i realized something just now.... travis is leaving in a day and a half.

Tmanlivin4God: hey tracey
Tmanlivin4God: 1 and a half
relientkbandgeek: wow....
Tmanlivin4God: i know
relientkbandgeek: so are you excited??
Tmanlivin4God: it's freaky
Tmanlivin4God: yes and nervous
Tmanlivin4God: kinda unsure about leaving everybody
relientkbandgeek: yeah that would be hard for me
Tmanlivin4God: yeah it is
relientkbandgeek: but a lot of people are going with you
relientkbandgeek: so thats cool
Tmanlivin4God: yeah
Tmanlivin4God: that is true !
Tmanlivin4God: and your not coming
relientkbandgeek: :-(
relientkbandgeek: no
relientkbandgeek: i'm the one being left behind
relientkbandgeek: you guys'll come back and be like "tracey who????"
Tmanlivin4God: tracey who yoder
Tmanlivin4God: thats your middle name

wednesday he gets on plane, flies to germany, and stays there for 7 months. travis...the person who's pretty much been my closest friend this past year. the person that i go to with pretty much every problem. yeah he's leaving... i'm so excited for him, its gonna be awesome. but he's leaving... i guess i'm just terrified of being left behind. he's going to germany with ben, paul, brian, and i don't even know who else. they're gonna have amazing experiences, and i'm just afraid that i'm going to be forgotten in the meantime.

i just have to hold on to thoughts such as this...
Tmanlivin4God: well then you should know, close friends don't forget each other

its just gonna be hard... i can't believe they're leaving on wednesday!!