hello old blogger. sometimes i miss you. but i have a year of xanga premium now. yay!

so i got a xangadanga. a real one that i think i'm gonna use. i don't know if i'll keep using this or not. we'll see...

hi i'm tracey and i have the coolest campers ever!


relientkbandgeek: i'm rather hungry
Coraleaflet: okay
Coraleaflet: goof job
Coraleaflet: *good
Coraleaflet: though goof works too
relientkbandgeek: i have to wait on my suitemates to eat
relientkbandgeek: they're taking too long
Coraleaflet: well, uh...
Coraleaflet: cool
Coraleaflet: eat your toe or something
relientkbandgeek: mmmmm toe
relientkbandgeek: yummy
Coraleaflet: i know
Coraleaflet: and yes, i used singular form of the word toe to indicate that you have already used the others as snacks in former hungry spurts of yours
relientkbandgeek: ... you found me out
Coraleaflet: hello, i've spent two summers with you! no offense, but i think i would have realized that the person i was with all summer had... lack of toes
relientkbandgeek: but i thought that the fake toes glued onto my flip flops would hide it better than that!
Coraleaflet: :-)that's awesome
Coraleaflet: good job
Coraleaflet: you make me laugh
relientkbandgeek: yay! my goal in life has been fulfilled
relientkbandgeek: i make cora laugh!
Coraleaflet: you do it all the time
relientkbandgeek: i could do a happy dance
relientkbandgeek: but i'll refrain
Coraleaflet: when i think back to camp, i think of you, and suddenly burst out laughing. and the other people in the room look at me really funny
Coraleaflet: oh, go on and dance
relientkbandgeek: lol i'm glad i have such an effect on your life


yes. i have amazingly awesome campers. :) i heart them all.

who is posting in my stuff??? [and there are 2 more journals, but i haven't used either one for a few years]
i thought it was reno, now i'm not sure...
who are you??? lol



EDIT: yes, it was reno. don't EVER let him have your password. EVER!
MORE EDIT: You know, Tracey, I could've done so many much more things ;o)

Hello. I've now posted in Tracey's xanga and her blog, but now I am saddened because there's nowhere else to post...and she'll probably change her password and hate me forever.

so i was listening to mark schultz, and this song jumped out at me, i swear. its AMAZING


i call, You hear me
i've lost it all
and it's more than i can bear
i feel so empty

You're strong, i'm weary
i'm holding on
but i feel like giving in
but still You're with me

and even though i'm walking through the valley of the shadow
i will hold tight to the hand of Him whose love will comfort me
and when my hope is gone and i've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that i will ever need
He will carry me

i know i'm broken
but You alone can mend this heart of mine
You're always with me

and even though i'm walking through the valley of the shadow
i will hold tight to the hand of Him whose love will comfort me
and when my hope is gone and i've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that i will ever need
He will carry me
He will carry me

and even though i feel so lonely
like i have never been before
You never said it would be easy
but You said You'd see me through the storm

and even though i'm walking through the valley of the shadow
i will hold tight to the hand of Him whose love will comfort me
and when my hope is gone and i've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that i will ever need
He will carry me
He will carry me
He will carry me

[i got lazy and didn't feel like pretty-fying the rest...]

so yeah... as reno pointed out, its been awhile since i posted...

last weekend i worked friday evening-sunday afternoon at camp, and it was amazing fun. it was really tiring, and i got up really early, and my feet were blistery from bad shoes, but it was still so much fun.
i had my first attempted set-up with a guy. if anyone is interested, i'll type out the whole story.
anyway, it was just AWESOME to spend a weekend at camp. the stars are so beautiful there...

goodness i waited too long and now i have to think...
monday... slept in during bio cuz i was tired from camp, and i don't remember much about the rest of the day. :(
tuesday... went shopping with heat[h]er, melissa, and linds. :) that was a good time!! :) had a stupid meeting thingy for social work during gilmore girls... *sniff* so i taped it! :)
wednesday... went to TESSA'S for dinner with CARYN, HAYLEY, and MEREDITH. the food was AMAZING and we were all bloated for a looooong time afterwards. but it was a really good time. i love those girls a lot. :)
because of that tho, i ended up breaking a promise to 2 of my goooodest friends. and i'm very sorry. :( i think they should give me another chance and not hate me because of it.
LP had a kegger that night, so i went a bit early with reno and we hung out with lyle in his room. that was fun. i have fun friends. :) even if they do make fun of me for being scared of LP... haha
thursday... hmmm... that was only a few days ago, but i'm not remembering... someone refresh my memory? oh wait i do remember... i went to b/s with delight, and it was so awesome. it felt so good to be back there after being gone for so long!!! i definitely want to get involved with kingdom house again. i can't go to b/s on mondays cuz of my field experience tho. :( afterwards no one wanted to go to starbucks, SADNESS, so i came back here. then joe said he hated starbucks, but he'd take me to muggswigz, so i went there with him and matt. that was fun. they're fun people. :) then reno came over here and we played games [aka dutch blitz] instead of watching the debate. :)
friday i visited people. it was a lot of fun. i went over and hung out with ess for awhile, which was super awesome, cuz i love her a lot. then i went up to brit's room and watched mean girls with her and cheeze [who was visiting for the weekend]. then we came back here and i taught them how to play dutch blitz. then i hung out with kim, jessie, and christmas [who stayed with us over the weekend, that was a good time :)]. i painted my nails. and christmas plucked my eyebrows. OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that definitely hurt REALLY bad.
saturday i slept in till like 11:15. that was nice.

now i'm tired. i'll finish this tomorrow!

quick update for the rest of today so i don't have to try to remember it on sunday...

intro to swk was ok. i didn't pay attention much, cuz i realized right before that class that i had a quiz in ASL, so i was reading for that.
in ASL we just took our quizzes and left, which was amazing.
then i got an amazing chain letter in the mail. :)
then around 1 i went to sheetz for lunch with mike davis, reno, lyle, and jana. it was a good time. i bought davis' lunch, so i finally don't owe him sheetz anymore, lol.
then i just hung out around here.
i went to borders/got my prescription filled with heather and hawks, then came back here and packed.

now i'm off to camp!!! yay!!!!!!

i'm leaving around 6:15 or so to go work in the kitchen at camp for the ladies' retreat. :)
i'll be back sometime sunday late afternoon/early evening.
feel free to send me email to the camp address! just put 'tracey' in the subject line, and they'll print it out and give it to me.

campluz@zoominternet.net

:)

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What time do you get up?	either 8 or 10:30, depending on the day
How do you get to school?	i walk around campus
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Easiest class?	9 on mwf
What month is your birthday?	april
How old were you when you got your first kiss?	18
How old were you when you started high school?	14
Are you hooked on the internet?	yes
Do you like going to school?	sometimes
Are you a morning person?	definitely not
When's the last time you had a b/f or g/f?	a couple weeks ago...
Do you play any instruments?	yes
If so, what?	clarinet
What's your favorite season?	spring
What's the name of your best friend?	i don't really have one :(
Rather be too hot or too cold?	cold
Cats or dogs?	cats
How many blankets do you sleep with?	3 or 4
What are your parents' names?	bob and lynn
Do you have a crush?	no
How long have you had a crush on this person?	---
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If you saw Brittney Spears somewhere, what would you do?	run far far away
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Do you have a secret you've never told anyone?	yes
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Who do you trust to keep your most important secrets?	my journal
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yay for always being behind!


monday was a long time ago. i don't really remember it. oh my mom came for dinner that day! i had 2 boxes in here that i didn't have any room for at all, so she came out and got them and took them home. she also brought me my music camp dvd, so i was happy. :)

tuesday... hmmm.... not remembering anything special that happened on tuesday. well walking for health was a good time, as always. ;) my walking buddies make it a good time, anyway. oh!! and tuesday was jessie's birthday, so our whole suite [minus chrissy] went to cold stone for some ice cream. yum!! :) theeeeeeeeen..... THE SEASON PREMIERES OF GILMORE GIRLS AND ONE TREE HILL!!! i watched both. i was glued to the tv for 2 hours. it was amazing... :)

wednesday... ummm.... went to walmart, panera, and smoothie king with lydia, picked up some applications, then later that night jessie, kim, and i went to the 9:45 show of little black book at movies 4. i still can't decide if i liked it or not...

yesterday... i only had one class, and it was a test. we had our commons group discussion at 11:30, then heat[h]er and i called our field experience place, but the lady we needed to talk to wasn't there. so we called back around 3:30, and were informed that a person has to be at least 21 to work at safe landing.... she said she'd check and call us back. we called ken and told him, and then the lady never called us back.... it was nice.
last night davis [mike davis] and lyle came over for awhile. it was fun to hang out with davis, i've missed him. then we went over to reno's room and watched gi joe movies off of ebaums... haha. then my roomie came over, and reno broke out the ddr pad. heather took care of the down and left arrows, and i did the up and right arrows, and we collectively played DDR. it was hilarious. heather did one on her own, too. but i didn't, not with that many people in the room.
after roomie and i left their room, we went out on the hill behind the cafeteria, laid down, and looked at the stars and talked for like half an hour. it was a good time. i love looking at the stars. it was a kinda cloudy night, but there was a patch without clouds right above us.
then i came back here and studied for my bio test, but something happened [i don't even understand what....] and then i couldn't concentrate on my studying anymore. so i went to bed around 2:30.

today i got up at 8. i took my bio test at 9, and it was ok. i'm hoping for a C... then i took a shower. now i'm doing nothing. well i'm listening to a new rk song. :) then i'm gonna go to intro to swk, sign language, then davis and i are going to lunch, either at chipotle [GROSS] or sheetz. then i'll be around until 6:15 or so, then I'M GONNA LEAVE FOR A WEEKEND AT CAMP!!!! i need a break so much right now...

lets get caught back up...

i shaved a chunk of skin off my leg while shaving on saturday night, that was a good time... it bled for a good 20 minutes. fun times.... lol

sunday i got up, got ready for church, then went with KT, kim, and lydia. lyle sat with us. it was good, i like first mennonite. after the service, lyle left, and the rest of us stayed for sunday school. the class was ok, but we went to the adult class cuz there's no college class. then we stayed for the carry-in meal. :) it was good stuff.
sunday afternoon i procrastinated a lot on my paper. i watched a lot of movies on abc family, played donkey kong a bit, called my rochelle, and basically did nothing for awhile. lol. then i took a disk and went in kim and rachel's room to write my paper (while taping singin in the rain on tcm, yay!!) since i couldn't concentrate in here. that worked well, and it didn't take me long to write my paper. so i went out in the living room and laid down on the couch to watch the last 45 minutes or so of singin in the rain, and the next thing i know, the movie is over and i had been asleep for half an hour.... lol. then we watched 'celeste in the city' ("we" being me, kim, rachel, jessie, and heather after she got back from golf). i love that movie. i love abc family movies in general. they're my favorite. :) i think i just hung around after that, not doing much. i watched an andrew lloyd webber special on pbs from 11pm-1am. it was amazing. tony vincent (who plays simon peter in the newer movie of JCS) sang a song as judas, and wow.... AMAZING, i think i'm in love. <3 then i went to bed.

i'll finish after class. i have lit in society, then walking for health... oh the joy....

friday i lost my work study [or rather, found out i never had it in the first place...], cried a lot, went to classes, hung out and did nothing, played dutch blitz with kim, jessie, and jessie's sister jen, went to starbucks with kelli [yay!], hung out with kelli for awhile, ali came, ali cut my hair [and she did it outside at night and couldn't see well, and now its short and i don't like it, but when do i ever like my hair??], then they left and heather and i watched kung pow [wow... that was a really STUPID movie.... lol] and then i did nothing and then i watched extreme days with jessie and her sister. then i was gonna go to bed, and joe IMed me and told me what not to wear was on, so then i stayed up till 2 to watch that. then i went to bed

today: my mom called at 8:20 to tell me tim's cross country meet started at 9, but i didn't get out of bed. i just listened to her leave the message and then went back to sleep. then i woke up at 10 when heather's alarm went off, and realized that i'd SLEPT IN, cuz i didn't set my alarm last night. so i threw on some clothes and went out to where the CC meet was, to find out that not only had i missed division III boys running, leetonia had already left. :( :( :( :( i'd been talking about this meet and how excited i was to see my little brother for a few weeks. i told like everyone. and then i missed it. :( i ate lunch with brit, her brother, and a friend of his, then i came back here. i was going to start my paper, but i never did. ali came over around 4:45 or so, and we played diddy kong until like 5:20, and then left for kelli's. kelli's mommy made us steak and potatoes for dinner.... oh it was yummy. mmmmmmmmmmmm. :) then they brought me back here and i did nothing. i was so extremely bored. then heather and i headed over to heritage to hang out with her friend brett. we watched dumb and dumber and i crocheted. and talked to ermine for a bit. then i went to sheetz with heather, brett, reno, and dinky [??? i don't know... i think thats what he said, lol]. it was a good time. :)

now i'm gonna go shower, then get to bed. i'm going to first mennonite again with KT. kim and lydia are coming with us. lyle is going too, and maybe roger. :)

on the way back from that, they were flipping through songs on a cd, and 'only one' came on. i couldn't exactly be like "no we can't listen to this song". so i sat through it, and just looked out the window so no one could see that i was trying my hardest [and pretty much failing] not to cry. will i ever be better? every time i think i'm ok, i hear a song or something, and i crash down again. i wish that i was stronger. but i'm not. i'm weak, and i don't know how to deal with things on my own. i guess i'll learn tho...

stole this from christy

1) Single or Taken: single
2) Sex: female
3) Birthday: april 15
4) Sign: aries
5) Siblings: rusty [22] and tim [15]
6) Hair color: brown
7) Eye color: brown
8) height: 5'8 or so

*-;-* R e l a t i o n s h i p s~*
1) Who are your best friends?: i don't think i have one right now... :(
2) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no
3) Did you send this to your crush: its being posted for all to see
4) Did your crush send this to you: i got it from christy's journal

*-;-*F a s h i o n S t u f f *-;-*
1) Where is your favorite place to shop: VDO and jc penney
2) Any tattoos or piercing: eyebrow

*-;-* T h e E x t r a S t u f f *-;-*
1) Do you do drugs: not even my prescription, cuz i can't afford it
2) What kind of shampoo do you use: at the moment, its something tangerine. i think its... i don't even remember
3) What are you most scared of: being alone
4) What are you listening to right now: jessie and her sister are watching 'the prince and me' out in the living room, and i can half-way hear it
5) What is your dream car: don't care
6) Who was the last person to call you: ali to tell me she was on her way
7) Where do you want to get married: don't know, cuz i don't go to the same church that i used to when i was little, but don't know a lot of people at the one that i go to now... maybe i'll just go to vegas ;)
8) How many messenger buddies do you have right now: 199
9) If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be: everything

*-;-* F a v o r I t e s *-;-*
1) Color: orange
2) Dessert: i don't know
4) Boy's names: don't know yet
5) Girls names: don't know yet
6) Subjects in school: sign language is hard, but a lot of fun so far
7) Animals: pigs
8) Sports: don't really care for sports
9) Pet peeve: when the toilet paper in our bathroom is on the wrong way

*-;-* H a v e Y o u E v e r *-;-*
1) Smoked: no
2) Given anyone a bath: my dog
3) Bungee jumped: no
4) Broken a law: driving laws [but i've never been caught... :)]
5) Made yourself throw-up: no
6) Gone skinny-dipping: haha
7) Been in love: yes

*-;-* F i r s t T h i n g T h a t C o m e s T o M i n d *-;-*
1) Red: green
2) Cow tipping: christy [is that normal that i think of her when i read cow tipping??? lol]
3) Socks: toes
4) Greenland: iceland

*~-;-~*W h a t ' s W o r s e ?*~-;-~*
1) Barfing on your date or your date barfing on you: my date barfing on me

*-;-* F i n a l Q u e s t i o n s *-;-*
1) Do you like filling these out: whatever
2) How many people are you sending this to: posting it in my journal
3) Who will send it back: probly no one
4) Gold or Silver: silver
6) What is the last film you saw at the cinema: cinderella story on wednesday with my roommate and my favorite non best friend
7) Favorite Cartoon Character: don't know
8) What did you have for breakfast: i didn't
9) Who would you hate being locked in a room with: chow mein charlie!!

so i forgot to set my alarm last night. i woke up at 10, got dressed real quick, and went outside. then i found out that division III boys had already run. i slept through tim running. i couldn't even find leetonia... :( i really wanted to be there.


at least i got to see everrett....

when i said it was going to be a bad day, i didn't realize that i was sentencing myself....

i just lost my work study job, because my dad didn't turn in my FAFSA on time....

why can't i be like the rich kids?
so i might not be able to stay at malone....

i feel like everything's crashing down on me at once. it's not a fun feeling. i hate feeling like my world is spinning out of control, and i'm just doing my best to hang on and not fall. well i think i just fell. i can't do this anymore, i'm tired of everything going wrong. do i ever get to be happy? when will things actually go RIGHT for me?

i'm behind again...

yesterday... hmmm... it was tuesday... i got up, went to commons 1, ate lunch with brittany, made plans with her for a road trip (yay!!!!!!!!) to kentucky christian college in a few weekends, went to lit in society, went to walking and walked with my 'walking buddies' kirstin and jessica, worked 5-7, watched gilmore girls and one tree hill, went up to latenight, talked to kurt williams [yeah leetonia kids at malone!!! lol] and i forget if i did anything after that... i don't think i did. maybe i did? who knows.... lol

today i went to bio, pretty much failed the quiz, chapel, talked to old RA, got my yearbook, got a letter (yay!!!!!!!!!) from travis, opened it at the beginning of my intro class and proceeded to cry, went to sign language and had fun, as usual, listened to my answering machine message from rochelle, ate lunch, went to social sciences and didn't understand a single thing [but had fun messing around the whole class.... lol], went to target with chrissy, ate dinner, organized my stuff more via stuff i bought at target, went and saw a cinderella story [GOOD movie!!] with my favorite non-best friend brittany and my roommate, talked to my mom for a bit on the phone, went to muggswigz with matt, reno, joe, and john, went up to sarah and jenny's for a bit, hung out in chelsie, berta, maggie, and charity's room for awhile, made plans to eat breakfast at 9 [yikes!!!] with chelsie, read for my commons group meeting tomorrow, and now i'm heading to bed.... yay sleep! [i think a nap will be in order for tomorrow, seeing how i'm used to sleeping in till 11 on thursdays... lol]


current favorite song: first day of the rest of my life by mxpx

i realized something just now.... travis is leaving in a day and a half.

Tmanlivin4God: hey tracey
Tmanlivin4God: 1 and a half
relientkbandgeek: wow....
Tmanlivin4God: i know
relientkbandgeek: so are you excited??
Tmanlivin4God: it's freaky
Tmanlivin4God: yes and nervous
Tmanlivin4God: kinda unsure about leaving everybody
relientkbandgeek: yeah that would be hard for me
Tmanlivin4God: yeah it is
relientkbandgeek: but a lot of people are going with you
relientkbandgeek: so thats cool
Tmanlivin4God: yeah
Tmanlivin4God: that is true !
Tmanlivin4God: and your not coming
relientkbandgeek: :-(
relientkbandgeek: no
relientkbandgeek: i'm the one being left behind
relientkbandgeek: you guys'll come back and be like "tracey who????"
Tmanlivin4God: tracey who yoder
Tmanlivin4God: thats your middle name

wednesday he gets on plane, flies to germany, and stays there for 7 months. travis...the person who's pretty much been my closest friend this past year. the person that i go to with pretty much every problem. yeah he's leaving... i'm so excited for him, its gonna be awesome. but he's leaving... i guess i'm just terrified of being left behind. he's going to germany with ben, paul, brian, and i don't even know who else. they're gonna have amazing experiences, and i'm just afraid that i'm going to be forgotten in the meantime.

i just have to hold on to thoughts such as this...
Tmanlivin4God: well then you should know, close friends don't forget each other

its just gonna be hard... i can't believe they're leaving on wednesday!!

so i'm gonna get back into actually posting in this thing... i basically haven't since i've been back at school. things have been crazy.

this past saturday i headed down to mount vernon nazarene university with reno and joe [aka gnome]. it was a good time. i hung out with ali and becca most of the time i was there. i didn't hang out with travis as much as i would have liked [seeing how he's leaving for germany in 2 days], but i still got to see him for a bit, which was cool. 2B and tim were there too. i heart my friends. :)
we got there while subseven was playing, and i didn't go listen to them at all. i did watch kids in the way, however, and i really like them. staple i'm not a huge fan of, but i watched most of the concert. i ended up running around doing random things during the swift, and only caught their last few songs. i really wish i had stayed to hear more, cuz they were amazing from what i heard. i ended up going back up front for everyday sunday, and they were really good too. then i stayed up front for the elms and pillar, the 2 bands that i was actually there to see. they were both good. the crowd at pillar made me sad, but other than that it was a good concert.
afterwards, reno joe and i headed back here. on the way i managed to run over one live animal and one pre-dead one and hit a few bugs, but i did avoid the deer, lol. we stopped at IHOP in massillon and ate, then came back here. i went to bed pretty much right away, cuz i was tired.

yesterday KT and i headed out to first mennonite here in canton for church. it was brian's last sunday in the US, and we wanted to see him. we both really liked it. we're gonna go again next sunday [although the carry-in meal they're having might have something to do with that... haha]. after church and sunday school, jean [brian's mom] invited us to their house for pizza and to hang out, so we went and hung out with brian, lee martin, and sylvia hooley. it was a good time. lee caught a ride back to malone with me and KT. he's a funny guy.
after that i just kinda hung out. i watched about 2 and a half hours of saved by the bell cuz i really wanted to get it finished, lol. so now i've watched the entire first 2 seasons of saved by the bell. :) then jessie, kim, heather, and i watched peter pan. the old school one with mary martin. it was a good time. :) then i did my social sciences homework for like 2 HOURS... NOT a good time... it was so horrible. then i went to bed.

today i got up, got dressed, went to human bio, went to chapel, read for intro all during chapel, went to intro, went to sign langauge, ate lunch with heat[h]er and chrissy, lindsay and i gave heat[h]er and melissa the 'abnormal children' award, then i hung out with them in heat[h]er and melissa's room for awhile.

now i'm on the phone with my mom

mat gave ali his password to his xanga tonight. ali proceeded to change his password, give the new one to me, then she changed the colors and wrote a new post. i changed the picture. oh its a good one...

today i went out to my car and got the clear shoe box out of my trunk, and then i brought it in here and i put things in it. everything that i looked at that made my eyes well up when i looked at it got put in that box.

its a good thing to do, but it just makes it feel so final. like maybe it was all just pretend, or a bad dream, until now. now i look around and the pictures are gone, and his phone number isn't taped to the side of my computer anymore. the card he gave me last week isn't sitting on my desk, and i threw away the empty bag of sour patch kids thats been sitting on my printer [that bag came with the card, i found them in my bookbag in the middle of a class].
i think one of the hardest things will be my room at home. there's a lot of stuff that i didn't bring with me, and i'm not looking forward to being in my room back home anytime soon.

off to dinner [and hopefully some laughter] with molly, jenny, and sarah!

yayayay!!! my little brother is so awesome!!! he got his picture in the paper back home for cross country!! check it out!!!

lydia roberts is the coolest person EVER!!!!!!!! she's so cool. she has my phone right now, cuz she wanted one with an answering machine. that makes her even cooler, since she has my phone. she's so cool... :)

just to recap, this was my roomie last year, caryn. she was crazy. :)



this is the guy that i'm dating. i've been dating him since january. isn't he a winner? ;)



i worked at mcdonalds for about 3 weeks at the beginning of the summer, and 2 and a half weeks at the end of the summer. its not a fun job, but people like my shanny make it ok! :)



this is just a picture of me and my cool little brother, just cuz. he's so cool. :)



one time, i don't remember when, but one time this summer i went to el campesino's with melanie, ali, david, and janson [he's taking the picture]. it was fun. we saw the hershbergers there. :)



tim was in craig's cabin at youth camp. as you can see, that was quite the combination. the guys in that cabin were insane. i mean, g's, they lit their butts on fire!!!



this is my AMAZING jr. teen cabin. we're so cool. look how buff we are!! this was before the God's Hollow hike. go us. :)



this was my jr. high cabin. i was supposed to counsel them alone, but then i ended up counseling with elizabeth [the girl on the bottom, lol] and it was an awesome week. even if they did plot against us constantly!!!



i got to spend a weekend in virginia with SARAH!! :) it was AWESOME!!! oh goodness i loved the mountains a lot. :) it was so much fun!!!



yeah cooking!!! i spent the weekend at brian schlabach's house with erin gotwals, and we made/served an amazing meal of chicken stir fry and rice, garlic bread, watermelon, carrot cake [with cream cheese icing, of course], and iced tea. it was so good, and we had a blast making it. :)

[i feel like a tour guide or something, lol]



during music camp, rochelle and i read sense and sensibility outloud. it was great. then we watched the movie together a few weeks later. the book was much better, but the movie was really good too :)




becca and donna shaving creamed my car---while i was in it. i took some pictures before i washed my car, lol.



i got even. check out becca's car. oh yeah. that was me. :)



i have a few pictures from the staff reunion at the end of the summer [well i have a lot more, but these are the ones i took the time to scan and put on my computer, lol]. here they are...

me and kt



see no, hear no, speak no. :)
lacey, holley, and me


this last one is my favorite. its great. i have another one that has kirk's head in the bottom left corner, but he blocks a few other people, so i scanned this one...

i think we might have broken the weight limit in the pug... haha :)
i love these people. they were my family over the summer. they are awesome. :)


so maybe you didn't care about any of this, but i thought it was fun. :)

i think i've posted this song in here before, but man... it still amazes me.

Pitiful by Blindside

As I recall with my stomach turning
I was hiding away from myself, away from You
Like nothing, though something was terribly wrong
And I admit that I was only waiting for the right time
Night time, the right moment for You to look away
Though You never did, I pretended for a while
So I could walk where I don't belong

And I remember every word You said
Come back in time, come back
And I remember I would soon be dead
Now so pitiful, so pitiful

But I know as I hammered those nails into Your beautiful hands
Your eyes still try to search for mine, but I look away
Now Your eyes are the only thing that can save me
I'm still so afraid of them piercing
You're breaking into my prison
Just pretended for a while
My soul is dying
I won't look away

And I remember every word You said...
I'll remember every word You said
This time I won't look away

check it out. download it. IM me, and i'll send it to you. its so amazing...

ok... so i'm behind. as usual. lets see...

saturday mom dad and i ate at quizno's and got gas in salem (and mom paid for all of that cuz i'm a sad broke little girl), then we got to malone. we brought in all my stuff (minus a big box of movies which is still MIA, a few days later, ahhhhh). the boy scouts were there helping carry stuff in, lol. mom and i got in some weird fight (she took something i said jokingly completely the wrong way and stormed out of my room). so that was a great way to start off my second year here at malone.
chrissy and i went over to the bookstore and bought books, mine were $315, and i borrowed like 5 books from chrissy. don't want to think about what it would have been if i hadn't borrowed books from her... wow. i get to return one of them thats worth like 12.50, lol. i'm gonna be RICH!
i unpacked some, and lets see... what else happened on saturday? ohh! i know! cassie came out, so i walked all over campus visiting people, then went to a movie with her, est, molly, lindsay, and shelli. we saw dodgeball, and laughed a lot, lol. i don't think anything happened after that. i think i just came back here and hung out.

sunday i slept in till 10:30 or so. that was nice. :) then i unpacked more, then ate lunch. hmmm... then what? oh i know. i went to wal-mart with my roommate, her friend jacob, and his roommate josh. that was a good time. :) we went to walmart, furniture max (haha) and old navy. then after we got back, janson came over after awhile.
we went visiting on campus, and were in every dorm except PGB and haviland, lol. we ended up in kasey and jared's room for like an hour, which was hilarious. i had to pee while i was there, so i made jared go in and lock the door that led to reno and jason's room, and then after i got done, they wouldn't let me out. they'd locked the door from the outside and i was locked in. heat[h]er came over for awhile, and then janson and i went over to her dorm for a bit later. joe was trying to a shelf together, and janson tried to help him, and heat[h]er and i just laughed at them.


more later :)

so work study kinda sucks, and i don't think i'm gonna be able to get an off campus job because of it. but here's my schedule (classes and work study) for the semester...

Monday
9-9:50 AM- Human Biology- TS 100
10-10:45ish AM- Chapel
11-11:50 AM- Intro to Social Work- CC 104
12-12:50 AM- American Sign Language- CH 2
2-2:50 PM- Understanding the Social Sciences- CH 1

Tuesday
11 AM-12:15 PM- Commons 1 (Social Work)- CC 105
12:30-1 PM- Work in Library Lab
2:30-3:45 PM- Literature in Society- CH 2
4-4:50 PM- Walking for Health- Gym
5-7 PM- Work in Timken Lab

Wednesday
9-9:50 AM- Human Biology- TS 100
10-10:45ish AM- Chapel
11-11:50 AM- Intro to Social Work- CC 104
12-12:50 AM- American Sign Language- CH 2
2-2:50 PM- Understanding the Social Sciences- CH 1
4-5 PM- Work in Library Lab
8:30-9 PM- Work in Timken Lab
10-11:30 PM- Work in Timken Lab

Thursday
11:30 AM- 1 PM- Work in Library Lab
2:30-3:45 PM- Literature in Society- CH 2
4-4:50 PM- Walking for Health- Gym
5-5:30 PM- Work in Timken Lab

Friday
9-9:50 AM- Human Biology- TS 100
10:30-11 AM- Work in Timken Lab
11-11:50 AM- Intro to Social Work- CC 104
12-12:50 AM- American Sign Language- CH 2
1-1:30 PM- Work in Library Lab

Sunday
4-6:30 PM- Work in Library Lab

so i can't get AIM to work. neither can heather, or jessie. thats not cool. :(

its too early. i want to sleep.

ok so its 9 am. in a little over 3 hours, i have to pick up my mom from work. before then, i have to...

--get the stuff out of my moms van
--attempt to take the seat out of my moms van
--clean the junk out of my car
--vaccuum the dog hair out of my car
--finish packing my clothes
--bring my computer downstairs
--bring my tv downstairs (well first remove all clothing and whatnot from it, its been a coat hanger these past couple weeks)
--finish packing in general, cuz i haven't really started
--oh and clean the inside of my moms windshield


can she do it??? she's not really sure.... but she's gonna try!!


[iwanttogotothebleachconcert....] :(

What stupid celebrity are you destined to kill? by daydreamer8852
Name
Birthdate
You killed
With a
On	July 6, 2021
Quiz created with MemeGen!

yes friends, he's going to kill his favorite actor. with a mirror. i love these things. :)

well i'm a bit behind i guess...

work on monday was fun, as i started to say. rayford makes me laugh a lot. even when he pushes me down and i fall on my butt. i named the air freshener in my car after him. its a naked tiki man that smells like coconut, and is now named rayford. lol.
i don't remember much else. we trained kevin. he's cool, but i feel like i have a shadow when i work with him. oh i fell down when i was talking to him. i was back doing dishes, and i was trying to hurry, and slipped in the water on the floor and fell, on my butt. i've never fallen at work before, and then i fell twice in one night... lol

i already posted about picking up my parents from the station that night.


tuesday i slept from 6-11am, then i got up cuz mom came home on her lunch break and we took my car down to 344 tire, then i stayed up for little while. i ended up going back to bed from like 1:30-3:30pm cuz i was still freaking tired.
we picked up my car that night on my way to work (mom dropped me off), its so nice to have a fully working car again. the brakes actually WORK, its so weird!! lol
then i worked 8-close. ashley makes me laugh. it was an ok night.

yesterday i started packing. well i finished reading my book first (reunion). it was so sad.... i bawled my way through it. but it was really good. then i talked to some people online, almost bought tickets to a bleach concert, but forced myself not to (its on saturday and theres basically no way that i can make it work, *sniff*) and THEN i started packing. around 6, the phone rang. caller id said mcdonalds, so i almost didn't answer, lol. but i did, and it was sean. he'd talked rayford into staying till close so that i didn't have to come in at all (woohoo!!!!) so i talked to him for a bit, then i drove tim up to canfield. we listened to brian regan on the way. :) then i went back to packing when i got home. i really didn't get much done, lol. but i have a couple boxes. (2 of them were still packed from may, lol, but that doesn't matter...)
my suite had a chatroom going last night. well 4 of us did. it was hilarious. this year is gonna be so funny. :) ski masks. thats all i have to say... :)
OH!! and my wonderful roommate told me our phone number, once again, since i didn't write it down last time. as of saturday, my phone number will be: 330-588-7564. use it!! :)

today i got up around 10:30, and i started laundry. as soon as thats done (which might be awhile, cuz i'm doing everyone's laundry) i'm gonna pack my clothes. and i work 4-close tonight. thats about it.

Your Husband Generator by Lady_Galadriel
Name
Your Husband Is
You Met	at a pub
You Have	7 children
You Live	ireland
In	a tent
You And Your Partner Are Best Known For	throwing away all your cash
Quiz created with MemeGen!

who needs cash? O.O
haha jk, i don't even know who that is.

At your ten year high school reunion... by robbiewriter
Your school name
Your name
Your job will be	Lawyer
You will be worth	$333,837
Everyone will think you	are really hot
Quiz created with MemeGen!

mwahahahaha!!

What will your last words be? by cum_on_bitch
Your LJ username
Your real name
Your sex
Your age
Your last words will be...	"i hate you so much..."
Quiz created with MemeGen!

well...

Who is in your celebrity family? by cerulean_dreams
User Name
Mom	Celine Dion
Dad	Johnny Depp
Brother	Ashton Kutcher
Sister	Enya
Dog	Lassie
Boyfriend	Hughe Grant
Best friend	Hillary Duff
Quiz created with MemeGen!

where do they come up with these things??? haha

Your Years at Hogwarts by nevermindless
Name:
The Sorting Hat places you in:	Gryffindor (Red and Gold)
Subject you are naturally best at:	Transfiguration
Your favorite book:	An Encyclopedia of Toadstools
Pet you bring to school:	Pearl Rat
You are most known for:	Nothing. No one notices you.
Quiz created with MemeGen!

[at least i'm not in slytherin...]

How would you do on American Idol? by geela
Name
Age
Simon says	Screeching cats sound better
Paula says	I have a crush on you!
Randy says	I'm feelin' ya dawg!
Success level	Make tons of money (for them)
Quiz created with MemeGen!

ok i'm done now... i promise... haha

i'm more ghetto than reno!! lol

Your Inner Gangsta by crash_and_burn
What is yo name? Yo gangsta name beLaddie McBaddie
You ride around in a 2004 BMW 530
Yo gang The Meatloaf Pummelers
Yo shoes be Thigh-high go-go boots
Yo dubs be dis big, foo l475
How much money you got? $6.03604491986179e+25
How gangsta are you, bitch?: 31%
Quiz created with MemeGen!


there. i sorta fixed it... :)

oh, so work last night? one of those random nights when it was actually kinda fun. i love nights like that. i worked 4-close, and rayford (aka ray yeager) was there 4-9, and he and i trained his friend josh for like an hour or so (cuz robert got tired of doing it, of course). i went over to the bookstore on my break to take back some books to joyce that i'd borrowed from her, and she lent me

moms home, gotta pick up my car from jeff!! more later...

i'm tiiiiired. mom and dad's train ended up not getting there until about 5 am, so i sat at the station, freeeeezing waiting for them. i just sat in the little thingy with a sweatshirt and blanket that i found in moms car, reading reunion (by karen kingsbury and gary smalley, and its amazing so far!!!), and waiting. so by the time we got back here and i got in bed, it was like 10 after 6. then i had to get up around 11:25 or so cuz mom was home on her lunch break and we took my car down to 344 tire. i'm contemplating going back to bed, i haven't decided yet. i've lived on 5 hours of sleep before, but i don't think i could handle mcdonalds when i'm this tired. i might go back up for like 2 more hours.


kurt blackburn always signs on and then signs off right away, and it makes me sad, cuz i never have time to IM him before he gets off. i haven't talked to him forever. kurt, if you read this, you are a slacker and you should stop getting off right away, and you should talk to me!!!


i'm out.

scratch that. on my way out the door, i found a note from my little brother informing me that the train is delayed. 2 hours and 15 minutes delayed. at the moment, its supposed to come in at 4:30 am. well that sucks...




F!!!

yesterday i got up, got dressed, and tim and i headed to church. we joked around that it was the first time we'd been on time in a long time (for some reason, my mom never leaves the house until like 9:20 or later, and its a 10 minute drive, lol). church was good, as usual. it was my last sunday there for awhile, tho, which is sad. i need to remember to give mom my dorm number to give to stacy so she can call me when fun stuff is going on with my sunday school class, cuz i heart them.
after church tim and i came home, and ate lunch. our lunch was amazing, let me tell you. we had leftover chicken alfredo that i'd made the night before, i made some ramen noodles, tim had a boiled egg, we both had grapes, and we had strawberry pies that i'd brought home from work the night before. it was so funny, i wanted to take a picture of our meal, lol. the other thing i wanted to take a picture of was the sink and the counter by the sink. we had like 5 or 6 containers and such of various sizes just sitting in the sink 'soaking', cuz we didn't feel like washing them, so we just put water in them so things wouldn't get hard and nasty on them. lol.
i was supposed to work 2-close then, but i ended up leaving at 7. i got there, and was like "i'm so tired of this place..." so i asked aja if i could do what we call (excuse the language) 'bitch work' so i wouldn't have to make any food. i washed the walls in the grill, changed all the liners in the store and outside, took a broom and dustpan out in the parking lot and swept up trash, washed all the vat covers (and they were freaking nasty, too), and cleaned out all the fakey wooden trashcans, inside and out. while i was cleaning the trashcans, a man came up to me and told me that we had the cleanest mcdonalds he had ever seen. he said he'd been in some gross ones that he wouldn't go back to, but he liked coming to ours cuz it was always clean. i was like "wow.. thanks!" as i was sitting on the floor with a bucket of water, cleaning out the insides of trashcans. lol. it was great. then aja sent me home a little after 7, since i was in overtime and they didn't want to pay me for it, lol. but i still got over 4 and a half hours of overtime, first. :)
i grabbed 2 milkshakes, then went over to video safari (movie gallery, whatever) and rented 'league of extraordinary gentleman' cuz tim hadn't seen it yet. so i came home, showered, then tim and i watched it. then i just kinda hung out i think, i don't really remember. i talked to heidi online for a bit. and travis. and maybe someone else? i don't know. lol (well janson, but thats kinda given). oh i remember!!! i talked to both jessie and heather yesterday! yay! i miss them both.


today i got up around 11:15. that is so freaking late, lol. well i got up twice before that, though. craig mercer called at 10:20 to talk to dad, and he said he'd call back tomorrow. and then i slept again. then around 10:45, joyce called, cuz she had the fifth book in a series i've been borrowing from her (the redemption series by karen kingsbury and gary smalley.. they're amazingly good!!). then i went back to sleep again.
after i got up i just hung out, then i called jeff (my mechanic) to talk about bringing my car down to him. we ended up talking for like half an hour, which was cool. i need to remember to take my car down there tomorrow during moms lunch break...
then tim and i went to salem. we went to marcs and walmart, where i bought random stuff, like for school and my dorm, some milk, some bread, and a pair of shoes at walmart, and stuff like that. it was fun, tim makes me laugh.
when we got back here, i called ali (cuz she'd called me) and then i did stuff that i was supposed to do all week long, like clean and such. then i dropped movies off at video safari, and worked a 4-close. i'll talk about work alter, i should probly get going to pick up my parents at the alliance amtrak station! bye all!

i stole this from reno.

Bold the ones that apply to you, and add three of your own at the bottom.
01. I have never kissed someone of the same sex.
02. I see a therapist.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness.
05. I love my gauged earrings.
06. I wear black eyeliner every day.
07. I am extremely influenced by kindness.
08. I love to write, even though I think I suck at it.
09. I can't live without lipgloss. (wait, does chapstick count? cuz if not, then i don't want this one bolded after all... lol)
10. I’m probably emotionally scarred.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags.
15. I’ve had a concussion before.
16. I'm not good with confrontation. [i know there are people shaking their heads right now... but i fight about the stupid stuff. when it comes to the serious stuff, i hate it...]
17. I loved the Backstreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I’m spiritual… but not religious.
21. My first kiss was unexpected. And heinous.
22. I start school on Jan 4th or 5th.
23. I love taking pictures. [even tho i'm horrible at it, i cut people's heads off... haha]
24. I hate girls.
25. I can be mean when I want to. [although there are people who will laugh when they read that, cuz they think i can't be]
26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I get very attached.
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes. [flip flops. make that flip flops.]
29. I've seen She’s All That at least 50 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I love Charmed.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. Winter is my favorite season.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay. [don't hate me for saying that, but i do. it doesn't change my opinion of anyone who is gay, tho. i still love them just the same.]
40. I have a lot of drama.
41. No one really knows me. [i thought about bolding this one, and then i was like 'oh wait... ali...' lol]
42. I love my hair. [it depends. right now, no]
43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I am passionate about my interests.
45. I have had the chicken pox. [twice!!]
46. I'm a hopeless romantic. [sometimes]
47. I feel empty sometimes.
48. I am/was clinically depressed at a point in my life.
49. I am addicted to coffee.
50. I am very outgoing.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure.
53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love my laptop.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I'm extremely mellow.
60. I contemplate suicide.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person.
66. I'm a vegetarian.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction.
71. I love school.
72. I've played a musical instrument for more than 5 years.
73. I tend to feel inadequate.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
76. I sew.
77. I am addicted to drugs.
78. I wear contacts. [i want to so bad, but i just can't. its so sad.... :(]
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I don't take criticism well.
82. Conformity is stupid.
83. Chris Carrabba is one of the suckiest men alive. [gee why am i not surprised that reno bolded that one?? i tried so hard to get him to like dashboard when we were dating... i played it constantly, lol]
84. So is Conor from Bright Eyes.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. I can be too hard on myself.
90. I don't like my nose.
91. I am very religious. [i try]
92. I still act like a little kid.
93. I am ridiculously indecisive.
94. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife. [God/devil and heaven/hell]
95. I love music.
96. I'm in love.
97. I have problems letting go of people.
98. I tend to think with my heart more than my head.
99. I don't really like ice cream.
100. I can't live without books.
101. If my house burned down, I'd try to save my cat.
102. I hate the town I live in.
103. I hate wearing my hair loose.
104. I only dance when I'm drunk.
105. I still sleep with my old stuffed toys.
106. I eat between three and four standard bars of chocolate a day.
107. I fangirl symphony orchestras, musicians, conductors and/or composers.
108. I say "I love you" very lightly, but I usually mean it. I have very flexible definitions of love.
109. I'm obsessed with 1920s Russian art Woo! Constructivism!!
110. I virtually never follow up my ideas.
111. I'm really f-ng cold right now.
112. I love Kiwifruit and Strawberry herbal tea!
113. I love thrift stores.
114. Beer is my fave alcoholic beverage *burP*
115. The Eels are the best band in the world.
116. You feel you missed out on much of your life so far.
117. People think you are more innocent than you are.
118. I live on my own.
119. I find amusement in things others would find offensive.
120. I drink diet coke because I like the taste.
121. I went to a Catholic school.
122. I have a tendency to act differently around different people, because I'm still not so sure who I am.
123. After bolding so many statements, my hands hurt, kinda...
124. I look forward to going to college, yet dread it.
125. I love the Spice Girls.
126. Ian Thorpe is one sexy beast.
127. I am an only child.
128. Harry Potter is my Bible.
129. Slash is good.
130. If I know someone, I say hi to them, whether or not I think they'll say hi back.
131. I believe my hands are my best physical asset.
132. I have never been kissed...not like real kissed, I mean, kissed period.
133. I am an Olympic freak. I watch the Olympics no matter what.
134. Michael Phelps is such a cutie!
135. I forgive but don’t forget.
136. I would be the most productive person in the world if I put all the ideas I have into action.
137. I am very much a realist--not a pessimist.
138. I tend to dwell on things said and actions done more than and longer than the average person would.
139. I've truly had my heart broken. [and then mended a few days later, and then broken again like a day later, and then mended again... oh that was the most horrible week of my life, but its in the past. things are ok now]
140. Soccer is my favorite sport.
141. I try not to use offensive language.
142. I hate my job.
143. I love intstrumental movie soundtracks
144. I love Jane Austen novels

yesterday tiff called me around 11:30. i was still in bed, lol, but i had moms phone in my room, so i answered it. she said that some band kids were eating lunch at pizza hut around 12:30 if i wanted to come. so after tim got home from band camp, we headed out to pizza hut. tiff neglected to tell me that rodik was gonna be there, lol, but i survived. josh canfield was there, which was awesome. he used to write the drills for us, he wrote the riverdance drill, which was the most awesome show all through high school. so it was cool to talk to him again.
tim and i gave farrah a ride home, and then came back here and watched chasing liberty. i had to leave before it was over to get to work.

work sucked. a lot. robert had poison ivy and couldn't deal with food at all, shannon was done at 8, and ray was done at 9. so that left me alone for the rest of the night. we got behind, cuz i don't know how to close grill, i only close dishes. and robert was more interested in standing around talking for 2 hours than helping me. needless to say, last night's close sucked. oh and i looked at my schedule while i was on break, cuz they'd put me on the schedule for next saturday, and i told them i couldn't work cuz i was moving back to malone that day. not only am i still on the schedule, now i'm training someone. so it looks like i won't really be back at malone till next sunday, which is really sad. i'm gonna move all my stuff over saturday morning, and then just come home and go back on sunday.
so i was thinking, "ok, i'm going home from work now, this crummy night is over." oh no, not in the least. it rained the whole time i was at work, which i was excited about, cuz my car got semi-clean. but i wasn't so happy when i started driving. i turned my car on, and put it in reverse and backed out of my parking spot, and i hear water swishing around INSIDE my car, and then water proceeds to pour out onto my feet and the passenger side. i was like "WTF???" but i decided to just drive home and worry about it later, cuz i need to call jeff on monday anyway to get my oil changed and my brakes fixed.
ok so bad night over? no not quite. its pretty dark at like 12:15 at night, right? right. so i'm driving home on rt. 14 at the same speed i usually go, like 60 or 65. and the next thing i know, i'm no longer in control of my car, and its careening towards the car thats driving on the other side of the road. i hit a huge patch of water that i couldn't see cuz of the dark, and then i hydroplaned and almost died. good times. so i slowed down to about 45, and i hydroplaned again later. so i slowed down to like 30, and i hydroplaned, once again, later on. so needless to say, i was REALLY not in the best of moods when i got home.
so i get home, and tim had left a note for me that the chimney above the fishtank is leaking (yes, we have a fishtank in our chimney... i know... lol), in two different places, and that i needed to check the buckets before i went to bed. the one was leaking this nasty black color, and the other one was leaking a disgusting pee color. and i was like "oh this is nice..."
so i thought "ok. i'm just gonna get on the computer and talk to some people, i'll be ok." NO!! mom has norton set to run a computer scan every friday night. well, last night it found not one, not 2, not 3... but 8 at-risk files in this computer. 8. oh how i love viruses. so i clicked the delete button, and only 6 of them deleted. 2 of them refused to be deleted. this whole time, people are IMing me, and i can hear the noise, but i can't see what they're saying or type back to them. so i gave up and took a shower. it took me freaking forever to get everything off this computer. i ended up having to use a system restore back to before i deleted stuff, then taking out this program that my mom had downloaded (down with smiley central!!!), cuz it was made by MyWebSearch, which is definitely adware. blah. so i got rid of all that, and then searched the computer to find that 3 of the files hadn't actually been deleted. so i got rid of those. then i did a virus scan, and it found 3 more files that i needed to delete.

oh life was so wonderful last night.... lol

today i got up at 12:10, cuz i didn't go to bed till about 5 am. i set my alarm for 10:45, called jenny and told her i wasn't going to the thrift store, and then i went back to bed.
today i've been productive, sorta. i finished watching chasing liberty, which i really liked. then i called heidi, and she wasn't home, but beth had her call me back. so i talked to her for a bit. then i did the dishes, cuz mom and dad have been gone since wednesday and this is the first time they've been washed... lol. then i started cleaning the living room, since its on my list of things to do before mom gets home. i started dinner, but its not gonna be done in time for me to eat it before i have to go to work AT 3, EVEN THO MY AVAILABILITY IS 4-CLOSE!!! ohhhh how i hate that place... i just have to keep saying to myself 'overtime...overtime....overtime.....' and reminding myself that by the end of next week, i'll have about 12 hours of overtime.

so now i need to go change my clothes for work, wait for the buzzer on the stove to go off, take the chicken alfredo out of the oven, leave a note for tim if he isn't home yet, take the movies back to the library that are currently 3 DAYS OVERDUE, and then head to work, for the next 9 hours of my life. well that sucks... lol

i'm out.

well, i was gonna post tonight. then i had a horrible night, and then i had to save this computer from certain death (aka a virus), and then i talked to janson on the phone for almost 3 hours so i could feel better about my horrible night, and getting some stuff worked out, and now i'm pooped. i'm going to bed. i'll post tomorrow instead. i don't think i'm gonna go to VDO with jenny in the morning, cuz i'll be tired, and there's a lot of stuff around here that needs done.

night.

so, despite what everyone said, i liked the village. it might not have been the thriller that previews on tv made it out to be, but there were definitely a few parts that scared the crap out of me in there. and the twist in it was awesome. i think there were sorta 2 twists. tim and i were talking about that on the way back.
altogether, we were gone for like 5 hours. we went to the bank and to marcs before hand (i had to drop off film), then to the movie, then on the way back we went to taco bell, stopped and got ice cream (and ended a very sad chapter of my life... *sniff*), waved at george, got gas, and went to walmart.
we hadn't been gone very long when someone knocked on the front door. i opened it, and it was maryea, with faith. i hadn't seen them since my graduation party. oh my goodness, faith is so big!! she's a year and 5 months old, and its crazy how big she is!! she saw my car in the driveway, and stopped to say hi. she was on her way up to valerie's (i just typed stark, but i guess her last name is mangus now, huh?) house, so i went with her. it was so weird to be hanging out with a married valerie with a son, and maryea with her daughter. and plus, maryea said that they were inducing labor on april tonight, so hopefully all went well in the birth of david. :)
i hung out there for an hour or so, then i walked back here and called jenny. she came over, tim made the peach cobbler out of a box that mom left for us, and then we went to video safari (or rather, movie gallery) in columbiana and got 13 going on 30 (really good), intolerable cruelty (really strange), and chasing liberty. we watched the first 2 tonight. i'm gonna watch chasing liberty tomorrow probly. or sometime.
i also took out janson's blanket. i didn't like it. i'm starting it over again. (oh come on, y'all knew i was gonna do it eventually, i do it every time i make something!!!)
jenny and i are going to VDO in austintown on saturday. yay!!


my day off was good! too bad tomorrow i have to go back to work... :( i really need to start packing for school sometime, too.

tim and i are officially home alone until 2:15 am tuesday morning (aka monday night) when i go pick up mom and dad at the amtrak station in alliance (which i ever so conviently know how to get to cuz of sarah). lets party... oh wait, i work every night except for one, that being tomorrow.

work kinda sucked tonight. we got out at an ok time, but everyone was at each others throats. i even semi flipped out on brittany merriman, although i apologized a few mintues afterwards cuz i felt pretty bad about it. i gave sean a ride home afterwards. that boy is polite. he says 'pardon' and when he swears in front of me, he apologizes and says he shouldn't cuss in front of a lady (i don't consider myself a lady, but he's still a gentleman).

so i've had a lot of people tell me not to waste my time on the village. but i know tim really wants to see it, and i do too. i tend to like movies that other people don't like. so we'll see. the offer still stands that tim and i will be at carnation mall in alliance to see the 1:20 pm showing of the village if anyone feels inclined to join us.

i had something else to say, but i completely forget what it was. so i guess thats all for me for now.

so mom and i are sitting down, watching love actually, when someone knocked on the door. i answered it, and a man definitely flashes an FBI badge at me. i was like "yeah.. let me get my mom" lol. [he was investigating background on rusty, obviously--and for any who don't know, which i doubt is anyone, but he's my older brother who's in the air force].

reno's new livejournal is friends only, and i don't have livejournal. neither does my homeschooler. maybe her and i should share a livejournal name and see if reno would let us be his friend.

mom and dad haven't left yet. i guess the jeep had some major crap wrong with it, so it got fixed today. they just went to go pick it up tho, and mom wants to leave here before 4 if she can. but i'll be at work by then. (4-close, if anyone feels the need to come visit me!!)

TOMORROW IS MY DAY OFF!!! WOOHOO!!!! i'm so excited. tim and i are gonna go see 'the village' in alliance, either at 1:20 or at 4, i'm not sure yet. and then i'm gonna hang out with jenny. i miss jenny. i haven't seen her since we were at camp. tomorrow is gonna be a gooooood day!!! :) if i can just get through work tonight first... BLECH

tim just got home. we're going to the movie at 1:20 tomorrow. if anyone wants to join us, leave me a comment, or i'll be online after midnight or 12:30. alliance isn't very far away from friends... :)

[i stole this from lynne]

Five details about your appearance right now.
1) wet hair
2) 2001 camp luz staff shirt that i bought at mcc connections
3) black adidas shorts that mrs. nappi gave me :)
4) i don't have my glasses on cuz they're nasty from work and i don't feel like cleaning them
5) i have a lot of bracelets/anklets on, and i only made like 2 of them myself. the rest were given to me by campers, except for my awesome twine one that my rochelle made me. oh how i miss her...


Five things you did today.
1) attempted to drive rusty's jeep (attempted being the key word)
2) watched under the tuscan sun and made plans to move to italy
3) worked 4-close
4) told jeremiah to get his stuff out of my car (which didn't happen)
5) took a ride on the breakfast cart at work


Five things that everyone should know about you.
1) i'm sarcastic
2) i HATE being tickled, and if you tickle me, i'll do just about anything to make you stop (i think i bit someone and drew blood one time... i don't do it on purpose, i just hate being tickled that much)
3) i don't like myself very much
4) i'm a pretty emotional person, but i hide it a lot of the time
5) i watch princess bride obsessively. i bet i've seen it 50 times


Five groups/artists you listened to yesterday.
1) ummm lemme think.... yellowcard
2) dashboard confessional
3) pillar
4) linkin park (robert blasted reanimation during close, and i don't like that cd... grrrr)
5) third day


Five things that make you happy.
1) camp luz
2) starbucks
3) days off from work
4) crocheting
5) picture frames


Five things that disgust you.
1) mcd's grease
2) people being IN MY BUBBLE!! even tho sean and ray find it just so hilarious... this is not spain!!!!!!!! grrrr.... lol
3) back acne from all the grease at mcd's
4) hearing people exchange sex stories in the grill. well, its more like they talk about the different 'toys' that they use.... oh sick.... (that grosses me out a lot...)
5) old men who work outside with fat bellies and no shirts. SICK


Five things you can't live without. (it makes me laugh a lot that lynne put mountain dew before friends on hers... haha)
1) God/my church/my sunday school class
2) camp luz/staff/campers
3) friends/boyfriend/family
4) milk
5) chex mix


Five things you'll do when you complete this.
1) click on the 'publish post' button
2) be mean t... i mean talk to janson some more
3) play hearts some more
4) maybe go on ebay
5) go to bed, at some point


Five things you feel right now.
1) my shoulder and arm hurt and i don't know what i did
2) anxious to be DONE at mcd's
3) ready to be back at malone, in some ways
4) not ready at all, in other ways (ali you feel me)
5) sadness, cuz i realized something while i was at work tonight. i don't feel like sharing it tho. it hurts too much.