i don't even know what to write. i just caused one of the people that i care about the most in this world to get mad at me. travis has always been an awesome friend to me. always. and then i go and am a jerk and he gets mad. i mean it wasn't all my fault, but i didn't handle the situation very well. telling someone that you don't want to talk to them right now is NEVER a good thing. as soon as i typed the words, i wished there was some kind of "recall button" so i could take them back. i've never snapped on him before. ever. he's been there for me when i needed him (with a few exceptions, but he's a guy, what can i say?). and i just messed everything up because i have a freaking temper, and i let it get the best of me. i don't even know what to do now. i hate the thought of hurting travis. or any of my friends for that matter. but i've never taken anger out on him before. i don't know what to do... i can't believe i treated him like that. i'm a jerk and i really hate myself. i need a good cry right now. i'm gonna go lay in my bunk and cry.