboard. there's a couple other girls in our hall that like dashboard. so thats exciting!! :)
anyway. we got all our decorating done around 6 or so, probly. and it looked freaking awesome!!! our end of the hall was done like a pirate ship, with cardboard on the walls painted to look like the side of a ship, and nets from the ceiling with jewelry in them, and a treasure map, and good stuff like that. then the middle of the hall was blocked off, and we made it so that you had to "walk the plank" to get to the other end of the hall. and on that side, they were underwater with a bubble machine and blue paper covering the lights, fish, mermaids, and a treasure chest with candy. awesome stuff like that. our hall was awesome!!! we had a plank, and a bubble machine, and roberta had a peg leg! and we SO got screwed. 2nd place??? what the crap is that???? oh well....
while we were decorating, kristen and i decided that ali and ox should come, so i called ali and after confusing her, lol, she said she'd call kelli and ox. so they hung out in our hall for awhile last night. that was so much fun. after little saints was over and we'd torn down everything, i sat out in the hallway with ali, kelli, ox, and reno. they made random grafiti (sp??) for my wall. which was exciting. i hung them up. but i'm out of sticky tack now. i need some more so i can finish putting up my pictures.
ok i'm gonna go write some more of my english paper so i can go to b/s and starbucks with a clear conscience tonight... lol
do my survey thingy down below!!! please!!!!!!!!
Sunday, October 26, 2003
is anybody out there?
if so, leave me comments and fill this out.
+what is my name?
+what is your first memory of me:
+how long have we been friends:
+tell about one memory we share together:
+describe me in four adjectives:
+if we could spend a day together what would we do:
+name one thing you really like about me:
+if you could give me a gift what would it be:
+have we ever hugged:
+what is something embarrassing that i've done:
+what do i usually look like when you see me:
+when have i helped you:
+what do i say all the time:
+do you think we will be friends in 5 years:
+what do you admire about me:
+has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't:
+what advice would you give me, in general:
+suggest a band / cd for me to listen to:
+is there a song that reminds you of me:
+what will i be doing later in life:
seriously guys, do this!!! its fun!!! or at least it will be for me!!!! :-D
Saturday, October 25, 2003
i got home at like 5, played with my doggy, then did basically nothing until like 6:30. i stopped in at mcdonads to see people and pick up my paycheck from like 2 months ago, but i only recognized like two people there, not counting managers. i was so confused....and sad... :( lol. but i got my paycheck, and thats happy. :) brit merriman wanted me to come home tomorrow night for her halloween party, but i'm not going to. tomorrow is little saints!!! yay for decorating our hall and dressing up and giving candy to kids!!! :) but anyway. i went to the football field after that. i had to park out in the middle of nowhere, but all well. i went in and talked to some band people. then i went on a christy hunt. she saw me coming, so i didn't get to jump on her like i wanted (and this calls for a farrah face). XD then we went to find casey. yay for friends!!!! it was so much fun to hang out with those two!!! i haven't seen them in waaaay too long!!!!! like since july or august or something. i talked to jordan posey for awhile. that kid is awesome. every time i see him, we just sorta pick up where we left off and i forget that i haven't seen him for months. i lost christy during 3rd quarter, but i ended up sitting with fun people from my church!! i ran into pastor jan, and after talking to him for awhile i asked him how will, bj, and the girls were, so he took me over to where will and bj were sitting. it was like the little columbiana nazarene "place to be". there were a lot of people from church sitting over there. so between pastor jan and will, they convinced me to come home next weekend since i haven't been at church since august (not because i haven't been going to church, i just hadn't been home since then). will said jeremiah will be home next weekend, so that should be fun stuff. :) i'm also gonna hang out with casey till 4 on saturday and christy after 4 on saturday. stupid work schedules!!! lol. christy and i went to PH after the game (i think it was only like the 3rd time i've ever gone to ph after a football game.. lol). staci was there, and sue was home from st. mary's for the weekend, so it was fun to see them. its so....refreshing? if thats the right word? to be with people who have known me for a long time and are totally used to the way that i act. staci's dating eric westfall, and thats cute. he and cj price ate dinner with us. i'm really out of leetonia gossip. cj and amanda are broken up, and amanda is dating shawn ryan... man am i out of it!!! oh! some columbiana people were there, including laurie and jordan. jordan took me for a spin in his mini cooper. that was fun. i think he should drive his mini cooper over here to malone to see me!!! lol. after PH i went over to christy's house cuz i had to meet charlie, the newest addition to their family! :) he's so cute!!! his little floppy ears and tail and he's just so cute!!! awww!! puppy!!!!!! lol. i got home around 12:30, and in bed around 1. i got up at 9:40 or so, did some of my laundry, and tim and i watched my senior dvd. it made me miss people. like tkach, derek, esenwein, even patrick!! i used to see those guys (with the exception of esenwein cuz he quit) not only in school every day, but then almost every night cuz of work. they definitely kept me entertained. :) i didn't see tkach. i don't think he was at the game. but i definitely wanna see him and ash next weekend!!!! i miss them!!!! ok i've said that i miss people enough now... lol. i got back here around 1:15, and now i'm at work. my car is still full of stuff, cuz i didn't have time to take it out. and i have to go to alliance later tonight to meet my mom and get all the things that i left at home... lol. my fingers are cold and don't want to type any more. so i'm done for now. this is like a freaking book, its so long!! lol
Friday, October 24, 2003
i worked 3:30-6:30, went and watched MY ali play some powderpuff FB, then went to applebee's for dinner with ali, kelli, ox, doug, shannon, tj, and donny. that was fun. i like those people. they crack me up. i needed cracking up tonight.
ali kelli and ox went to walmart, but i wanted to get back here. so i didn't go to walmart. i got back just as celebration was ending, of course. i missed my first celebration. thats sad. thats the start of the crappy part of my night.
so i get back to my room and theres a note on the door from caryn's friend jami, telling us that she left us brownies. i was like awwww thats nice. but then i get into my room she'd left the brownies wrapped in tin foil ON THE FLOOR!!! so needless to say, there were ants everywhere. millions of tiny little ants. so i spent a good 10 minutes taking care of that.
then i realized that my swelling-ness on my was even bigger than before, so i went on a benadryl hunt. dani, the RA for the other half of my floor, had a lotion/cream kind. so we used that.
so i get back here and reno's still not in his room. i IMed mike to find out if he was there, and he was. reno used mikes screenname for a sec, made fun of me for my crappy night, then hurried off to bed. i know he wasn't trying to be mean, but the mood i was in made the whole thing worse. everything that i'd been holding in for the last 3 months or so just came pouring out, and i just sat here at my computer and bawled my eyes out. i miss heidi. i miss being around people that know me. i miss being able to call heidi when i need to talk-more importantly, when i need to cry. i couldn't stand being in this little room anymore, it was starting to feel clausterphobic. so i went out for a walk. i went out to that little white gazebo, sat down, and just bawled and bawled. after 10 or 15 minutes, i started freezing, so i came back in. i dunno... i seriously think that something is wrong with me. i shouldn't feel the way i do, but i do. i feel crummy almost all the time. and no one can understand that like heidi can. i'm not gonna make it with her so far away. i just can't do it.
Thursday, October 23, 2003
reno...i know you don't think i suck. i'm just a jerk!!!! i'm sorry :(
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
for shame!How could you he was my
friend...*tear*
Do you know the Muffin man or the gingerbread man... Hmmm
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anyway.......
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
You are the Girl Next Door
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Your type is the Goofball
Laughter is the way to your heart. A guy with a great sense of humor isdefinitely the one for you! You want a Goofball, someone who can laugh athimself and make you laugh, too. There's no bigger turn-off than a guy whotakes himself too seriously. You know that if a guy is silly, he's generallyself-confident and secure. Your man is a people magnet and everyone'sfavorite friend. There's never a dull moment with your jokester nearby. Youcrave excitement and laughter, and your goofball enhances those things inyour life. You probably think life is too short to spend it without asmile. Your goofy guy will ensure that that doesn't happen — hislighthearted and silly ways make everything a little bit brighter.
Yellow
You're yellow, the color of joy and energy — two things you definitely bring to everyone around you. It's hard for anyone to be sad or lonely in your presence; your sunny disposition and cheery outlook just won't allow it. The warmth of your personality shines through in the kindness you show friends and family (and strangers, too). Always ready with a lighthearted joke or heartfelt compliment, you know how to make people feel good about themselves, so they can't get enough of you. Yellow is a warm and inviting color for a warm and inviting person — you!
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I'm not coming home,
No
And I wished it all away
I felt so alone
And the darkness crept it's way
Like stars we know will die too soon
There is never any sunrise here in the shadows of eclipsing moons
Crawling on a tightrope
The bravest thing I have is hope
Daylight, save me
Daylight, save me
Tonight, tonight
Halogen, the lights will flicker
Incadescent burning lies
And the silence stands for nothing
Desperate I search the skies aching for a spark
Trembling in pitchest dark
Mission Control: U.S.S. Gloria, this is mission control, do you copy?
We have lost contact with the U.S.S. Gloria
U.S.S. Gloria: Mission Control, this is the U.S.S. Gloria, do you read me?
Mayday, we have lost primary guidance functions
News Reporter: The crew is now out of radio contact.
Presently there is no way for us to know whether they are alive or dead.
Our hopes and prayers go out with you all.
Mission Control: U.S.S. Gloria, this is mission control, do you copy?
U.S.S. Gloria: Houston this is the U.S.S. Gloria.
Good to hear your voice
We are coming out of the eclipse now.
I see the sunlight. it's beautiful
the sunlight is beautiful.
Jesus Christ, Light of the World
You never did forget me
And when I bled in darkness, You held me
Still held me
When desparate nights I cursed You
You loved me, still loved me
Jesus Christ, You dry the tears
You break my heart of stone
Your words are life
Cut marrow through
The darkness, to the bone
A heart of flesh You gave me
Only You can save me
Savior
Daylight
I am coming home
Daylight by Brave Saint Saturn
an incredible song. if you want to hear it, and trust me you do, IM me (relientkbandgeek) and i'll send it to you.
Monday, October 20, 2003
so reno's monitor is dead. so is his car. but his monitor being dead means that i don't get to talk to him online now. but i'm not girly, so that shouldn't matter....
i'm going to bed now. well actually i'm not. i'm gonna write out my reading response for english cuz i don't have any black ink and can't print it. then i might play my new addiction. THEN i'll go to bed :)
Morpheus
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
places. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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haha no comment....
You represent... loneliness.
Always alone and always sad about it... unlike
angst, you don't have to look for a reason to
be miserable. You want to be in the company of
people but aren't sure how to act when you're
with them. Sometimes you have to make an
effort. You can't always wait for others to
come to you.
What feeling do you represent?
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did i already do this one?? lol
My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Your Heart is Grey
What Color is Your Heart?
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YOU EAT PEOPLE!!!
what's YOUR deepest secret?
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hrmmm..... that was random.... lol
A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem
and people are always bringing you down for
being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel
like youre too mature for your age and are
frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to
accept you because youre not like them.
Your virtues: Intelligence, understanding nature,
modesty.
Your flaws: Lack of social life, inferiority
complex, timidity.
What kind of girl are you?
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hahaha that really makes me laugh. I AM NOT A GIRLY GIRL!! no matter what brit, lolly, and jess say!!!! :)
you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.
which happy bunny are you?
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ok i think i'm done. for now. until i find more quizzes.... lol
*blue mage* a magician who uses the enemy's own abilities curious; observant; knowledgeable | ||
[Final Fantasy Tactics Job Class] |
Sunday, October 19, 2003
i spent the night at MY ali's last night. good stuff!!! we did fun stuff like watch movies, eat pizza, go to the football game, yell, rescue a school bus from the underworld, just lots of good SWAPUTD fun.
i went to the CC meet this morning. seeing craig is always fun. he cracks me up. he says funny stuff. and does funny stuff.
my little brother is great too.
so is doug v. yay for leetonia!! lol. i never thought i'd say that....
reno and i watched the 10th kingdom today. all 7 and a half hours or so of it. i got just a little antsy..... haha
now i'm watching the video from me, ben, brian, and matt's trip down to see heidi and shannon. that weekend was great. i just wrote a sappy email to all of them cuz i was inspired by the video. we're crazy. i wish i could somehow get a picture of when we were all trying to get our heads into the camera the day we all laid on heidi's parent's bed for like 2 or 3 hours or something.... good times!! i miss you guys. we should talk more. and get together.
Friday, October 17, 2003
just because i could, i was up till like 3 or something watching tv. switchfoot was on carson daly's show, that was good stuff. i love switchfoot.
this morning around 9:30, i found out that i hadn't turned my speakers on my computer off cuz someone was compulsively IMing me. i didn't wanna get out of bed, but they just kept IMing me and IMing me.... so i dragged my butt down off the top bunk and talked to christy for a little bit. then i turned off my speakers and went back to bed. i got up around 11:30, although those last 2 hours weren't very restful. the buddies aren't very quiet while they clean....lol
and thats my day so far. tomorrow morning is the CC meet, and i get to hang out with tim and craig!! woohoo!! :)
Thursday, October 16, 2003
i'm hungry. i don't know why. i had 3 pieces of pizza for lunch. REAL pizza. from papa john's. my humanities class had a pizza party cuz we got screwed over during the olympics at orientation. :)
i don't really have anything to write about. i'm reading a really good book. the lost boy by dave pelzer. its the sequel to a child called "it". also a really good book.
i think i'm going to end this post now, cuz i don't really have anything else to say.
oh yeah i do-the mexican is a stupid movie. ok. i'm done now. ;)
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
i was going to go home this weekend, go to the football game with nathan on friday, have dinner with christy on saturday, hang out with my family, maybe see some friends, stuff like that. but now i'm not going home. cuz i got an email from HEIDI!!!! woohoo!!!!!
so now i'm staying here all weekend. friday i'm gonna sit around and do nothing. saturday i'm gonna go to the CC meet, watch tim run, hang out with craig... stuff like that. sunday morning i'm going to kidron. to see my heidi. at some church that i've heard of, i think i've even been there before, i just don't know where it is... lol. then i'm gonna bring sarah b back with me!!! and she's staying here sunday and monday night. :) :) :) big weekend for tracey!!!
I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HEIDI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hope my mom doesn't get mad or upset or anything... i emailed her about it... all well. its my heidi. and craig. and sarah. i'll go home next weekend. :)
1.What is your full name? tracey deanna yoder
2. Nicknames? pete. trac (normally i hate it, but there are a few people that i let it slide with... ), i dunno... i don't remember anymore right now
3. Age: 18
4. Sex: girl
5. Social Security: some numbers that i never can remember
6. Where do you live? canton. or leetonia. take your pick.
7. What school do you attend? malone college
8. Siblings and their ages? tim-14 rusty-21
9. Pets: my bamboo plant. :) and i have a dog at home
10. Zodiac Sign: aries
11. Righty or Lefty: righty
*********YOUR LOOKS*********
12. Hair color: brown
13. Eye color: the color of turds :)
14. Height: 5'8 or 9
15. Do you wear glasses or contacts? glasses. i have some contacts, but i hate them
16. Do you have any piercings? an eyebrow ring
17. Where do you want more? not sure. maybe some actual EAR piercings.... lol
18. Do you have a tattoo? nope
19. If so what and where? .......
20. Do you wear any rings? just my purity ring
21. Do you have a certain fashion you follow? whatever i throw on
**********JUST LATELY***************
22. How are you today? when am i not tired?? lol
23. What pants are you wearing right now? pj pants that i bought at massillon vdo a year or 2 ago
24. What underwear are you wearing right now? ummm i think they have flowers??? lol
25. What does your hair look like at the moment? wet and out of my face
26. What song are you listening to right now? i'm not. but the last song i heard was one off of the jekyll and hyde soundtrack
27. What was the last thing you ate? soggy cereal. mmmmmm :-D
28. How is the weather right now? rainy, windy, and cold
29. Last person you talked to on the phone: delight
30. Last dream you can remember: my dream about sarah eades and her paper last night!! lol
31. Who are you talking to right now? farrah and brian
32. What time is it? 12:27 AM
********More about YOU!*****************
33. What are the last four digits of your phone number? 7839
34. If you were a crayon, what color would you want to be? orange
36. Do you like the person that sent you this? stole it from farrah's DJ
37. How do you eat an Oreo? twist it apart, eat the cream, then the cookie
38. What makes you happy? stuff.
39. What's the next CD you are going to buy? not sure. maybe tfk or bleach?
40. What religion/denomination are you? christian
41. What's the best advice ever given to you? be yourself. or something cheesy like that.
42. Have you ever won any special awards? nope. well i got the "bravery award" or something equally cheesy after my first summer working at camp cuz i crossed burma!! lol (NEVER AGAIN!!! *shudders*)
43. What are your future goals? to graduate.... lol
44. Do you like to dance? nope
45. Worst sickness you ever had? whatever that crap was that i had a few weeks ago. i was so much sicker than i told anyone.... lol
46. What's the stupidest thing you ever done? HA which one?
47. What's your favorite memory? weekend at heidi's and the weekends at bens
48. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? i wouldn't be a jerk anymore!!
49. Who do you like? reno
50. How many kids do you want to have? no idea
51. Son's name? i'm still sticking to micah!! :)
52. Daughter's name? no idea
53. Do you do drugs? nope
54. Do you drink? nope
55. What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use? whatevers cheap. but i do like thermasilk a lot :)
56. What sport do you hate the most? ones that i don't understand
57. What are you most scared of? being left behind
58. How many TV's do you have in your house? 1 or 2?
59. Do you have your own? i do in my dorm room
60. Phone line? 1
61. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? my teddy bear, which i left at home :(
62. Have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone: nope. well my finger.
63. Who do you dream about: i dunno
64. Who do you tell your dreams to? no one... lol
65. Who's the loudest friend you have? loudest?? ummm.... chrissy? lol
66. Who's the quietest friend: jenny smith :)
67. Is cheerleading a sport? nope
68. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? ask danny ;)
69. Which came first, the chicken or the egg? chicken
*************YOU and LOVE************************
70. Do you believe in Love? yeah
71. Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend? boyfriend
72. Do you have a crush? josh groban!!! lol
73. Who is your crush? see above ^
74. Did you send this to your crush? nope. he's famous. *sigh*
75. Do you believe in Love at first sight? not sure
76. Where would you like to go on your honeymoon? somewhere cool
77. What song do you want played at your wedding? something pretty?? lol
78. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? hair
79. Are you too shy ask someone out? yup
80. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? my heidi. she's the bestest friend ever! :)
81. Do you find yourself attractive? not at all.
82. Do you see yourself as ugly? yep
83. Do others find you attractive? well reno must (at least i hope.... lol)
*********ON GUYS FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT (for girls only)*******
84. Boxers or briefs: don't care, i don't wanna know!!! lol
85. Curly or straight hair: CURLY!!!
86. Six pack or muscular arms: don't care
87. Good or bad guys: good
88. Hat or no hat: a variation! lol
89. Ears pierced or not: doesn't matter
90. tan or no tan: PURPLE!! (in other words, i don't care)
91. Dimples or not? don'tcare....
92. Stubble or neatly shaven: stubble :)
93. Rugged or sporty: whats the difference? lol
94. Studly or cutie: cutie
95. Accent or not: accents are very fun, but not necessary
96. Glasses? don't care
97. Smart or dumb: well not completely dumb...
98. Sensitive or not: sensitive can be good
99. Dependent(whipped) or independent: haha whipped... thats funny. but definitely a little of both. reno isn't whipped yet. although stokes thinks he is... lol
***********Pick One: THIS OR THAT**********************
100. Lights on/off: off=sleep!! happy!!
101. Sun or rain? sun is good. but rain is fun to play in!
102. Micky D's(McDonalds) or BK(Burger King)? bk food is better, but i work at mcds... lol
103. Do you like scary or happy movies better? depends on my mood. mostly happy ones
104. Backstreet Boys or NSYNC? PLUS ONE!! :-D
105. On the phone or in person? i hate eye contact, so the phone can be good at times!!
106. Paper or plastic? plastic
107. Sausage or pepperoni? pepperoni
108. Summer or winter? summer. i hate snow.
109. Hugs or kisses? hugs
110. Chocolate or white milk: white
111. Root Beer or Dr. Pepper: YUCK neither
112. Glass half full or half empty? half.
113. CD or Tape: cds
114. Tape or DVD: dvds
115. Cats or Dogs: cats
116. Mud or Jell-O wrestling: ............. lol
117. Vanilla or Chocolate: vanilla
118. Skiing or Boarding: neither
119. Day or night: night
120. Cake or pie: pie
121. Diamond or pearl: ugh. fancy stuff. diamond i guess?
122. Sunset or sunrise: set
***************YOUR FAVS*******************
123. Color: orange
124. Food: chex mix!
125. Fast Food: mcds
126. Candy: SOUR PATCH KIDS!!!!
127. Beverage: milk
128. Ice Cream Flavor: superman
129. Sport?: rugball!! :)
130. Animal: pig
131. Fave type of music? just about anything. except r&b and country.
132. Radio Station: radio u
133. Song: lots of songs
134. Band: i'm not sure. i'm having a mini crisis regarding RK.. lol
135. Fav. Actor or Actress: sandra bullock
136. Fav. day of the year? don't really have one
137. Fav. month? may or june
138. TV show? GILMORE GIRLS!! :)
139. Grocery Store: marc's
140. Scent: not sure
141. Teacher: i guess i don't really have one anymore. but carchedi was my favorite in HS
142. Board Game: ummm.... life or monopoly or scrabble
143. Saying: torched, definitely
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~HAVE YOU EVER~~~~~~~
144. Loved someone so much it made you cry? not necessarily in a dating sense
145. Drank? nope
146. Ever gotten dumped? nope
147. Broke the law? driving laws
148. Ran from the cops? nope
149. Stole something? yeah
150. Tried to kill yourself? never actually tried
151. Made yourself throw up? yes
152. Been in love? i don't know.... lol
153. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? no
**********On A FiNaL NoTe*******************
154. Do you like filling these out? yeah... i'm kinda addicted i think.... lol
155. How many people are you sending this to? whoever reads my weblog
156. Do you want your friends to write back? its a post
157. Who is least likely to respond? ......
158. Who is most likely to respond? .......
159. What first comes to mind? about what?
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
you know what? i don't feel like it. i waited too long, and now the moment is gone.
it was awesome. thats all that needs to be said. definitely one of the best concerts i've ever been to, right below trans-siberian orchestra and maybe that carman concert. wow. good stuff. good good good stuff. and i got to see it with two awesome people, which made it better. mmmmmm was it awesome!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, October 13, 2003
You are a black cat, stubborn yet friendly, you
stick to your values and preferences, and no
one can convince you otherwise! You are the
legendary cat of mystery.
What color of cat are you?
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i'll finish FIF later. i promise. but i need to study now. i just want to say one thing: if i had to pick one night of my life to live over and over again for the rest of my life, it would definitely be last night.
ali my ali, are you sure you commented? cuz i don't see it... lol
i was horribly late leaving on friday cuz i lost my checkbook. i ended up leaving without finding it. i think i left here around 4:20 or so, and i told elizabeth i was leaving at 3:30. it was an uneventful trip, until i got right outside of west liberty.... i am SO thankful for kelli's cell phone. i used it 7 (yes 7) times on my way down. to call david/jimothy to tell him i was coming and that i wanted to hang out with him, to call liz and tell her i was running pretty late, to call holly kelley and tell her i'd find her when i got to the game cuz i was running late, to call david to tell him i was close to west liberty, then i got lost. after like 20 minutes or so, i called russell's cell phone to tell him i was lost and get directions. he didn't answer it. so i drove around for awhile not knowing for sure where i was. radio u was playing much stryper music. it was fun for awhile, but then i wanted it to go away cuz i was tired of it.... lol. then i called david again. he told me where to go. then when i got almost to the high school i called david again to tell him i was almost there (for real this time, lol). i got to the game a little bit after half time started, so i went over and found holly and watched WL's halftime show. then we went to the bathroom cuz i was gonna pee my pants. lol. then i saw bunches of people, i can't even begin to name them. elizabeth jumped on me when she saw me. it was "quality." :) i hung out with her and jill schlabach until david came, then i talked to him. that was good stuff. i don't talk to him as much as i should. i miss that kid. after the game me, liz, and david went to subway to see lacey. i love lacey!!!
ok i'm starting to "drag", and i have a class at 9.... "highlights" from here on out.... lol
elizabeth took me on my first 4-wheeler... i was scared outta my mind, but it was still fun.
mel called me at liz's. she couldn't come over, but it was still great to talk to her!!!!
the bonfire saturday night was great. brian schlabach even came for a bit right before i left. i didn't think he would. i was glad. i hadn't seen him in forever!! i had to leave like 10 minutes after he came tho.
i went on the outerbelt. i was proud of myself. it only took me about 50 minutes or something to get from WL to columbus. powell. whatever.
i talked to reno online at marlene's. her computer is very very very slow.
we went to church with craig and linda this morning. i like their church more than i used to.
rusty tim and i played scrabble for awhile this morning. i don't think the 3 of us have ever sat down and played a board game before. that was interesting. but fun.
lunch was good. good food and stuff like that. the whole family thing was alright too.
my car is officially falling apart. but its still driveable. :)
i had to drive the speed limit the entire way back cuz my family was behind me. i usually go about 5 over. but i couldn't. all well. i got to malone a little before 4, and we ended up having plenty of time.
i was happy to see reno again. i think i am becoming girly. i missed him, and i was only gone for a day and a half..... grrrrr on me..... lol
we got to kent easily, and it was AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME to see lynne again!!!! i've missed her so much!
we got to the chapel a little early, so we made a mcd's run.
i really want to finish this, but man am i tired.... i love five iron frenzy. and i'll still love them in the morning when i can think coherently. although most of tomorrow is going to be spent studying for psych.... blah.
Friday, October 10, 2003
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
monogram1 (4:46:58 PM): hey
t boredatwork y (4:47:01 PM): hey
monogram1 (4:47:11 PM): so do you want to work on the weekends?
monogram1 (4:47:19 PM): or are you looking for a week/daytime job/
monogram1 (4:47:19 PM): ?
monogram1 (4:47:34 PM): because if you want to work weekends, you can definitely get a job at Friendly's
t boredatwork y (4:47:37 PM): whatever works. i just wanna work like 2 or 3 nights a week
monogram1 (4:47:43 PM): yeah... me too
monogram1 (4:47:54 PM): I think that's what I'm gonna be working
t boredatwork y (4:48:24 PM): what kind of hours on the weekends?
monogram1 (4:48:36 PM): like 8-4 or 4-12
monogram1 (4:48:56 PM): but they're really flexible... like i need to be out of there by 10 on sundays and they were cool with that
t boredatwork y (4:49:17 PM): i work 2:30-6:30 on campus on sundays, so i don't think that would work
t boredatwork y (4:49:55 PM): but i might be able to work friday nights and then saturday morning/afternoon
monogram1 (4:49:57 PM): yeah
monogram1 (4:50:13 PM): if you go, just tell them when you're available and how often you want you work
monogram1 (4:50:27 PM): like I gave them all the times I could possibly work and then said... I wanna work 3 days a week
t boredatwork y (4:50:30 PM): how far is friendly's from here?
monogram1 (4:50:31 PM): and they'll schedule you for that
monogram1 (4:50:38 PM): how far are you from movies 4?
t boredatwork y (4:50:54 PM): the one in canton? like 10 minutes maybe
monogram1 (4:51:00 PM): like 15 minutes
t boredatwork y (4:51:22 PM): hmmm.... this might work. minimum wage?
monogram1 (4:51:30 PM): depends what you wanna do
t boredatwork y (4:51:44 PM): what are the options?
monogram1 (4:52:00 PM): waitress, do dishes/bus, kitchen, work in the ice cream part
monogram1 (4:52:15 PM): I wanna waitress... so that's like 4 bucks an hour plus tips
t boredatwork y (4:52:34 PM): waitressing sounds good, except i've never done anything like that before and it scares me.... lol
monogram1 (4:52:41 PM): I haven't either
monogram1 (4:52:45 PM): we can learn together!
t boredatwork y (4:52:59 PM): this is exciting, cuz i really need a job
monogram1 (4:53:43 PM): :-)
t boredatwork y (4:55:30 PM): i need an application and stuff don't i? hmmm... i have no idea where friendly's is....
t boredatwork y (4:55:31 PM): lol
monogram1 (4:55:41 PM): go get an app
monogram1 (4:55:42 PM): I need to go eat
monogram1 (4:55:42 PM): later
t boredatwork y (4:55:48 PM): ok ttyl
monogram1 (4:55:58 PM): it's on Wales
monogram1 (4:56:04 PM): how do you get to Movies 4?
t boredatwork y (4:56:09 PM): everhard
t boredatwork y (4:56:20 PM): and its on everhard
monogram1 (4:56:25 PM): yeah... so go on everhard past the movies
t boredatwork y (4:56:32 PM): ok
monogram1 (4:56:38 PM): and you'll go for a while and everhard will turn into hills & dales
monogram1 (4:56:55 PM): and then hills and dales runs into wales at a stop light... it T's
monogram1 (4:57:03 PM): turn left and friendly's is right there on your left
t boredatwork y (4:57:25 PM): ok. i'll try to get there tonight or tomorrow night to get an application
monogram1 (4:57:27 PM): I lied... turn RIGHT and friendly's is right there on your left
t boredatwork y (4:57:31 PM): cuz i think this will work
t boredatwork y (4:57:33 PM): haha ok
monogram1 (4:57:34 PM): yay!
monogram1 (4:57:39 PM): ok
monogram1 (4:57:40 PM): see ya
t boredatwork y (4:57:42 PM): ttyl!
monogram1 signed off at 4:57:47 PM.
it'll suck to work weekends, but hopefully i'll still have saturday nights free. :) i need to go get an application. :)
Pray for MY Tracey too... she had a bad blood-giving experience and is sick. I'm praying for you chica. And by chica I mean chia. Peace, love, and zombie dogs.
Ali
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
"and then i was like 'go make me a sandwich!!' and it did!!"
-ryan oxford
so yeah. its official. i have a boyfriend. game show style.... haha :)
i'm not a happy camper. this is the 4th time i've given blood. i gave a whole pint all the other times!!! stupid body.... grrrrr
i had an awesome discussion with kelli and ryan oxford last night. we went to starbucks after bible study, as usual. we ended up leaving there around 9:30 to go to kelli's house cuz kelli and i wanted him to play his guitar and he wouldn't in starbucks. we were there until almost midnight. but it was great!! we talked about hardcore spiritual warfare--i don't know ryan very well, but man do i respect him! he'll have been a christian for 2 years this winter, but he's had so many demons. it scared the crap out of me listening to some of the stuff thats happened to him. kelli's had one too-the same one twice. thats something that i don't know how i would deal with. i get freaked out so easily, i think i would be too scared to breathe, let alone cry out to jesus. especially if it came down to a physical battle.... *shudders* but anyway, it was awesome. i didn't get my paper done till 1:30, but all well. i'll sleep tonight.
Monday, October 06, 2003
eligibilitydude (3:57:15 PM): tracey in the placey, rockin out to outer spacey :-)
relientkbandgeek (3:57:23 PM): lol hey jon
relientkbandgeek (3:57:40 PM): whats up?
eligibilitydude (3:57:43 PM): whassup dog (in the metaphorical sense of the word)
eligibilitydude (3:57:53 PM): n'much... how're you
relientkbandgeek (3:58:00 PM): lol you crack me up
relientkbandgeek (3:58:06 PM): a little stressed, but thats ok
eligibilitydude (3:59:42 PM): stress is the opposite of an invisible vicious dinosaur... you can see it so much more clearly, but it is much less reason for loss of sleep
eligibilitydude (4:00:57 PM): you have obviously never been attacked by an invisible vicious dinosaur or you would understand so much better
eligibilitydude (4:01:11 PM): so what's stressin you out?
relientkbandgeek (4:01:51 PM): you just made my profile.... lol
relientkbandgeek (4:02:11 PM): i'm trying to plan a bunch of stuff thats going on this weekend (including a five iron concert) and its hard... lol
eligibilitydude (4:02:17 PM): yay!
eligibilitydude (4:02:28 PM): (yay about the profile, not the stress)
eligibilitydude (4:03:08 PM): so FIF is letting you plan their concerts now?
relientkbandgeek (4:03:23 PM): oh man do i need sleep.... lol. no i'm going to one :-)
eligibilitydude (4:05:58 PM): cool
eligibilitydude (4:06:11 PM): well, i know the feeling of being overwhelmed
relientkbandgeek (4:06:50 PM): its just trying to get all these directions thats making me go nuts, cuz my directions computer program says that two of the roads that i need don't exist...
relientkbandgeek (4:06:51 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:11:26 PM): wow
eligibilitydude (4:11:32 PM): better luck if it existed
relientkbandgeek (4:17:22 PM): i have directions to both from people, but i wanted my computers directions....
relientkbandgeek (4:17:22 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:18:32 PM): i see
eligibilitydude (4:18:38 PM): is anything else adding to the stress
relientkbandgeek (4:18:57 PM): school work, family.... but thats a given
eligibilitydude (4:26:08 PM): yeah
relientkbandgeek (4:27:30 PM): so hows school and everything going for you?
eligibilitydude (4:30:40 PM): ok i guess
eligibilitydude (4:30:44 PM): i am dropping out of school
eligibilitydude (4:30:58 PM): but everything else is hunky dorier than an episode of cowboy bob
relientkbandgeek (4:31:14 PM): why are you dropping out?
eligibilitydude (4:33:12 PM): i dont know if it is what I need/want/am supposed to do
relientkbandgeek (4:33:21 PM): what was your major?
eligibilitydude (4:33:40 PM): english
eligibilitydude (4:33:48 PM): i was hoping to speak fluently one day
eligibilitydude (4:33:53 PM): but oh well
relientkbandgeek (4:34:12 PM): lol
relientkbandgeek (4:35:04 PM): i wish i could drop out....
relientkbandgeek (4:35:05 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:35:19 PM): well pray and see what God wants
eligibilitydude (4:35:29 PM): He really does know everything.. it si cool
relientkbandgeek (4:36:21 PM): i think i'm supposed to be here, i just don't like it.... lol
eligibilitydude (4:37:05 PM): aw
relientkbandgeek (4:38:31 PM): its alright, i'm just not used to putting this much effort into my work.... lol
eligibilitydude (4:40:59 PM): yeah
eligibilitydude (4:41:09 PM): eat ice cream, it helps
relientkbandgeek (4:41:39 PM): mmmm ice cream is good. but then i'd be a blob
relientkbandgeek (4:41:40 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:45:10 PM): whatever
eligibilitydude (4:45:15 PM): you are too skinny as it is
relientkbandgeek (4:45:25 PM): ummmm keep in mind you've never seen me.....
relientkbandgeek (4:45:25 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:46:29 PM): well that doesnt mean a thing
eligibilitydude (4:46:33 PM): you are too skinny
eligibilitydude (4:46:34 PM): so there
relientkbandgeek (4:46:57 PM): whatever you say jon, whatever you say :-)
relientkbandgeek (4:47:17 PM): now if you wanna talk skinny, take a look at that picture that you sent me. thats just not fair. my little brothers like you: tall and skinny
eligibilitydude (4:47:40 PM): did I send you a pic?
eligibilitydude (4:47:45 PM): oh yeah I did
eligibilitydude (4:47:49 PM): did you sned me one
eligibilitydude (4:47:58 PM): I am not skinny by the way
relientkbandgeek (4:48:40 PM): is that not you in your picture then??
relientkbandgeek (4:48:41 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:49:14 PM): yes it is me
eligibilitydude (4:49:26 PM): but it is prbably just the way the light is hitting me
eligibilitydude (4:49:31 PM): aren't you skinny too?
eligibilitydude (4:49:34 PM): I thought you were
relientkbandgeek (4:49:47 PM): no. not skinny. but not fat. just sorta in between....
eligibilitydude (4:50:17 PM): like, average?
eligibilitydude (4:50:33 PM): Would it be oo personal to ask your height and weight, cause then I can just go from that
relientkbandgeek (4:53:38 PM): i guess i don't really care. if you hate me cuz of it you're a jerk, lol. ________ (edited by me... lol)
eligibilitydude (4:54:35 PM): nope, dont hate you
eligibilitydude (4:54:41 PM): you sound healthy though
relientkbandgeek (4:54:42 PM): lol good
eligibilitydude (4:54:57 PM): so I wont give you a hard time about being too skinny or vice versa anymore
relientkbandgeek (4:55:21 PM): nope i think i'm just about right, although i wouldn't mind losing 10 or 15 pounds
eligibilitydude (4:55:30 PM): who wouldnt
relientkbandgeek (4:55:34 PM): lol yeah
eligibilitydude (4:55:42 PM): i wouldnt mind losing about 10 or 15 pounds in my legs
eligibilitydude (4:55:44 PM): :-)
relientkbandgeek (4:58:18 PM): i should start exercising... should.. but i won't
relientkbandgeek (4:58:19 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:59:28 PM): we should work out together
eligibilitydude (4:59:30 PM): i need to also
relientkbandgeek (4:59:44 PM): i've never worked out before.... i don't know how!!
relientkbandgeek (4:59:45 PM): lol
eligibilitydude (4:59:51 PM): i gotta go pick up my friend levi
eligibilitydude (4:59:58 PM): See ya!@
relientkbandgeek (4:59:59 PM): ok i'll ttyl!
eligibilitydude signed off at 5:00:23 PM.
much laughter was involved with that conversation... lol
i'm meeting lisa and nathan at 7am for breakfast.... and i'm still up!!!! mwahaha!!!!
Sunday, October 05, 2003
-caryn
"wouldn't it be cool if i put a hole in the left nostril and the middle of the nose like right here underneath whatever you call it and the right nostril like in the middle and then put a string through it and then tie it and make a bow??"
-caryn
"do you really want me to put on my headphones and blow myself up?"
-me
"do you know how amusing that would be?"
-caryn
"man why does my underwear keep riding my butt?"
-caryn
"how about my underwear rides me like a person on a horse."
-caryn
"either no underwear or new pair!"
-caryn
Regarding letter size... you clicked "Medium". Because your writing is neither really tiny or really large, this aspect of your writing is not a significant piece of your personality puzzle. We know you are not as intense as those tiny writers and you aren't as "flighty" as some of those really large writers. So, you fall into the middle-of-the-road on this character trait.
Concerning the letter slant of your sample (slant reveals emotional outlay)... you chose "Vertical". You use logical sound judgments to make decisions. You\re ruled by your head, not your heart. You tend to be cool, calm and collected and are good under pressure. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, you have poise.
Some may see you as "detached" or "unemotional". It's not that you don't feel emotions, you just have more discernment when and with whom you express your inner most feelings. You keep them inside longer than most people do. (If your writing is very large you can be very social, friendly and talkative, but still emotionally logical.)
The first time someone makes you mad, you probably won't say anything. But, you'll mentally put a mark on the wall and keep your mouth shut until they piss you off again and again. Then, BOOM! You'll explode, all that pent-up anger comes pouring out! And, you won't feel any regret at all, because you know they deserved it.
It may sound harsh, but you're ruled by self-interest. In emotional situations you ask yourself, "What's best for me?" And, unlike others, you actually have the discipline to follow your logic rather than your emotional whims.
In a relationship, you tend to show your affection by the things you DO rather than the things you SAY. The only exception is if your mate has expressed a need to hear "I love you" on a daily basis, then you'll gladly express this out of respect for your partner's needs.
Relating to the letters "d" and "t", your selection of "Retraced stem that is taller than normal" indicates that you demand respect and expect others to treat you with dignity. This trait is one component of integrity and usually leads to someone taking extra care in maintaining their appearance and their reputation.
I'd be willing to bet that you look at yourself in the mirror more than twice a day... won that one, didn't I?
Looking at the letter "i", you chose "The dot is close to and directly above the stem". Dotting your "i" so close to the stem tells me you have a great eye for detail and a keen memory, too. I bet you never forget what people say to you and can recall it years later, especially your lovers comments.
Oh boy... the letter "o"... this is a very insightful letter. When you picked "Exit loops on the right side", that told me you can be VERY secretive. As a matter of fact, the larger your inner loop, the more you tend to avoid giving complete and straight answers. You won't lie, but you won't just spout off information freely either. Your best defense is to answer questions with questions... "Would I say that?"
When I asked about the shape of the tops of the humps in the letters "m" and "n", you chose "Rounded on top". This let's me know that you're a "Cumulative Thinker"... you take the time to gather all the facts before you make decisions. I'll bet you read EVERY word of the instruction manual before you start a project. It's nice to get all the facts before you make a decision and then proceed in a systematic fashion. The only downside to having very rounded humps is that you often think of what you should have said during an argument and bring it up 30 minutes later. You may be smart, but some people think on their feet a bit faster.
This is an important trait! When I asked you how high the t-bar is crossed on the stem of the letter "t", you chose "Midway up the stem". This tells me that you set goals that are realistic, practical, and obtainable and that your self-esteem is good, but not super high. I would suspect you still have an aversion to taking too much of a risk and you'll hedge on the side of security.
The good news is your confidence is strong enough to leave a really bad situation and take those first key steps toward living your dreams. People that cross their "t's" in the upper middle are pragmatic and secure with themselves. But, there are still more dreams to achieve... so stretch yourself even more!
When asked how the t-bar ends, you chose "Knife point toward the right". This tells me that you are a bit of a smart-a**. Uhmm... sorry... the politically correct term is "sarcastic".
You see, sarcasm is a wonderful means of defending your ego. Often this sarcasm comes out as a wry sense of humor. People love that. But, if you're at all insecure, it can be directed at others and be a bit caustic and hurtful. Might I suggest that you bite your tongue next time you want to pipe in with a smart comment.
This is a great trait! Concerning your lower case t's, the last question deals with the TILT of the t-bar. You chose "Upward toward sky"... which tells me that you're optimistic, forward thinking, and a self-starter. Optimism is one key trait of successful and happy people. So, even if your life sucks today, you automatically assume that it will be better tomorrow!
Good for you... concerning your y's and g's, you chose "Narrow... some loop". This tells me that you are very selective about who you let in your inner loop. You are choosy about your relationships... no one can accuse you of being "easy"... that's for sure.
Concerning your y's and g's, you chose "Medium loop". This tells me that you have healthy physical drives... yes, that means both sexually... and in your ambition. So, you aren't a prude but you're not a slut either... you just "like" it.
Wow!... Concerning your y's and g's, you chose "Extra LARGE loop"... which tells me that you have a very active imagination.
Character traits associated with large loops include: gullible, great story tellers and big sex drive! You like variety in your life and you get bored very easily.
Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons!
For you are crunchy
And taste good with ketchup
Sign on baby's bib: SPIT HAPPENS
I can see clearly now, the brain is gone...
Look out for #1. Don't step in #2 either
Copywight 1994 Elmer Fudd. All wights wesewved
"Karate is a form of martial arts in which people who have had years and years of training can, using only their hands and feet, make some of the worst movies in the history of the world."
- Dave Barry.
"I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound as they fly by."
- Douglas Adams.
"Clean laundry helps the confidence level, which helps the self image, which helps um, you win games, which makes you rich, which leads to greed, which leads to more money!!!, Which causes immense spending, which then triggers high anxiety, which causes a heart attack at the age of 31 and puts you in a coma for 10 years while you lose all of your money and you start at the beginning again!"
--Benjer Petersen
"This morning I took two Ex-Lax in addition to my Prozac. I can't get off the john, but I feel good about it."
--unknown
Never trust a computer you can't throw out a window
--Steve Wozniak
To the optimist, the glass is half full.
To the pessimist, the glass is half empty.
To the engineer, the glass is twice as big as it needs to be.
To the plumber, any liquid in the glass is potential income.
(With thanks to John Pettitt and Ed O'Connell)
It happens. Sometimes people just explode. Natural causes.
from Repo Man
"My fellow Americans. I've signed legislation that will outlaw Russia forever. We begin bombing in five minutes." --President Reagan, before a scheduled radio broadcast, unaware that the microphone was already on
The best thing about Alzheimer’s is : You can hide your own Easter eggs. - Gramps
One day your prince will come, mine just took a wrong turn got lost and is too stubborn to ask for directions.
Duct tape is like the force, it has a light and dark side, and it binds the universe together
When you're a fat little kid, there are no more see-saws...only catapults
"Life is a role of toilet paper; long and useful"
All my hard work has boiled down to two things "May I take your order" and "Would you like fries with that"
Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall,
and all the kings’ horses and all the kings’ men...
ate scrambled eggs for 2 weeks
I have the body of a god... unfortunately its Buddha -Abigail Silverman-
ok so i got a little carried away.. but i find them amusing!!! lol
Results:
Your Total Score is 15.
(Range 0-27)
None 0-5
Mild 6-10
Moderate 11-15
Severe 16-20
Very Severe 21+
NOTE: The above cutoff points are based largely
on clinical judgement rather than on empirical data
ali-you should leave your hair like that and see what it looks like in the morning.
pete-but i have to go church in the morning
kelli-i have a shower
pete- a shower, but i just took one today!
yes i did say that... hehe :)
Saturday, October 04, 2003
i love you tracey.
did you see my mennonite cup?
did you see the dove?
look.
kelli can i have more apply-appleness for my mennonite cup?
do you like project?
yes you have.
this is them.
paper?
my water tastes apple.
i learned.
not usually.
will this kill my fingers?
but if i'm not?
it what?
my finger will explode?
it looked like a plus sign instead of a cross, like jesus died doing math!!
you guys are freaks.
you know that dc talk song or tobymac song "where my freaks at baby where my freaks?" he wrote it about you guys.
death and fear and dying!
shhhh!!!
i can't dance.
i like it there. it draws attention.
did you ever have water go up your nose?
like instead of "yo do you have a kleenex?" like "you do you have any dental floss?"
can i laugh?
wow.
magic! magic new pants!
raspberries are full of death and poison.
it tasted nice.
what?
no.
no!! raspberries are death!
no my grandma makes raspberry jam and you eat it and you say "you keep making raspberry jam and i will give you all my money and keep eating it!!" instead of liquid jesus, its jam jesus!! and its full of life and goodness! like jesus.
all the girls in the bathroom talking who they gonna take to the sadie hawkins (continues to sing song)....
i just said they kept on walking. like my ears kept on walking.
why do you put an a on staci's name? is that how she spells it?
on the end. an a.
your phone needs spell check.
oh.
4 years ago? how did you guys meet? mogadore? you went there 4 years ago? you went there that long? why didn't i know you then?
ok thats all. my brain can't keep up with ali's mouth...
monogram1 (11:16:17 AM): I just asked kelli if she liked meat lovers
monogram1 (11:16:23 AM): except i said 'PETE lovers
monogram1 (11:16:24 AM): lol
relientkbandgeek (11:16:55 AM): lol good job ali
relientkbandgeek (11:16:58 AM): i'm so proud
monogram1 (11:17:04 AM): lol
relientkbandgeek (11:17:09 AM): everyone loves their pete lovers pizza!
monogram1 (11:17:15 AM): i sure do
relientkbandgeek (11:17:20 AM): ok that whole thing is definitely getting quoted in my weblog
"i'm washing my face because it tastes like sweat."
-caryn
"you just signed off now."
-me
"yeah it does that when its being constipated like that."
-caryn
Friday, October 03, 2003
so just on a whim, i looked up ibuprofen overdose online. and its scaring the crap out of me. i said that that stuff was wrong with me before i read the symptoms. am i ok? did i overdose? i didn't mean to. my head just hurt really bad.... i know how many i took today, but i can't remember if i took any yesterday or not. but i don't want to say anything cuz i don't want to make a big deal. this is probly nothing. its probly just me being too tired, and the coughing in the cafeteria made me feel like this. right?? (i'm scared....)
Thursday, October 02, 2003
relientkbandgeek (10:23:15 PM): oh i hate that too!!! thats why i'm not a girly girl!! that proves my point!!!
relientkbandgeek (10:23:17 PM): lol
RODGORT13 (10:23:20 PM): yay
relientkbandgeek (10:23:32 PM): i need to tell my friends that think i'm girly now... then i can win
thats all i have to say. :)
"Hold fast to your memories,
To all of the cherished moments
Of the past,
To the blessings and the laughter,
The joys and the celebrations,
The sorrows and the tears.
They all add up to a treasure
Of fond yesterdays
That you shared and spent together,
And they keep the ones you loved
Close to you in spirit and in thought.
The special moments
And memories in your life
Will never change.
They will always be in your heart,
Today and forevermore."
during fall break, girls, we are getting together. maybe i'll actually come to PH on a friday night, since i never did in HS... lol. i look forward to seeing all of you. :)
and for those of you that don't fall under the catergory of "girls", you're most likely someone from mcdonalds or have worked there at some time, and you know that i couldn't come home without seeing you guys. :)