CAR UPDATE!!!!
exciting news: derek said that after school tomorrow, he's gonna hand me the keys to his car, and its mine. :-D :-D ok i'm gonna go find something to do now.... :)

rarrr. i need more sleep. there are finally computers in the band room. maybe i'll keep up with this thing that i never write in.

i have the money for derek's car. its in a check made out to derek. i want it. but i work today, tomorrow, thursday, and friday. :( :( plus i have to tan on wednesday and friday before work. i really want this car but i don't have time to get it. thats sad.

my inbox has been full of email lately, after my email writing rampage. thats happy. christy is looking at the computer. hi christy. how are you? you whats always fun? to type everything that christy says. here we go....
you whats always fun? thats really bad grammar.
you might want to fix that.
*nods head and spits out apple chunks onto herself*
how about every lisbon game i make a total butt of myself. (note from tracey-christy is obsessed with butts)
and i just dropped apple on my crotch.
what was i gonna say?
oh.
i found someone that was more obsessed with butts than i am.
brittany schrode.
i have been mooned 3 times by her.
um.
she openly admitted that she likes butts. i tried to explain to her what a fetish was without being gross. it almost worked.
yes you are.
the better to eat you with my dear.
my hear nice.
you typed hear first then erased it.
i don't wanna talk to Inchak today.
cuz mallory is cheating on me with him.
no not really.
um.
i have to talk to him about the car wash.
i know i packed a lunch. amazing isn't it?
huh-uh.
thats not till next weekend.
period.
remove foot from mouth then speak.
um.
yeah.
that happens.
when i think about you... never mind i'm not gonna finish that line.
people would start to wonder
be like "tracey your friend is really gross and obscene i don't see why you like her. she should crawl in a hole and die."
kara you should crawl in a hole and die.
i'm tellin ya, i have a lot of butt pictures.
i'm sorry.
what?
hooblyhuttiwhattie?
not that i'm the greatest speller in the world, but i don't think thats right.
oh my.
um.
dee dum dee dum dee dum.
don't ask.
it still looks wrong tho.
yeah you're torched.
dude's cajun style.
so what would happen if i took that bottled water and squirted it into the computer? just be like "skruu" and it would be like i'm peeing.
i think we're gonna need to let someone in.
i tell you what.
feels nice tho.
susan es muy torched.
awww does rubber cement work really well?
is it acid free?
you're screwed.
she had a beard and it felt weird.
she had a beard.
if susan ever has kids, so help me...
no. who do...excuse me cuz i wasn't talking... yeah
um humminna
do you think i give a flying fickle?
just kidding.
um.
yeah allow me to pull it out of my sphincter.
what?
*weird noise with mouth, sorta like sucking in*
at least its not weird noise with butt.

and thats all cuz the scary little torched kids are coming into the bandroom now... LUNCH!!!!!!!!!

i feel like a butt. i was just looking at jordan's webpage. he mentioned me in his friend thing. and i feel like a butt. cuz i am a butt. i have a big butt. we were talking about that at school today. (how i have a big butt.) i think i need to go to sleep now... my bed is calling me "tracey...tracey..."

derek brought his car over to my house after school today. i'm so pumped. its gonna take a bit to pay off (prolly a year) cuz i only have about half of what i need, so i have to take out a loan on the rest. but still. i can't wait. my very first car. complete with a cd player. i can't wait. i think i said that already. oh well.

kurt blackburn is a very random person. in case you were wondering.

i got the new brave saint saturn album this weekend. it hurts me to say this, but i think that i possibly like them better than five iron frenzy. its nice to listen to reese roper's voice singing a different style than ska. don't get me wrong. i love my ska (lol sarah and katters). but i also love the sound of reese singing pretty songs. well they're not all pretty, but you know what i mean.

ok i'm gonna go continue discussing the necessity of gynocologists with kurt now. i'm out :)

THIS JOURNAL IS MAKING ME SO MAD AT THE MOMENT!!!!!! I WANT TO KICK IT!!! lol. i'm trying to change the template cuz this one is messed up, but it won't do it. GRRRRRRRRRRRR

oh never mind. it works now. ooops :)

la de da... its been forever since i posted. the concert was great, leah and i had an awesome time, of course!!

for my 18th b-day i checked movies out of the library... woo hoo.. lol
oh speaking of my b-day, farrah eichler posted an awesome 3-part b-day card for me and lynne online... here's the links
part 1
part 2
part 3

i got a kick outta those! thanks farrah! :-D

off to do some dishes... ick

UGH!!!!!!!!!!! i'm FRUSTRATED!!!!!!! i just had a very maddening conversation with andrew and sarah eades' younger brother. here it is, in full... lol

relientkbandgeek: hey quick question before i get off here... did your brother get the skillet tickets yet??
Johnnyrock311: no
Johnnyrock311: your icon changed
relientkbandgeek: !!! do you know when he's going to?
relientkbandgeek: yeah it did
Johnnyrock311: i have no clue
Johnnyrock311: i dont even know if were aloud to go
Johnnyrock311: but if we are
Johnnyrock311: he better do it soon
relientkbandgeek: well then he needs to send me my money back so i can have someone else get the tickets for me!!!!!!!!
Johnnyrock311: yeah
Johnnyrock311: thats what i told him
relientkbandgeek: is he home right now?
Johnnyrock311: yeah
relientkbandgeek: tell him to get on
Johnnyrock311: no
Johnnyrock311: i dont know were he is]
Johnnyrock311: where*
Johnnyrock311: or i would
Johnnyrock311: but
Johnnyrock311: he isnt here
Johnnyrock311: well
Johnnyrock311: hes here
relientkbandgeek: ok then just tell me to mail me my money. tell him to put it in the mail TOMORROW so i get it in time
Johnnyrock311: but hes not
Johnnyrock311: ok
Johnnyrock311: well
Johnnyrock311: we might be going
Johnnyrock311: but if not
Johnnyrock311: ill tell him\
relientkbandgeek: no just send it to me, that way i don't have to worry about it. tell him to send it back to me tomorrow, whether you're going or not.
Johnnyrock311: well ok
Johnnyrock311: well
relientkbandgeek: just send it!!
Johnnyrock311: my mom just asked andrew if he wants to go too a skillet concert!!!!!!!
Johnnyrock311: soo
Johnnyrock311: mabye were going after all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

relientkbandgeek: just send me my money so i don't have to worry about it. someone told me that getting tickets at the door isn't going to be a problem
Johnnyrock311: ok
Johnnyrock311: ill tell him
relientkbandgeek: thanks
Johnnyrock311: yuppers
relientkbandgeek: tell him as soon as you see him. the next time you're in a room with him. don't forget so that i'll be sure to get the money in time
relientkbandgeek: do you need my address?
Johnnyrock311: well
Johnnyrock311: ok
Johnnyrock311: i dont if he knows it or not'
relientkbandgeek: i'll give it to you just to be safe
relientkbandgeek:
Tracey Yoder
160 Chestnut St
Leetonia, OH 44431
Johnnyrock311: do you know how to save convos?
relientkbandgeek: yeah
relientkbandgeek: go to file
Johnnyrock311: so idont forget
relientkbandgeek: and click on save
Johnnyrock311: ok
relientkbandgeek: and then name it whatever you want
relientkbandgeek: and hit "save"
relientkbandgeek: or "ok:
relientkbandgeek: *"ok"
relientkbandgeek: i don't remember which :-)
Johnnyrock311: i think i saved it
relientkbandgeek: good job i'm proud :-)
Johnnyrock311: lol
Johnnyrock311: welll
Johnnyrock311: gotta go
Johnnyrock311: grrr
relientkbandgeek: ok ttyl don't forget!
Johnnyrock311: ok

i'm freaking MAD!! he shoulda mailed my money back to me the minute he found out that he might not be able to go!!

5 minutes later... actual convo with andrew

Drewbobfire: I'm going ;-)
relientkbandgeek: when will you be getting the tickets then? keep in mind that i'm at least 2 days away by mail
Drewbobfire: to the skillet thing
relientkbandgeek: i'm sorry if i sound mean to you or john, but i'm a little "riled" right now
Drewbobfire: yeah... I'm going to send the tickets on Saturday I hope
Drewbobfire: about what?
Drewbobfire: don't worry :-)
Drewbobfire: you'll get the tickets ;-)
relientkbandgeek: if you can, try to send them friday. they have to leave the post office by saturday or they won't get to me in time
Drewbobfire: okie... I'll see if I can get them tomorrow then
Drewbobfire: :-\I couldn't get a group
relientkbandgeek: that would be good... i just want to make sure that they get here in time
relientkbandgeek: its ok i'll bring $4 with me
Drewbobfire: ok... if I don't get them sent by saturday I'll fed-ex them on Monday from my dad's work
Drewbobfire: okie?
relientkbandgeek: that'll work as long as i have them by 4 or so on wednesday!! otherwise you'll be the one paying for two more tickets so i'm sure to get into the show!! ;-)
Drewbobfire: wait... so I should bring $30 to the concert in case you don't get your tickets?
relientkbandgeek: i'll call you guys as soon as i get them to let you know. or i'll call before i leave on wednesday if i don't have them. that way you'll know
Drewbobfire: ok :-)
relientkbandgeek: ok i feel better now :-)

i'm going into this with much reservation. and if for some reason the tickets don't get here, he IS going to be paying for me and leah's tickets. i'm not shelling out $20 bucks and don't expect leah to either. this whole thing is really ticking me off tonight.
ok i feel better now after that last bit.

on a better note... here's a fun story. while writing my research paper i came across the word "brouhaha". i found it highly amusing, so i made a fun, colorful away message out of it. i didn't give a definition of it or anything, i just typed the word. i get online tonight, and jordan posey's away message is:
brouhaha
n 1: loud confused noise from many sources [syn: hubbub, uproar] 2: a confused disturbance far greater than its cause merits
i just found that funny.

off for now... gotta go read for a bit, those brio girls books are pretty good :)

graduation is two months from today on june 8th. wow. kinda blows my mind!! MIKE T BROUGHT IN EVANESCENCE FOR ME TODAY!! i don't care that i have to pay for $10 of it, i'm so excited to have it!! ok i have to go get ready for work... ugh.. 4-9. five hours of smelling like grease. then when i get home i REALLY need to work on those scholarships that are due tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!

gotta scurry ;)

I'M DONE WITH MY ANASTASIA REPORT!!!! :-D it only took me like 15 hours out of 2 days.. lol

today's convo w/heidi wins most torched IM convo of the year award. lol. i was so tired of sitting in front of the computer... here's part of it.
relientkbandgeek: this is my online equivalent to hiding in a bathroom :-D
WICheri44: haha
WICheri44: so chatrooms are now the online bathrooms?
...
relientkbandgeek: grrr i lost the chatroom... it was running really slow on my computer anyway
relientkbandgeek: i guess i can't hide forever
relientkbandgeek: lol
WICheri44: oh... cna i get you back in the bathroom?
WICheri44: I don't know how if I can
relientkbandgeek: lol!!!!!! that sounds hilarious!!!!!
... (thats called an elipse. i learned that while doing my report. well i already knew it, but anyway. you use it when you take out info from a resource :) )
relientkbandgeek: lol its like a mini-soap opera
relientkbandgeek: a bathroom soap opera
WICheri44: and I'm intently watching my "soaps"
WICheri44: hehe how fun
relientkbandgeek: get it, bathroom soap?? haha! lol
WICheri44: haha
...
relientkbandgeek: sorry that was lame... i tried to joke and it didn't work
relientkbandgeek: lol
WICheri44: no no.... not lame!!!
WICheri44: I love my Tracey's jokes
relientkbandgeek: cheesy... but then that would have to be a kitchen soap opera and thats another story...
relientkbandgeek: wow i'm sleep deprived and you can tell..... lol
relientkbandgeek: she just said scurry
relientkbandgeek: who says scurry?
relientkbandgeek: i've never in my life heard someone use that word
relientkbandgeek: lol
relientkbandgeek: i'm going nuts over here
...
relientkbandgeek: LilMilhoan06: so when he walks down the hall as he says he can talk to you and you won't scurry away
relientkbandgeek: scurry... thats a funny word... lol
...
WICheri44: haha
relientkbandgeek: in like 7 minutes i'll have to scurry away and get back to my report
relientkbandgeek: or maybe scurry to the kitchen and get some dinner
relientkbandgeek: or scurry to the bathroom (the real one... lol)
relientkbandgeek: maybe i'll start calling chatrooms bathrooms and bathrooms chatrooms!!
relientkbandgeek: timmys mice scurry
WICheri44: haha... go to your teacher at school... "I need to use the chatroom please"
relientkbandgeek: i'm going insane... i'm sitting here laughing my head off at my retarded scurry jokes... wow
relientkbandgeek: lol
WICheri44: he has mice?
WICheri44: did you give him his picture?
WICheri44: did he like it?
relientkbandgeek: yes, yes, and yes :-D
WICheri44: haha... that's ok... b/c I"m laughing too
...
relientkbandgeek: because i'm in a weird mood
relientkbandgeek: lol
relientkbandgeek: full of sleep deprivation
relientkbandgeek: and scurrying
relientkbandgeek: and bathroom chatrooms
WICheri44: hhaha.... you make me smaugh so much
...
relientkbandgeek: is he going to scurry? ... lol i'm sorry... funny word and i'm sleep deprived, which makes it funnier

and there are the highlights of my conversation with heidi. minus the parts that got deleted from "the bathroom" where i was hiding (aka a chatroom so i could put up an away message and pretend i wasn't at the computer) when i got kicked off AIM.

i'm off for now... i can't stand sitting in front of this screen any more... lol

18th b-day: 9 days
skillet concert: 10 days

oh one more thing... notice how all of a sudden a bunch of people are using blogger? yup. when i started using it no one had heard of it. now people are using it. nice. i guess i'm a trend setter.

ok i'm really going now... my hands are dry and need lotion

awww i wish i was still at kelli's! that was an awesome weekend. it was great to just get away from crap for awhile and just have fun. and thats exactly what i did: have fun! i love those girls... seriously. i forgot how close the 3 of us used to be (well 4 if you count leah). i don't know what i'm going to do when heidi is in another country for a year. joe said i'll hang out with him. :) that would be good. he's great. it was awesome see him since i hadn't for a year. i was so surprised when he said he wanted to go to the coffee house with us. i hadn't been there in a year, and he said he hadn't been there in like 2. it was the first "church" type thing that he'd been in for that long. i wish we hadn't gotten there so late, but me and heidi got soo lost trying to pick joe up... lol.

i'd better get back to my anastasia report... but actually i'm talking to travis and thats much more fun, so i'm gonna continue doing that.... :)

things are getting better.


i'm at kelli's house w/my heidi!!! i somehow forgot how much i love those two. i can totally be myself with them, and they don't care!! they love me anyway. we went to starbucks earlier and it was great. we just sat there in comfy chairs and talked about stuff. i'm so excited about going to malone next year and being so close to kelli. i'm glad. i'm excited about being near brian too, but i like having a close gal friend so near.
the three of us decided that we need to start sending care packages again. we used to do it all the time awhile back, we'd just send random things to each other, and they're so much fun to get and to make for each other. i love this, i love being here. i don't want to go back home to all that crap. i'm just gonna stay here w/heidi and kelli forever. :)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY IS SHE DOING THIS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

i'm sitting here bawling. i hate this, and i hate myself. its hard to keep up a front and pretend that i don't care when inside i feel like crawling in a hole and never coming out. sometimes i think i would rather be screamed at than ignored. but oh well. i emailed her and basically said goodbye. i guess this is the end cuz she doesn't seem to want anything to do with me ever again. guess tracey'll be getting lots of exercise walking to school every day until i can afford esenwein's car... (shouldn't be too long, another month and a half at most!)

i have to work tonight... ugh... i don't want to. but the money will be nice.

i went to the new wal-mart for the first time last night. after play practice i needed to go to the salem library and dennis hollisky didn't have anything to do, so he took me. they wouldn't let me get a card cuz i wasn't 18 (grrrrrr i was pissed). so we decided to go to wal-mart cuz neither of us had before. it's freaking huge!!! it was fun. i got home in time to watch american idol. i, of course, voted for clay afterwards!! lol

off to band now... i hate band...

she's pretty much doing exactly what leah did to me. just thought i'd share that. i've asked everyone i can think to ask here at school, and no one knows what i did. as far as i can tell, she's mad at me because she heard me telling mike tkach that i wasn't sure that she liked me anymore. riight... this just really bothers me. at least we're all almost graduated. i don't have to worry about it ever again. kinda depressing, but hey. i'm used to it. she's just the next in a long line of friends who have screwed me over. i'll be just fine. i just won't let anyone get close to me and then i don't have to worry about it anymore.

thoughts to ponder: is this the end? if it is, do i care?

of course, now that i'm superhuman tracey w/no feelings so i can't get walked all over, IT DOESN'T MATTER CUZ PPL CAN'T SCREW ME OVER ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just came across a website with some cool pictures on it.

lynne... wow... i really want to know what i did. i think i would rather have her yelling at me than this silence. i don't like it at all.

english class... yup. we're watching FOX NEWS live... kinda freaks me out. i mean g's.. we're actually watching our troops drop bombs on bagdad....
we had to type up our poems for our poetry book. i only actually like one of the poems that i put in...

The Battle with Anorexia, Beowulf-Style

Out of the magazines, from the sunny lands
Of Hollywood to the upper-class areas of New York,
Bearing little clothing and small waists,
Anorexia came, trapping girls into thinking that’s how they were to look.
The magazines traveled quickly throughout the country,
Going from home to home and store to store.
They knew the way; they’d been there before.
They crept into bedrooms where girls looked and looked,
Dreaming about looking just like the models they saw.
Pretty soon the dream became an obsession, a battle of sorts,
A fight that once started is hard to overcome.
Anorexia won, time after time, girl after girl.
But one night, it was different.
A counselor, working late in her office,
Got a call from a frantic parent begging for help,
For her daughter was being beaten by this monster.
The counselor came at once to do battle with Anorexia,
Bringing with her no weapons.
The night was a long one,
The counselor and Anorexia battled for many hours,
And played tug-of-war for the girl.
Anorexia was not easily defeated, for it made the girl feel in control.
The girl thought herself unwanted without it,
And was not willing to give it up.
Yet still the counselor fought.
Anorexia started to grow weak as the girl realized
That what the counselor was telling her was true,
That she was beautiful the way she was,
And she could live without this horrible monster
Clinging to her everywhere she went.
Anorexia was outraged when it saw this,
But it was too tired to fight back.
The counselor forced it to run
And lick its wounds somewhere far away.
The girl went to the hospital,
Helped by the counselor’s braveness.
And when the girl returned home again,
The counselor hung on the wall two pictures,
One of the girl and Anorexia,
And a beautiful, victorious picture of the girl without Anorexia.

i wrote that for an english assignment. we had to rewrite a section of Beowulf and make it about something different. i rewrote the battle of Beowulf and Grendel as if it were anorexia and a counselor... blah blah blah.

i have to work 4-close tonight. yuck. i think i close with danny. that's usually alright. i don't know who else works. if jordan does he'll probly just yell at me for some crap that i said last night. (btw jordan if you read this: i'm ok. don't worry about me!!!)

7 days till i see my heidi.... that makes everything better.... :)

i'm off to shop on e-bay w/kara...

tickets to the skillet concert: $10
gas for the hour and a half drive: $20
shirt at the concert: $20
an evening spent with your old best friend: priceless

i told kyle to tell leah to call me when she got home from work today. i hadn't even thought about asking her till today, which is dumb cuz she loves skillet too. and since lynne doesn't like me anym... i mean since lynne decided not to go... kim forgot to bring her money, so i'm gonna tell her by tuesday cuz thats the latest i'll wait to mail it. all well. lee-uh is going for sure, so thats fun.
i'm glad that she and i are still friends. we were best friends from like 2nd grade until the summer after either our freshman or sophomore year (thats awful that i can't remember...), when we got into a HUGE fight when our youth group was on a missions trip in toronto. we didn't talk for almost a year. things will never be the same, we'll never be like we used to be. but we'll always be friends. thats what matters. she's still a really important person in my life, and always will be. i love my lee-uh :)

i'm gonna go find something fun to do now... maybe i'll play a fun popcap game since i can't go on homestarrunner anymore :(

no more band contests. ever. thats exciting. :) rodik was a jerk yesterday, as usual. i get motion sickness really easy, i always have. i ate lunch just a little bit before we left for contest, and its a 20-minute very twisty turny drive. needless to say that when we got to United HS all i wanted to do was sit still for a little bit. so i sat in a desk w/my head on my case. he yelled at me, told me to put my clarinet together. i freaking shoulda barfed all over him. it wouldn't have mattered if i had tried to tell him that i was still a little (a lot) queasy, he would have yelled at me more. he's such a jerk!!!!!!!!!!! but it doesn't matter. i graduate in two months, and then i never have to be polite to him again. i'm seriously considering telling him off after i graduate. i won't tho. cuz i'm better than that. i hope anyway, lol....
i work 4-close tonight. i don't know who i close with. i know jordan works 5-9 or 10, so thats cool. he's the only person there that i can get along with all of the time. i can get along with most people most of the time. and kory manly, not at all... but all well, its not my fault he's a dork.
i'm gonna go read FOTR some more.... (i really have no life.... lol)