travis gets to me. he knows what to say to make me think. we had a serious conversation tonight. it bugs me how well he can read me; how much he knows about me. not bugs, thats not the right word. scares is a better one. i'm definitely more of a keep-to-myself-and-don't-open-up-to-people person. i haven't always been that way. but in the last few years enough crap has happened that i don't trust people any more. but there's something about him-he gets me to open up to him. it scares me. how do i know he's not gonna turn around and do what everyone else did to me? i dunno... i really opened up tonight. and now i wish i wouldn't have. i dunno... i don't like me. thats what it basically comes down to.