i'm feeling "accomplished". i wrote an email to heidi, one to ali, and one to jeremiah. i've been meaning to email them, especially jeremiah, for awhile. i miss that kid. i miss heidi too. a lot a lot a lot. i even miss ali!! she's only been gone for like half a week. but it, as she said in her xanga, it made me realize how much time i've spent with her these last couple months. i don't want to take that for granted. God really knows what He's doing sometimes. when i was deciding on what college i wanted to go to, i never thought to myself "oh i'll go to malone so i can live closer to ali and kelli." but there's Someone who knows a heck of a lot more than me, and His plans were something like "lets send tracey to malone so she can have awesome friends to hold her accountable and help her along in her life." i take God for granted too often too. its too easy to say "hey i think that i want to do that. yup. thats my plan. well maybe. i don't know. my life is confusing" without even thinking about the fact that there's a God up there who knows whats best for my life, and He's more than willing to tell me, i just have to ask. sometimes i'm such a dummy... but isn't that how life goes?