i'm sitting here bawling. i hate this, and i hate myself. its hard to keep up a front and pretend that i don't care when inside i feel like crawling in a hole and never coming out. sometimes i think i would rather be screamed at than ignored. but oh well. i emailed her and basically said goodbye. i guess this is the end cuz she doesn't seem to want anything to do with me ever again. guess tracey'll be getting lots of exercise walking to school every day until i can afford esenwein's car... (shouldn't be too long, another month and a half at most!)