t boredatwork y: no one in canton says scrog
FiReBoLt4mE2: ha ha
FiReBoLt4mE2: you go to a christian school
t boredatwork y: so?? christians scrog too!!!
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
i think this is the first time i've listened to this cd (polarboy's back from nowhere), but wow. i like it. and this song is awesome....
Do You Think by Polarboy
Loneliness will come and will go
Would you wanna the lonely one or the one who goes
God you know that life's hard on my soul so
Maybe I'll be better off loving you
CHORUS:
And to the doctors I refuse
They've got nothing I could use
Do you think that Adam cried when his Eve died?
Loneliness often comes and often not goes
Would you wanna be the lonely one or the one who goes
God you know the life's hard on my soul
Maybe I'll be better off walkin with you
CHORUS
Do you think that Adam cried when his Eve died
And do you feel that sometimes she got the better half of the deal?
BRIGE:
Mortars eyes I've thought I've been
Over the battle field to the end
Seems to me I thought, my friend, we'll never know quite when
But I would sure like to know my friend
CHORUS
Do you think that Adam cried when his Eve died
And do you feel that sometimes she got the better half of the deal?
Do you think that Adam cried when his Eve died
(yes i know i'm a post whore... lol)
Do You Think by Polarboy
Loneliness will come and will go
Would you wanna the lonely one or the one who goes
God you know that life's hard on my soul so
Maybe I'll be better off loving you
CHORUS:
And to the doctors I refuse
They've got nothing I could use
Do you think that Adam cried when his Eve died?
Loneliness often comes and often not goes
Would you wanna be the lonely one or the one who goes
God you know the life's hard on my soul
Maybe I'll be better off walkin with you
CHORUS
Do you think that Adam cried when his Eve died
And do you feel that sometimes she got the better half of the deal?
BRIGE:
Mortars eyes I've thought I've been
Over the battle field to the end
Seems to me I thought, my friend, we'll never know quite when
But I would sure like to know my friend
CHORUS
Do you think that Adam cried when his Eve died
And do you feel that sometimes she got the better half of the deal?
Do you think that Adam cried when his Eve died
(yes i know i'm a post whore... lol)
surveys i stole from ryan's livejournal...
LAST PERSON WHO
x. Slept in your bed: me
x. Saw you cry: janson
x. Made you cry: watching videos of 2 years ago made me cry
x. Spent the night with: my roomie. lol.
x. You shared a drink with: probly janson
x. You went to the movies with: cass, ess, and duff to see mona lisa smile awhile back
x. You went to the mall with: ummm... i do believe it was roger and lisa, months ago. lol
x. Yelled at you: caryn
x. Sent you an email: kara kundravi
x. You kissed: janson
HAVE YOU EVER...
x. Said "I Love You" and meant it? yes
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: i yell at jansons dog all the time for licking my toes. its so gross!! does that count?
x. Been to New York: yeah
x. Florida: no
x. California: no
x. Hawaii: no
x. Mexico: no
x. China: no
x. Canada: yeah
x. Danced naked: no
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: no i don't think
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: when i was like 7 i did. lol
x. Had an imaginary friend: yeah, me, my older brother, and our cousin anya made up a whole freaking family... haha we were such losers
x. Things you like in a girl/guy: i like janson
x. Do you have a crush on someone: does josh groban count? mmmmm :)
x. What book are you reading now: the hobbit. again
x. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: 5 more minutes...
x. Future daughter's name: don't know
x. Future son's name: don't know
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: i actually have like 4 in my bed right now. my teddy, my sock monkey, a care bear, and the dog janson gave me
x. What's under your bed: do you REALLY want to know? cuz i'm not sure i do... haha
x. Favorite sport to watch: i can actually stand to watch nascar these days. maybe cuz i'm around it so much
x. Current Age: i'm 18. but i'll be 19 in 15 days!! :)
x. Siblings: rusty's 21 and in the air force in california. tim's 15 and at home.
x. Location: me? malone college
x. College plans: i don't know... don't ask me. lol
x. Piercings/tattoos: eyebrow pierced, no tattoos
x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: boyfriend
EXTRA STUFF
x. Do you do drugs: nope
x. Do you drink: nope
x. Who is your best friend: i have a non best friend. does that count? brittany is my favorite non-best friend!
x. What are you most scared of: being alone
x. What clothes do you sleep in: tshirts and boxers or pj pants
x. Where do you want to get married: i don't know
x. Who do you really hate: your mom
x. Been in Love: i am
x. What type automobile do you drive: my car is currently DEAD :(:(:( but its a 91 chevy cavalier
x. Do you have a job: i have several. computer lab monitor for work study, mcdonalds at home, and camp luz in the summer
x. Do you like being around people: yes most of the time
x. Are you for world peace: who would actually say yes to this? lol
x. Are you a health freak: not at all
STUFF
x. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: yes
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: not really
x. Want someone you don't have right now: no
x. Are you lonely right now: no
x. Ever afraid you'll never get married: i'm too young to think about marriage
x. Do you want to get married: yes
x. Do you want kids: yes
FAVORITE
x. Room in house: i don't really have one at home
x. Type(s) of music: pretty much whatever
x. Band: there's a lot. i don't really have a FAVORITE favorite band tho
x. Color: orange
x. Perfume or cologne: my pillar hoodie smells like axe. i got in a little cologne fight with janson's brother josh last night... :) just thought i'd share that. lol
x. Month: i like spring. so maybe april or may
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
x. Cried: yes
x. Bought something: nope
x. Gotten sick: nope
x. Sang: yup
x. Said "I Love You": yup
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: yup
x. Met someone new: i don't think
x. Moved on: to what?
x. Talked to someone: yup
x. Missed someone: yup
x. Hugged someone: yup
x. Kissed someone: yup
x. Fought with your parents: lets see.. its wednesday... nope. i fought with my mom on sunday, but that was 72 hours ago.
Quiz Number 2
x. What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
fried green tomatoes
x. If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?
or not
x. Do you have a completely irrational fear?
probly. not like i'd type it for the world to see though
x. What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moment?
i avoid eye contact, for one thing.
x. Are you a pyromaniac?
not really
x. Do you have too many love interests?
just one. unless you count joshy, of course :)
x. Do you know anyone famous?
nope
x. Describe your bed.
de-bunked bunk bed, blue sheets, 3 pillows, care bear comforter, blanket i made myself, and the blanket my mom gave me
x. Spontaneous or plan?
kinda both
x. Do you know how to play poker?
nope
x. What do you carry with you at all times?
some form of keys. either car keys, or my dorm key
x. What do you miss most about being little?
innocence
x. Are you happy with your given name?
sure
x. How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year?
i could never do that
x. Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
no
x. Do transient, homeless, or starving people bother you?
i don't really see them much
x. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
i try to be
x. What's one thing you wish you could do but can't?
play the piano. like for real, cuz the only songs i can play are 'oh where is my hairbrush' and 'everything i do i do it for you' lol
x. What is your ideal marriage location?
don't really care
x. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play?
piano
x. Favorite fabric?
the inside of new hoodies
x. Something you love and hate?
i love chex mix. i hate raw mushrooms.
x. What kind of bedding do you use?
i think its walmart
x. Do you tell your friends about your sex life?
do i have a sex life to tell them about?
x. What's the one language you want to learn?
something fun. like chinese or japanese or swahili
x. What do you order at a bar?
never been to one... lol
x. Have you ever pierced your body parts?
eyebrow
x. Do you have tattoos?
no
x. Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery any kind if confronted?
ummm sure
x. Do you drive stick?
nope. no idea how.
x. What's one trait you hate in a person?
i don't know
x. What kind of watch(es) do you wear?
i have a mudd watch that my mom got me for christmas. and somewhere i have my walmart sport watch. somewhere...
x. Most frivolous purchase?
i don't know... a lot of things
x. Do you consider yourself materialistic?
not too bad
x. What do you cook the best?
things that can be made in the microwave
x. Favorite writing instrument?
pilot G2!!
x. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in?
blend in
x. What kind of books do you like to read?
a lot of kinds
x. If you won the lottery, what would you do?
get married ;)
x. What's one thing you're a sore loser at?
well the reason i didn't join band is cuz i didn't want to be at the bottom of the food chain..... so i guess you could say that
x. If you don't like a person, how do you show it?
i'm usually nice to them anyway
x. Do you cry in front of friends?
i try not to
x. What kind of first impression do you think you give to people?
loud
x. What's one thing you like to do alone?
shower
x. Are you a giver or a taker?
giver
x. When's the last time you cried?
last night
x. Favorite communication method?
telepathy.... lol
x. How many drinks before you're tipsy?
never had a drink
x. Do you ever have to beg?
for what?
x. Have you ever done any illegal drugs?
nope
x. Do you think you're cute?
who are you?
x. Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends?
yeah. lol
x. What's the most painful experience you've ever had?
i don't know. something. i'm sure. lol
LAST PERSON WHO
x. Slept in your bed: me
x. Saw you cry: janson
x. Made you cry: watching videos of 2 years ago made me cry
x. Spent the night with: my roomie. lol.
x. You shared a drink with: probly janson
x. You went to the movies with: cass, ess, and duff to see mona lisa smile awhile back
x. You went to the mall with: ummm... i do believe it was roger and lisa, months ago. lol
x. Yelled at you: caryn
x. Sent you an email: kara kundravi
x. You kissed: janson
HAVE YOU EVER...
x. Said "I Love You" and meant it? yes
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: i yell at jansons dog all the time for licking my toes. its so gross!! does that count?
x. Been to New York: yeah
x. Florida: no
x. California: no
x. Hawaii: no
x. Mexico: no
x. China: no
x. Canada: yeah
x. Danced naked: no
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: no i don't think
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: when i was like 7 i did. lol
x. Had an imaginary friend: yeah, me, my older brother, and our cousin anya made up a whole freaking family... haha we were such losers
x. Things you like in a girl/guy: i like janson
x. Do you have a crush on someone: does josh groban count? mmmmm :)
x. What book are you reading now: the hobbit. again
x. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: 5 more minutes...
x. Future daughter's name: don't know
x. Future son's name: don't know
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: i actually have like 4 in my bed right now. my teddy, my sock monkey, a care bear, and the dog janson gave me
x. What's under your bed: do you REALLY want to know? cuz i'm not sure i do... haha
x. Favorite sport to watch: i can actually stand to watch nascar these days. maybe cuz i'm around it so much
x. Current Age: i'm 18. but i'll be 19 in 15 days!! :)
x. Siblings: rusty's 21 and in the air force in california. tim's 15 and at home.
x. Location: me? malone college
x. College plans: i don't know... don't ask me. lol
x. Piercings/tattoos: eyebrow pierced, no tattoos
x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: boyfriend
EXTRA STUFF
x. Do you do drugs: nope
x. Do you drink: nope
x. Who is your best friend: i have a non best friend. does that count? brittany is my favorite non-best friend!
x. What are you most scared of: being alone
x. What clothes do you sleep in: tshirts and boxers or pj pants
x. Where do you want to get married: i don't know
x. Who do you really hate: your mom
x. Been in Love: i am
x. What type automobile do you drive: my car is currently DEAD :(:(:( but its a 91 chevy cavalier
x. Do you have a job: i have several. computer lab monitor for work study, mcdonalds at home, and camp luz in the summer
x. Do you like being around people: yes most of the time
x. Are you for world peace: who would actually say yes to this? lol
x. Are you a health freak: not at all
STUFF
x. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: yes
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: not really
x. Want someone you don't have right now: no
x. Are you lonely right now: no
x. Ever afraid you'll never get married: i'm too young to think about marriage
x. Do you want to get married: yes
x. Do you want kids: yes
FAVORITE
x. Room in house: i don't really have one at home
x. Type(s) of music: pretty much whatever
x. Band: there's a lot. i don't really have a FAVORITE favorite band tho
x. Color: orange
x. Perfume or cologne: my pillar hoodie smells like axe. i got in a little cologne fight with janson's brother josh last night... :) just thought i'd share that. lol
x. Month: i like spring. so maybe april or may
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
x. Cried: yes
x. Bought something: nope
x. Gotten sick: nope
x. Sang: yup
x. Said "I Love You": yup
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: yup
x. Met someone new: i don't think
x. Moved on: to what?
x. Talked to someone: yup
x. Missed someone: yup
x. Hugged someone: yup
x. Kissed someone: yup
x. Fought with your parents: lets see.. its wednesday... nope. i fought with my mom on sunday, but that was 72 hours ago.
Quiz Number 2
x. What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
fried green tomatoes
x. If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?
or not
x. Do you have a completely irrational fear?
probly. not like i'd type it for the world to see though
x. What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moment?
i avoid eye contact, for one thing.
x. Are you a pyromaniac?
not really
x. Do you have too many love interests?
just one. unless you count joshy, of course :)
x. Do you know anyone famous?
nope
x. Describe your bed.
de-bunked bunk bed, blue sheets, 3 pillows, care bear comforter, blanket i made myself, and the blanket my mom gave me
x. Spontaneous or plan?
kinda both
x. Do you know how to play poker?
nope
x. What do you carry with you at all times?
some form of keys. either car keys, or my dorm key
x. What do you miss most about being little?
innocence
x. Are you happy with your given name?
sure
x. How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year?
i could never do that
x. Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
no
x. Do transient, homeless, or starving people bother you?
i don't really see them much
x. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
i try to be
x. What's one thing you wish you could do but can't?
play the piano. like for real, cuz the only songs i can play are 'oh where is my hairbrush' and 'everything i do i do it for you' lol
x. What is your ideal marriage location?
don't really care
x. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play?
piano
x. Favorite fabric?
the inside of new hoodies
x. Something you love and hate?
i love chex mix. i hate raw mushrooms.
x. What kind of bedding do you use?
i think its walmart
x. Do you tell your friends about your sex life?
do i have a sex life to tell them about?
x. What's the one language you want to learn?
something fun. like chinese or japanese or swahili
x. What do you order at a bar?
never been to one... lol
x. Have you ever pierced your body parts?
eyebrow
x. Do you have tattoos?
no
x. Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery any kind if confronted?
ummm sure
x. Do you drive stick?
nope. no idea how.
x. What's one trait you hate in a person?
i don't know
x. What kind of watch(es) do you wear?
i have a mudd watch that my mom got me for christmas. and somewhere i have my walmart sport watch. somewhere...
x. Most frivolous purchase?
i don't know... a lot of things
x. Do you consider yourself materialistic?
not too bad
x. What do you cook the best?
things that can be made in the microwave
x. Favorite writing instrument?
pilot G2!!
x. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in?
blend in
x. What kind of books do you like to read?
a lot of kinds
x. If you won the lottery, what would you do?
get married ;)
x. What's one thing you're a sore loser at?
well the reason i didn't join band is cuz i didn't want to be at the bottom of the food chain..... so i guess you could say that
x. If you don't like a person, how do you show it?
i'm usually nice to them anyway
x. Do you cry in front of friends?
i try not to
x. What kind of first impression do you think you give to people?
loud
x. What's one thing you like to do alone?
shower
x. Are you a giver or a taker?
giver
x. When's the last time you cried?
last night
x. Favorite communication method?
telepathy.... lol
x. How many drinks before you're tipsy?
never had a drink
x. Do you ever have to beg?
for what?
x. Have you ever done any illegal drugs?
nope
x. Do you think you're cute?
who are you?
x. Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends?
yeah. lol
x. What's the most painful experience you've ever had?
i don't know. something. i'm sure. lol
so i've been watching stuff from my video camera. its kinda bittersweet. on the one hand, its hilarious and it brings back so many awesome memories. but at the same time, it makes me want to cry. 2 years ago, i was so close to everyone. we're all still friends, but some of them i never talk to. brian lives like 3 minutes from me, and i haven't talked to or seen him since january. heidi's in sweden. ben, travis, 2B, and brad are fun, but i hardly ever talk to them either. i talk to travis and thats about it. i never talk to matt yoder. so it almost hurts to watch these videos of how close we were and the fun that we had. but they do make me laugh a lot. :)
ok off to world civ 2....
ok off to world civ 2....
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
i know that sometimes (most of the time) i'm a jerk. i say things i shouldn't, or don't say things that i should. but please don't think that i don't care, because i do. just know that i need you. even if i say or act like i don't, i do. i need you to be here for me through all the crap thats going on right now. i know that i push you away, just please don't give up on me. i love you.
Monday, March 29, 2004
How's Your Head by Third Day
How's your head? I'm so sorry
That I can't do anything about it
Like I said, I'll be praying
Here without you I feel helpless
Sorry I had to go away
Tomorrow's just another day
without you here, I'll have to say
Hold on to love
How's your day? Do you miss me?
Right now I've only a minute
Called to say, I'm so sorry
And once again I feel helpless
God forbid we'd be apart
How close or shall I ask how far
Are we until the demise of this helplessness?
How's your head? I'm so sorry
That I can't do anything about it
Like I said, I'll be praying
Here without you I feel helpless
Sorry I had to go away
Tomorrow's just another day
without you here, I'll have to say
Hold on to love
How's your day? Do you miss me?
Right now I've only a minute
Called to say, I'm so sorry
And once again I feel helpless
God forbid we'd be apart
How close or shall I ask how far
Are we until the demise of this helplessness?
i love being lied to. for real, its my favorite thing ever.
but actually, this is what i love...
relientkbandgeek: good. now all i need is a good bomb....
relientkbandgeek: lol
LittleANGEL 0321: lol...you want to invent one??
relientkbandgeek: i bet i could find out how on the internet!
LittleANGEL 0321: lol
relientkbandgeek: you wanna help me?
relientkbandgeek: lol
LittleANGEL 0321: research...to take over THE WORLD!!! WAAAHAHAHAHA
LittleANGEL 0321: oh sorry i got excited lol haha
i love shanny! :) i miss her a lot
but actually, this is what i love...
relientkbandgeek: good. now all i need is a good bomb....
relientkbandgeek: lol
LittleANGEL 0321: lol...you want to invent one??
relientkbandgeek: i bet i could find out how on the internet!
LittleANGEL 0321: lol
relientkbandgeek: you wanna help me?
relientkbandgeek: lol
LittleANGEL 0321: research...to take over THE WORLD!!! WAAAHAHAHAHA
LittleANGEL 0321: oh sorry i got excited lol haha
i love shanny! :) i miss her a lot
schedule for next semester....
Monday
9-9:50 - Human Biology
11-11:50 - Intro to Pro and prac of Social Work
12-12:50 - Beg. American Sign Language
2-3:15 - Understanding the Social Sciences
Tuesday
11-12:15 - Commons 1 (Social Work class)
2:30-3:45 - Literature in Society
4-4:50 - Walking for Health (first half of semester only)
Wednesday
9-9:50 - Human Biology
11-11:50 - Intro to Pro and prac of Social Work
12-12:50 - Beg. American Sign Language
2-3:15 - Understanding the Social Sciences
Thursday
2:30-3:45 - Literature in Society
4-4:50 - Walking for Health (first half of semester only)
Friday
9-9:50 - Human Biology
11-11:50 - Intro to Pro and prac of Social Work
12-12:50 - Beg. American Sign Language
so yeah.... thats it. i'm gonna go back to watching antiques roadshow now... :)
oh wait... i almost forgot. a little bit ago, i went to smoothie king with caryn, tessa, and RA (aka esther). on our way back, we were mooned by chad nicoletti. on route 77. from the car he was in. just thought i'd share that... lol
Monday
9-9:50 - Human Biology
11-11:50 - Intro to Pro and prac of Social Work
12-12:50 - Beg. American Sign Language
2-3:15 - Understanding the Social Sciences
Tuesday
11-12:15 - Commons 1 (Social Work class)
2:30-3:45 - Literature in Society
4-4:50 - Walking for Health (first half of semester only)
Wednesday
9-9:50 - Human Biology
11-11:50 - Intro to Pro and prac of Social Work
12-12:50 - Beg. American Sign Language
2-3:15 - Understanding the Social Sciences
Thursday
2:30-3:45 - Literature in Society
4-4:50 - Walking for Health (first half of semester only)
Friday
9-9:50 - Human Biology
11-11:50 - Intro to Pro and prac of Social Work
12-12:50 - Beg. American Sign Language
so yeah.... thats it. i'm gonna go back to watching antiques roadshow now... :)
oh wait... i almost forgot. a little bit ago, i went to smoothie king with caryn, tessa, and RA (aka esther). on our way back, we were mooned by chad nicoletti. on route 77. from the car he was in. just thought i'd share that... lol
ok...
saturday night
i can't remember. i know i went back to jansons. i think we watched sleepless in seattle? and then some movie on TNT that i forget what it was called. oh yeah, only you. it was pretty good. then we talked for a long time, like i think until 4:30 or something crazy like that. that was good.
sunday
sunday i slept in, due to potential lack of sleep from the night before if i had gone to church. i woke up around 11:30 and hung out with jacob for awhile. i had my first experience on a trampoline, lol. i just sat on it while he jumped. janson got up around 12:30, and we just hung out until 2. at 2 we came over here, i killed some ants, took a shower, talked to cassie about my car, got yelled at by--i mean talked to my mom, then janson and i went to denny's, wal-mart, and rite aid. i have my other prescription now. i don't like it, but i'll get to that later.... we came back here after that so i could get some homework done. he went home to switch cars, then came back and got me and we went to milk and honey. then back to his house. we watched part of daredevil, then we talked again for awhile. it was hard for me, cuz my meds started to kick in and i was having trouble staying awake, but it was all good. we talked for an hour or 2, i don't know. but yeah... it was good. lots of "yawning". :)
today
so yeah... my meds. i'm on elavil now. i took it last night for the first time. it knocked me out!! i went to bed at like 1:30, and was gonna get up at 8:45. that didn't happen. i got up with like 10 minutes to spare for chapel, went to chapel (basically slept through it cuz i couldn't stay awake), ate lunch, then came back here and went back to bed. i had my alarm set for 1:45 so i could go to my 2 o clock class, but that didn't happen. i slept through my alarm, which i've never done before. ever. so i didn't get out of bed until like 2:30.
i don't like that. these better not do this to me every time, or i'm gonna stop taking it. i couldn't even function when i woke up this morning. i couldn't talk or anything (just ask heather and jessie... i was in their room right after i woke up, and yeah... i was so out of it. and i feel like i could just go back to bed right now. i can't do this every day for the next 2 weeks (i still have 2 weeks of pills left). i'm gonna keep taking them until thursday, cuz i have a doctors appointment on thursday. hopefully it'll get better.
i'm going to go do something. like watch tv. or something.
saturday night
i can't remember. i know i went back to jansons. i think we watched sleepless in seattle? and then some movie on TNT that i forget what it was called. oh yeah, only you. it was pretty good. then we talked for a long time, like i think until 4:30 or something crazy like that. that was good.
sunday
sunday i slept in, due to potential lack of sleep from the night before if i had gone to church. i woke up around 11:30 and hung out with jacob for awhile. i had my first experience on a trampoline, lol. i just sat on it while he jumped. janson got up around 12:30, and we just hung out until 2. at 2 we came over here, i killed some ants, took a shower, talked to cassie about my car, got yelled at by--i mean talked to my mom, then janson and i went to denny's, wal-mart, and rite aid. i have my other prescription now. i don't like it, but i'll get to that later.... we came back here after that so i could get some homework done. he went home to switch cars, then came back and got me and we went to milk and honey. then back to his house. we watched part of daredevil, then we talked again for awhile. it was hard for me, cuz my meds started to kick in and i was having trouble staying awake, but it was all good. we talked for an hour or 2, i don't know. but yeah... it was good. lots of "yawning". :)
today
so yeah... my meds. i'm on elavil now. i took it last night for the first time. it knocked me out!! i went to bed at like 1:30, and was gonna get up at 8:45. that didn't happen. i got up with like 10 minutes to spare for chapel, went to chapel (basically slept through it cuz i couldn't stay awake), ate lunch, then came back here and went back to bed. i had my alarm set for 1:45 so i could go to my 2 o clock class, but that didn't happen. i slept through my alarm, which i've never done before. ever. so i didn't get out of bed until like 2:30.
i don't like that. these better not do this to me every time, or i'm gonna stop taking it. i couldn't even function when i woke up this morning. i couldn't talk or anything (just ask heather and jessie... i was in their room right after i woke up, and yeah... i was so out of it. and i feel like i could just go back to bed right now. i can't do this every day for the next 2 weeks (i still have 2 weeks of pills left). i'm gonna keep taking them until thursday, cuz i have a doctors appointment on thursday. hopefully it'll get better.
i'm going to go do something. like watch tv. or something.
i just randomly found a freaking awesome band!! i was on lil ricky's xanga, which i hardly ever look at just cuz i don't know him well, but he had this song in it. i thought the lyrics were pretty sweet, so i checked out the band/the song. how about i'm in love?? check it out....
Waking Ashland
the song that i fell in love with is Counting the Stars. mmmmmmmm.
anyway. i have a long post to type out, so i'm gonna post this and then start writing...
Waking Ashland
the song that i fell in love with is Counting the Stars. mmmmmmmm.
anyway. i have a long post to type out, so i'm gonna post this and then start writing...
Saturday, March 27, 2004
last night was....
going back to jansons, watching the rundown, watching fools rush in, getting back here around 2, watching now and then with roomie until we fell asleep.
today has been...
getting up around 11:30, eating lunch with deb horst and marian wenger (jenny's mom and kendra nissly's mom)--that was awesome. i love deb. it was really nice to sit down and talk to her again. i don't know that i've ever talked to marian before, but i really enjoyed it. :)
i walked with them to mitchell, then caryn told me that ali had called, so i called her cell and found her and michelle in the quad. yayayayay for seeing michelle!!!! that made me happy. ali's right, she is hot. :)
i had made plans with jami to watch runaway jury, and i really wanted to see it, so i made ali and michelle watch it with us. good movie. i love grisham books. :)
then ali michelle and i went to subway, and kelli came. i love subway and friends.
then i said bye (tears and sadness) to michelle and kelli brought me back here.
now i'm sitting around doing nothing, talking to travis on IM. yay! oh and i got an email from matt campbell today!! that was exciting. he might work at camp, but he has 2 other options of things he could do this summer. i miss that kid a lot. i hope he works at camp. or that i at least get to see him some time during the course of the summer. i'll drive to dover if i have to, that won't bother me!
i'm going over to jansons in a little while. roomie's gone--she's spending the night at jami's. so i have the room to myself for a little bit. i'm gonna take advantage of that and blast some music. yay! :)
ohohoh--ali and i are semi-planning another road trip in a few weekends. yay for bellefontaine!
going back to jansons, watching the rundown, watching fools rush in, getting back here around 2, watching now and then with roomie until we fell asleep.
today has been...
getting up around 11:30, eating lunch with deb horst and marian wenger (jenny's mom and kendra nissly's mom)--that was awesome. i love deb. it was really nice to sit down and talk to her again. i don't know that i've ever talked to marian before, but i really enjoyed it. :)
i walked with them to mitchell, then caryn told me that ali had called, so i called her cell and found her and michelle in the quad. yayayayay for seeing michelle!!!! that made me happy. ali's right, she is hot. :)
i had made plans with jami to watch runaway jury, and i really wanted to see it, so i made ali and michelle watch it with us. good movie. i love grisham books. :)
then ali michelle and i went to subway, and kelli came. i love subway and friends.
then i said bye (tears and sadness) to michelle and kelli brought me back here.
now i'm sitting around doing nothing, talking to travis on IM. yay! oh and i got an email from matt campbell today!! that was exciting. he might work at camp, but he has 2 other options of things he could do this summer. i miss that kid a lot. i hope he works at camp. or that i at least get to see him some time during the course of the summer. i'll drive to dover if i have to, that won't bother me!
i'm going over to jansons in a little while. roomie's gone--she's spending the night at jami's. so i have the room to myself for a little bit. i'm gonna take advantage of that and blast some music. yay! :)
ohohoh--ali and i are semi-planning another road trip in a few weekends. yay for bellefontaine!
Friday, March 26, 2004
so yeah... my car is currently dead. i'm very sad about this. :(
my hitler paper is done and turned in. its not that great, but at least its done.
i bought hoobastank today, rather randomly. i've only ever heard like 2 songs, lol.
my mom ticked me off really bad today. i called to talk to her about my car, and she started flipping on me for no reason. i basically hung up on her.
i'm having lunch with deb horst tomorrow. i'm pretty excited about that.
i think i'm gonna hang out with ali and michelle tomorrow. i'm really excited about seeing michelle, i haven't since november!!
mike and reno pushed my car from in front of myers into the parking lot.
faith drove me and janson back to his house.
i really appreciate my friends--a lot.
oh--godspell last night was really good. and seeing it with sarah eades, delight, kelli, and david made it more fun. i love my friends. :)
i think i'm done now. i'm gonna wait and see if janson calls me, and if not i'm either gonna try to find a ride to his house, or just hang out here. but i left my blanket at his house, so i'm hoping he calls cuz i'll die if i don't have it to crochet!! lol
my hitler paper is done and turned in. its not that great, but at least its done.
i bought hoobastank today, rather randomly. i've only ever heard like 2 songs, lol.
my mom ticked me off really bad today. i called to talk to her about my car, and she started flipping on me for no reason. i basically hung up on her.
i'm having lunch with deb horst tomorrow. i'm pretty excited about that.
i think i'm gonna hang out with ali and michelle tomorrow. i'm really excited about seeing michelle, i haven't since november!!
mike and reno pushed my car from in front of myers into the parking lot.
faith drove me and janson back to his house.
i really appreciate my friends--a lot.
oh--godspell last night was really good. and seeing it with sarah eades, delight, kelli, and david made it more fun. i love my friends. :)
i think i'm done now. i'm gonna wait and see if janson calls me, and if not i'm either gonna try to find a ride to his house, or just hang out here. but i left my blanket at his house, so i'm hoping he calls cuz i'll die if i don't have it to crochet!! lol
Thursday, March 25, 2004
this is the abridged version cuz i gotta start my hitler paper...
i was at health center from 10 until almost 12 today. i'm on two prescriptions (or will be as soon as i pick one of them up) and have a cat scan scheduled for april 6 at 1 PM. if you think of it in the next couple weeks, pray for me. there's other stuff going on, and yeah. i could just use some prayer. thanks.
goooood news tho--my non best friend brittany just told me johnson extended the deadlines of our new testament papers--now not due until april 13!!! :)
i was at health center from 10 until almost 12 today. i'm on two prescriptions (or will be as soon as i pick one of them up) and have a cat scan scheduled for april 6 at 1 PM. if you think of it in the next couple weeks, pray for me. there's other stuff going on, and yeah. i could just use some prayer. thanks.
goooood news tho--my non best friend brittany just told me johnson extended the deadlines of our new testament papers--now not due until april 13!!! :)
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
i just made an appointment with the campus doctor for tomorrow at 10. i'm scared. like shaking scared. i don't know why. its just... i've been getting these headaches for about 2 years now. i just kept ignoring them and taking more and more drugs, trying to make something work. its to the point where i take like 15 or 20 ibuprofen in the course of a day, and it still doesn't always work. maybe its nothing. maybe its just stress, and i just need stronger drugs. but what if its something more? i don't know... i'm just scared. i'm going to call home now and tell my mom, cuz she'd probly want to know that i made the appointment...
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
why can't i ever say what i want to say? i worry so much about making everyone else happy. but i don't know what to do when i'm not happy. deep down, all i want is to say "i need you", but i can't make myself say it. i don't want to inconvenience anyone, i don't want to force anyone to talk to me. so i go through it alone, not knowing what to do or how to make myself feel better...