and the weekend is almost over... blech. i had a good weekend tho!! :) it was very much one of those spur-of-the-moment weekends. i decided at about 4 or 5 yesterday that i was gonna go to the soccer game at central. so i left here around 6:20, stopped at massillon wal-mart to buy a pair of jeans (for $13, woo hoo!!) and i got mystery men for $4 cuz i love that movie. :) so i go on to kidron. i'm considered an adult now cuz i'm in college. blah. so i had to pay $5 to get in instead of $3. that was sad. lol. i saw katie troyer (one of my awesome campers at jr hi camp), so i called her name, and the next thing i know she's running at me full speed and jumps on me. it was hilarious, that girl cracks me up!! so then we went to find alisa, cuz she cracks me up too. it was a fun game, although i didn't watch much of it. i had to do stuff like run away from katie and alisa cuz they were spitting soggy popcorn at me (ahh the memories... lol). central lost, which sucked. but it was still a fun game. arguing with travis is always fun. :) i followed ben back to his house cuz it was only like 8:45 and i didn't want to go back to malone yet. i ended up going to wooster with him, travis, matt something, and isaiah schloneger. it was fun. well mostly. there was some big thing going on between those guys and then a group of girls--the guys hid one of the girls wallets and didn't tell her, then gave it back to her at scoops and she was really pissed... it was really awkward for me, cuz i didn't really know anyone in the group except for ben and travis, and aimee landry. all the girls ended up leaving, and we went to this ice cream place called "scoops" and ordered the super scooper. its a hugeomongous bowl filled with 15 scoops (and not little scoops, big ones!!) of ice cream. and if you order it, you get your picture taken and hung on the wall in the "hall of fame." so the 5 of us ate that. and wow, let me tell you, that was a LOT of ice cream... lol. after that we went to wal-mart. i bought some fun tony the tiger pajama pants in the men's section. lol. i fell asleep on the way back to ben's-like i was out cold. so i decided to sleep at ben's and come back here in the morning, cuz i was way too tired to drive. i ended up staying up a little later than i thought to watch 2 weeks notice, but it was a fun movie. then i went to church at chestnut ridge. it was the first time in my life that i've ever worn jeans and a t-shirt to church... it was really weird. i'm glad that i stopped to buy jeans at wal-mart yesterday, cuz the ones that i was wearing had a hole in the knee... lol. so then i ended up staying for lunch cuz they had a carry-in meal cuz marvin was installed as pastor of their church (i thought that "installed" was a very odd way of phrasing that, but thats what the bulletin said...). so i was gonna go back after that, but they were like "come watch 2 towers!!" so i did. i went back to ben's with him, brad, travis, and tim miller. i only got to see about 45 minutes of it tho, cuz then i had to get back here for work. and thats where i am now, work... so boring.
now i'm gonna go, cuz i have to write a 2-3 page paper for psychology on whether or not i'd want to be kept on live support if i experienced a severe injury... yuck!! lol
SONFEST IS IN 6 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :)
but heidi leaves a week from today. thats so horribly sad its not even funny.... :(

me: (5:13:25 PM): its like travis with the spider all over again.....
me: (5:13:30 PM): except its sarah and the bathroom
sarah eades: (5:13:32 PM): LOL
sarah eades: (5:13:33 PM): yes
sarah eades: (5:13:35 PM): exactly
sarah eades: (5:13:40 PM): only ... i'm not as afraid of the bathrooms
sarah eades: (5:13:44 PM): *as he was of the spider
me: (5:13:52 PM): i think you are
me: (5:13:52 PM): lol
sarah eades: (5:14:19 PM): you saw his eyes...
sarah eades: (5:14:26 PM): i am not that scared!
sarah eades: (5:14:26 PM): lol
me: (5:14:39 PM): i can't see your eyes, so i dunno
me: (5:14:39 PM): lol
sarah eades: (5:14:45 PM): hehe

and thats all i need to say about that... lol

travis came!!!! he got here around 6:40 or so, and left around 10:30. it was awesome to hang out with him, i've really missed him this last month or so, however long its been since i'd seen him. :)

i talked to heidi for awhile tonight. i really don't know what i'm going to do. go crazy thats about it....

oh i forgot: i'm glad that i went to that bible study. i was actually kinda on the nervous side about it, cuz a lot of stuff has happened with joe and them, and i was kinda in the middle of it for awhile. not cool. but yeah, it was awesome, and i'm definitely going back. there is one problem: joe. is he gonna hate me if he finds out?? :-/ i hope not. that would be sad. really sad. anyway. babbling.... i'm gonna go. i have a boring job. a really boring job. blah.

TRAVIS AND BEN MIGHT COME TO VISIT TONIGHT!!!! that is seriously the highlight of my "life at college", lol. :-D only 2 more hours of work....

random conversation of the week, this is awesome...
(craig is craig strasbaugh, just fyi)

craig (11:11:36 PM): guess what, guess what
relientkbandgeek (11:11:40 PM): what what?
craig (11:11:47 PM): i lost another half of a toe nail
relientkbandgeek (11:12:26 PM): another half?? did you already lose a half? and how did you do it??
craig (11:13:06 PM): i lost two halfs of toe nails before the staff reunion, but this half I lost playing basketball
relientkbandgeek (11:13:52 PM): so how many toe nails do you have left now?? lol
craig (11:14:03 PM): 8.5
craig (11:14:06 PM): lol
craig (11:14:15 PM): does Tim have IM
craig (11:14:22 PM): ha that rhymes
relientkbandgeek (11:14:27 PM): that entire section is going in my quote book... lol
relientkbandgeek (11:14:39 PM): yeah, but he can't remember his password,
craig (11:14:39 PM): lol
relientkbandgeek (11:15:00 PM): so i'm gonna call him and make him a new one (cuz he doesn't know how)
craig (11:15:23 PM): all he has to do is hit the forgot password icon
craig (11:15:32 PM): they'll email the password to him
relientkbandgeek (11:16:00 PM): well that would work, except when he got his name he didn't have email yet, so i used my address to get it for him. and that address doesn't exist anymore
relientkbandgeek (11:16:00 PM): lol
craig (11:16:10 PM): lol
craig (11:16:17 PM): you crack me up
relientkbandgeek (11:16:36 PM): i'm not a very smart person, ok?? lol
craig (11:16:48 PM): thats not what cracks me up
craig (11:16:58 PM): you just humor me
relientkbandgeek (11:17:03 PM): i'm glad :-)
relientkbandgeek (11:18:04 PM): this might sound kinda odd, but do you happen to know tim's email address?? lol
craig (11:19:00 PM): (insert little brothers email here... you don't need to know it, lol...)
craig (11:19:02 PM): lol
relientkbandgeek (11:19:06 PM): thanks :-)
craig (11:19:17 PM): c what i mean
relientkbandgeek (11:19:35 PM): yeah after i asked that, i was like "hmmm.. this is gonna prove his point..."
relientkbandgeek (11:19:41 PM): i'm just rather scatter brained.... lol
craig (11:20:59 PM): but you're allowed
relientkbandgeek (11:21:28 PM): thats good :-)
craig (11:21:45 PM): guess what i'm listening to
relientkbandgeek (11:21:50 PM): what?
craig (11:21:56 PM): Moulan Rouge
relientkbandgeek (11:22:10 PM): i've never seen that
relientkbandgeek (11:22:15 PM): or heard much from it
craig (11:22:26 PM): the soundtrack is awesome, but the movie is wierd
craig (11:22:37 PM): you should watch it though, you'll like
relientkbandgeek (11:23:36 PM): yeah i know a lot of people who like it, i just never rented it
craig (11:24:03 PM): i'm sure its around your dorm somewhere
relientkbandgeek (11:25:13 PM): good point!! i can be cheap!! lol
craig (11:25:18 PM): anyway, my first day of class is tomorrow, so i should head for bed
craig (11:25:21 PM): me too
relientkbandgeek (11:25:35 PM): ugh class... i have some of those... lol
relientkbandgeek (11:25:37 PM): have fun :-)
craig (11:25:42 PM): u 2
craig (11:25:47 PM): ttyl
relientkbandgeek (11:25:49 PM): ttyl!
craig signed off at 11:25:56 PM.

travis is probly gonna come visit tomorrow!!! whoopee!!!! i think he said that ben's coming too. i said that was ok, as long as ben was nice to me. :) its good tho, cuz it was incentive for me to finish decorating. now my little tiny computer area is all filled with fun pictures and stuff :)

one more random quote, then i'm off to bed...
tracey (to joe finch, who pretty much only wears black: "if i bought you a pink t-shirt, would you wear it??"
joe: "I HATE EMO KIDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
i found that really amusing, lol

ok g'night.... :)

i was cleaning out my email inbox and i found this very random survey

SNACKS

1. White, dark, or milk chocolate? milk
2. Favorite form of a gummy (i.e., worm, bear, coke)? coke?? gummy coke?? anyway. i love sour patch kids :)
3. Favorite candy bar? the cookies 'n cream ones
4. Favorite fruit? peaches
5. Favorite veggie? brocolli
6. Favorite kind of candy to receive on Valentine's Day? sour patch kids
7. Potato chips or pretzels? chips

APPETIZERS AND SIDES

8. Nachos or quesedillas? nachos
9. Do you prefer a light appetizer, such as chips and salsa, or a full on meal before your actual meal? appetizer
10. Onion rings or French fries? french fries
11. Curly fries or traditional straight? either one
12. If you were a salsa, would you be mild, medium, or hot? mild
13. What dressing do you prefer on salads- Italian, French, ranch, thousand island, or bleu cheese? italian
14. Baked potato or mashed potatoes? i love potatoes. in any shape or form. :)
15. Baked beans or coleslaw? coleslaw
16. Do you always have ketchup with your fries, or do you use anything else? ketchup and mustard mixed, or mayo is good

MAIN DISHES

17. What is your favorite homemade food? grandma's cheese potatoes
18. Fried rice or steamed rice? ???
19. What do you usually order when you go to your favorite fast-food restaurant? chicken sandwich of some form
20. What do you put on your hamburger? i'm not picky, i don't care
21. How do you like your steak cooked? well done
22. Turkey or ham? ham
23. What do you usually order when you're at your favorite Chinese restaurant? my family does the whole buffet thing, so i don't order
24. Do you like casseroles? What's your favorite? not really, but i'll eat them
25. Are you a meatloaf person? my momma makes good meatloaf :)
26. What do you like on your pizza? mmmmm ham and pineapple
27. Favorite seafood dish? shrimp or salmon
28. Ribs or steak? steak
29. Chicken or beef? chicken
30. What's your favorite restaurant? max and erma's
31. What do you put on your chili? crackers
32. Favorite soup? brocolli cheese
33. Garlic bread or dinner rolls? rolls

BEVERAGES

34. What drink do you almost always order when you go to a 'sit-down' restaurant? water or pepsi
35. Favorite sport drink? gatorade
36. Favorite flavor of milkshake? EGG NOG AT MCDs AT CHRISTMAS TIME!!! :-D
37. If you could have a smoothie right now, what would you put in it? fruit... lol
38. Favorite carbonated drink? pepsi
39. Rootbeer or cream-soda? cream soda
40. Sprite or 7-up? 7 up
41. Pepsi or coke? pepsi
42. Do you like sno-cones? If so, what flavor? yup, just not grape
43. Fruit punch or lemonade? fruit punch
44. Do you add sugar to your iced tea? i don't like tea

DESSERTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

45. Favorite kind of cookie? the ones that my mom makes when she just throws random things in the bowl :)
46. Favorite kind of Mcflurry/blizzard? rice krispies... lol jk i haven't actually tried it, it sounds gross
47. What do you like on your ice cream sundae? whatever
48. Favorite kind of ice-cream? superman
49. Favorite kind of cake? whatever
50. Favorite kind of pie? peach
51. Chocolate or vanilla pudding? either one. but if i'm with my little brother, definitely chocolate :)

well that was fun.... now i'm hungry and am going to go eat dinner. lol

brb... yeah and then 2 hours later.... BOYS ARE BAD!!! i need to remember that, cuz every once in awhile i start to think differently...
i was up way too late last night. actually this morning. 5:30. wow. besides for prom and 30 hour famine lockins, thats the earliest i've ever stayed up. lol.
everyone's moving back into the dorms. it was nice to have hardly anyone around this weekend. nice and quiet.
10 things i hate about you is a fun movie. i'm watching it on usa. i think i'm gonna get addicted to having cable, and then miss it when i'm at home. i've never had cable before.....

ok this was a pointless post... lol

oh i'm going to bible study at the moore's tonight. hrmm.. should be interesting. i'm still a little scared of their family.... lol

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

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you ROCK! you know alot about RK. and hey i don't
blame you so do i! ya gotta love 'em! they're
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Brian Pittman


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ok i'm done now, i promise.... haha

haha i couldn't resist ;)


The places that youve come to fear the most
this is a song to someone but its gonna be to you..
if youd only understand youre beautiful.. ahh..
its such a shame.


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call me.~ For You To Notice


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this is my "rant" for the evening. don't get on IM if you're not gonna talk. don't be rude to someone, how are they supposed to know you're doing stuff? put up a freaking away message. there's a novel idea... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

i saw tory tucker this morning, lol. i went to church with jessica at canton first friends. on my way out, i heard someone say my name. i turned around, saw tory, busted up laughing, and said "i'm not stalking you!!!" this is getting ridiculous, lol. i feel like i see him everywhere i go!! but its fun, cuz i've known him since back in the day, like jr high. (ha we're not going there..... lol) we're gonna hang out sometime, which is cool. he's fun.
work is boring. i'm going to go read some more.

hehe

i now have every dashboard confessional song on my computer. thanks travis. :)

"When Doves Cry" (by Prince)
How could you just leave me standing,
Alone in a world so cold?
Maybe you're just too demanding.
Maybe I'm just like my father--too bold.
Maybe you're just like my mother.
She's never satisfied.
Why do we scream at each other?
This is what it sounds like,
When doves cry.


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Seer


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Made by
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You are a Clarinet!

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enough. And even if you do not play the
clarinet at all and got this as your result, be
happy because being a wannabe clarinet player
is better than being a trumpet player. And if
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haha i just can't get away from it....

by the way, only 17 days till heidi leaves. i'm going down to mvnu that weekend, i'm gonna be bawling the whole time.... ok now i'm going to go read.

i have the most boring job in the world. thats right. i sit in a computer lab for hours on end, doing nothing basically. straightening a chair here and there, putting some more paper in the printer, yeah thats about it. i'm hungry and i have to pee, but am i allowed to leave? no. i'm stuck here until 6:30. rarrr... but its really good for doing homework, i will say that much. :) there aren't too many distractions in a completely empty room (well besides the 20 computers, lol). i'm going to go now. i already did all my homework, but i started reading a painted house over again. i can't remember if i liked it the first time or not.
oh wait. i went to berean today. i got a cd (polarboy-4008) for $4, and i looked for any books by george macdonald, but they only had one. i want to see if i can find the one that jacob told me about, the princess and the goblin. i wonder if they would have it over in the library... i'll have to check that out sometime soon.
well, only another hour and 20 minutes. then i get to eat dinner!! and church rush is tonight, thats always good :) i hear there's lots of food given out.....

brittany merriman just called me. thats cool. now i'm gonna email jacob cuz he's cool, and then go to bed. i'm tired. bed is exciting. :)


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haha power rangers :)

g'night

ok enough of that. now i have psych class.... yippee.........

-- Name: tracey deanna yoder
-- Birthdate: 4.15.85
-- Birthplace: columbus, oh
-- Current Location: canton, oh
-- Eye Color: turd brown :)
-- Hair Color: brown
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: aries
-- Innie or Outtie: innie

// series two - describe
-- Your heritage: i don't even know... lol
-- The shoes you wore today: dark green flip flops with yellowish/brownish flowers
-- Your hair: brown and up in a messy bun cuz i hate it
-- Your weakness: gullible and naive
-- Your fears: the dark sometimes, lol
-- Your perfect pizza: ham and pineapple, mmmm
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: graduating and paying off all my loans and such

// series three - what is
-- Your most overused phrase on aim: lol and definitely
-- Your thoughts first waking up: what time is it?
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: hair
-- Your best physical feature: none
-- Your bedtime: around 12 or 1
-- Your greatest fear: ......
-- Your greatest accomplishment: i was pretty proud of graduating 13th in my class :)
-- Your most missed memory: pretty much anything to do with lisa, i still miss her like crazy

// series four - you prefer
-- Pepsi or coke: pepsi
-- McDonald's or Burger King: BK is better, but i work at mcd's
-- Single or group dates: never been on either... lol
-- Adidas or nike: adidas
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: i don't like tea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino
-- Boxers or briefs: don't care

// series five - do you
-- Smoke: no
-- Cuss: i won't say that i haven't, but i try not to
-- Sing well: sorta
-- Take a shower everyday: every other usually
-- Have a crush(es): yeah
-- who are they: oh yeah like i'm gonna type them in here... lol
-- Do you think you've been in love: no
-- Want to go to college: i'm in college
-- Like high school: it was alright, i have good and bad memories
-- Want to get married: someday, but no one will ever like me, lol
-- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: mostly
-- Believe in yourself: not at all
-- Get motion sickness: yes
-- Think you're attractive: no
-- Think you're a health freak: no
-- Get along with your parents: my mom most of the time, i don't talk to my dad
-- Like thunderstorms: not when i'm trying to sleep or when i'm babysitting
-- Play an instrument: clarinet, lol

// series six - in the past month, did/have you
-- Drank alcohol: never
-- Smoke(d): never
-- Done a drug: never
-- Have Sex: never
-- Made Out: never
-- Go on a date: never
-- Go to the mall?: nope
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: nope
-- Been on stage: nope
-- Been dumped: nope
-- Gone skating: nope. i had the option, but i chose to sleep instead
-- Made homemade cookies: nope
-- Gone skinny dipping: nope
-- Dyed your hair: nope
-- Stolen anything: nope

// series seven - have you ever
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: never
-- If so, was it mixed company: see above
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: never
-- Been caught "doing something": never
-- Been called a tease: nope
-- Gotten beaten: nope
-- If so, did you get caught: nope
-- Changed who you were to fit in: probly

// series eight - the future
-- Age you hope to be married: whenever
-- Numbers and Names of Children: don't know
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding: haven't really thought about it
-- How do you want to die: in my sleep
-- Where you want to go to college: i'm at malone, but i've been thinking about mvnu. i don't want people to get the wrong idea tho, so i dunno
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: i don't know yet, lol
-- What country would you most like to visit: UK

// series nine - opposite sex
-- Best eye color? doesn't really matter
-- Best hair color? doesn't really matter
-- Short or long hair?: curly is good (jared witmer has the best hair ever, i always played with it this summer, lol), i don't really care about the length
-- Best height: taller than me
-- Best weight: don't care
-- Best articles of clothing: shoes. i always look at a guys shoes. i'm weird, i know. lol
-- Best first date location: dunno, never been on one
-- Best first kiss location: dunno, never been kissed

// series ten - number of
-- Number of girls I have kissed in my life: 0
-- Number of girls you have made out with: 0
-- Number of girlfriends you've had: 0
-- Number of boys I have kissed: 0
-- Number of boys you have made out with: 0
-- Number of boyfriends you've had: all together: like 5, but they were all jr high except for 1 serious: 0
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 0
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: jesus
-- Number of CDs that I own: too many
-- Number of piercings: 1
-- Number of tattoos: 0
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: only a few
-- Number of scars on my body: a lot
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: can't count that high....

Name: tracey deanna yoder
Do you like it?: sure
Nicknames: pete, tracky, and i've acquired a few more random ones the last few days, like trixie (from reno) and crazy tracey (kasey)
Screen names: relientkbandgeek is the only one i really use
Age: 18
Birthday: 4.15.85
Sign: aries
Location: canton, oh
Status: SINGLE
School: malone college
Crush: oh c'mon y'all know this one. him and a few others.
Natural hair color: brown
Current hair color: brown
Eye color: the color of turds.... haha
Height: 5'7 or something like that
Birthplace: columbus, oh
Shoe size: 9

[ family ]
Parents: bob and lynn
Siblings: rusty and tim
Live with: my roommate
Favorite relative: my cousin anya i guess. i never see her, but its fun when i do

[ favourites ]
Number: don't have one
Color: orange
Day: saturday
Month: may
Song: i like a lot of songs, but at the moment i really like jeremiah's "pretty girl"
Movie: princess bride :) and a beautiful mind
Food: chex mix
Band: relient k
Season: spring or summer
Sport: 5 puck :)
Class: don't have one yet
Teacher: teddy carchedi, my american history/government teacher my jr and sr years of HS
Drink: milk
Veggie: brocolli
TV Show: gilmore girls
Radio Station: radio u
Store: thrift, wal-mart, and old navy
Word: definitely... i need to stop using it
Animal: pig
Flower: don't have one. i've never gotten flowers. lol
State: of confusion

[ this or that ]
Me/You: you cuz i hate me
Coke/pepsi: PEPSI!
Day/night: night
Aol/aim: AIM
Cd/cassette: CD
Dvd/vhs: DVD
Jeans/khakis: jeans
Car/truck: car
Tall/short: either
Lunch/dinner: dinner
NSYNC/BSB: well i do have that justin timberlake cd... :) but give me plus one any day :-D
Britney/Christina: ugh
Gap/Old Navy: old navy
Lipstick/Lipgloss: chapstick
Silver/Gold: silver
Alcohol/Weed: neither

[ love and relationships ]
Do you have a bf/gf?: no
Do you have a crush?: yeah
How long have you liked him/her?: since prom
Why do you like this person?: he's cool
If you're single... why are you single?: cuz boys are bad and i'm scared of dating, thats why. lol
How long was your longest relationship?: never really had one
How long was your shortest relationship? see above
Who was your first love?: never had one-well i'll say nathan capps tho, cuz that whole episode went on for like 3 or 4 years
What do you miss about them?: awww i never see him! he called me here at school the other day tho, i was so excited!! :)

[ the past ]
What is the one thing you would change about your past?: lets see.. just about EVERYTHING! lol
What is the biggest mistake you've made in your life?: not going there
Last thing you heard: the tv
Last thing you saw: the computer screen
Last thing you said: thats twice as much as mine!! (talking to chrissy about book purchases)
Who is the last person you saw?: chrissy when she stuck her head in my door to tell me about her deaf professor
Who is the last person you kissed?: ummm NEVER lol
Who is the last person you hugged?: my momma before i left yesterday
Who is the last person you fought with?: travis, if that counts. i got a little mad when i was talking to him the other night, but i don't think he even knew
Who is the last person you were on the phone with?: my heidi last night
What is the last TV show you saw?: i'm watching "a dating story" on TLC
What is the last song you heard?: ummmm i don't remember. something on radio u when i was listening to it earlier

[ the present ]
What are you wearing?: jeans, flip flops, and my bleach t-shirt
What are you doing?: sitting at my computer and watching tv
Who are you talking to?: no one cuz i have no friends... lol. i take that back, justin steiner just IMed me :)
What song are you listening to? some song on a commercial
Where are you?: in my dorm room
Who are you with?: no one
Are you online?: yes
How are you feeling?: bored and i have a headache
Are you in a chatroom?: no

[ future ]
What day is it tomorrow?: tuesday
What are you going to do after this?: go to my psych class
Who are you going to talk to?: probly no one cuz i won't know anyone in the class
Where are you going to go?: mitchell hall 109, lol
How old will you be when you graduate?: i dunno, 22 or 23 probly
What do you wanna be?: i dunno yet
What is one of your dreams?: ......
Where will you be in 25 years? i have no idea

[ have you ever ]
Drank?: nope
Smoked?: nope
Had sex?: nope
Stolen?: nope
Done anything illegal?: driving-wise, yes
Wanted to die?: yes
Hit someone?: yes

[ other ]
Do you write in cursive or print?: print
Are you a lefty or a righty?: righty
What is your sexual preference?: after marriage :)
What piercings do you have?: eyebrow
Do you drive?: yes
Do you have glasses or braces?: glasses
Did you like this survey?: sure

[ physical appearance ]
What do you most like about your body?: nothing
And least?: poop brown eyes and boring hair lol
How many fillings do you have?: one or two i think
Do you think you're good looking?:no
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: only kurt, so that doesn't count. lol
Do you look like any celebrities?: no

[ fashion ]
Do you wear a watch?: yeah
How many coats and jackets do you own?: i dunno, i usually wear hoodies
Favorite pants/skirt color?: jean
Most expensive item of clothing?: prom dresses
Most treasured?: hoodies
What kind of shoes do you wear?: chucks or flip flops
Describe your style in one word: comfortable

10 bands you've seen live
- relient k
- five iron frenzy
- pax217
- supertones
- carman
- world wide message tribe
- delirious
- the sam :)
- the elms
- benjamin gate

9 things you're looking forward to
- lunch
- going to one of the many FIF concerts in the next few weeks
- sonfest!!!
- seeing craig and elizabeth at sonfest
- malone CC invitational (i know it sounds dumb, lol. but my little brother will be here to run and craig's probly gonna come up too!!)
- getting FIF-the end is near
- getting a job soon, lol
- my college experience class on friday, cuz i haven't seen anyone from my group since saturday night!!
- sleeping

8 things that you wear daily
- underwear
- my promise ring
- a shirt
- flip flops
- hair ties (i never wear my hair down, lol)
- jeans, and shorts on a very rare basis
- deoderant
- a smile or frown

7 things that annoy you
- people
- swearing
- shoes
- djibouti
- ignorant people
- when the toilet paper isn't on with the paper coming from the top, lol
- people who say they're going to do something, like COME VISIT, for instance, but they don't do it

6 things you touch every day
- food
- milk
- pillow
- eyebrow ring
- my hair
- my glasses

5 things you do every morning
- wake up
- go to the bathroom
- put my hair up
- brush my teeth
- check my email

4 people you'd like to spend more time with
- joe smith
- jacob. i wish that i could have spent some more time with him before i left for college, he seemed awesome (check out his band!)
- nathan capps
- cassie. i just met her the other day, and she seems awesome

3 movies you could watch over and over
- princess bride
- extreme days
- monty python holy grail

2 of your favourite songs at the moment
- falling out-relient k
- anything on bs2's second album

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with
- my heidi (and you know what i mean, don't be gross)

ok now i'm really going to bed, lol. but craig IMed me so i had to talk to him for a bit... but i really need some sleep :)

classes start tomorrow. i only have 2, so thats not bad. i have communication skills at 9 and foundations of psych at 2. whoopee. i went home today. i went to church (mom got mad when she found that out, but all well. i don't really want to go back to LMC anymore!!), went home for a bit, then went down to LMC to hear jenny talk about her trip. that was cool. that girl cracks me up, i love her! then we all went home (yes the yoder family had 4 cars at church.... rusty had his car cuz he went to his church then came down, i had my car cuz i went to mine, dad drove cuz he had to be there at like 8:30, and mom drove her van cuz she didn't want to go that early). that was amusing to me. i printed out a card on the computer and mom stamped a card for jeremiah, then me and her went to his graduation party. that was cool. we were there for longer than i thought we would be. mom said she only wanted to stay for like 20 minutes. we were there for probly an hour. we looked at pictures, ate, then jordan gave me her personal picture tour, complete with a narration of "that was when jeremiah looked weird, that was on my birthday when he played a song at his concert cuz he asked mom and dad if i could go and he played me a song cuz it was my birthday.... that was when jeremiah looked weird, thats jeremiah's weird friend" and so forth. it was hilarious. then i gave her a piggy back ride all over the church [i know people were looking at me like some kinda weirdo, but hey, i had fun, i love kids, especially my buddy jordan!!]. then everyone watched a video that had pictures and video clips of jeremiah. there was a torched one of me and him at prom. i hate pictures of myself (i say this as i look up at the pictures around my computer-one of me and jeremiah, one of me, leah, and jenny, one of me, kim, leah f, and sara r, one of me and heidi, our mcdonalds prom picture, our senior prom picture.... i'm in all of these, lol). anyway. during the video i smashed my toe with the chair leg. jordan was in my lap and i was trying to move the chair so we could see the screen better. it freaking hurt!!!! it was hard not to cry!! it still hurts, too. mom didn't know that jeremiah sang. after the video she asked him to sing, so we all went out to the sanctuary and he sang a few songs. i love his voice!!! i'm a sucker for guys who can sing, i always have been. not necessarily saying that-oh well i don't feel like lying anymore, i like jeremiah. but thats old news anyway. its just the first time i've "publicly displayed" it. it doesn't matter, i'm sure he has no interest in me anyway. he's an awesome friend tho so its all great. anyway. after he sang some songs, mom and i headed out. i got a hug, went home, went to wal-mart to buy a dry erase board, then came back here. other than talking to craig on IM, going to mcd's with cassie, and talking to heidi on the phone, my night has been uneventful. oh and i got the cable all hooked up. lol. go me.
i'm getting excited for sonfest. i think i'm gonna go down the night before and stay with someone craig knows. i dunno who yet tho.... lol. ELIZABETH IS FOR SURE GOING TO SONFEST!!!!!!!!! i'm so excited, i can't wait for that!! the malone CC invitational is sept 20. craig's gonna try to come. thats cool, i'm excited for that too. two weekends in a row with craig will be fun stuff. :)
ok i should head to bed soon. i'm sure that neither of those classes tomorrow are going to be anything special, but i'm tired so i'm gonna sleep anyway. i don't have to get up till 8:30!! :)

someday i'll sit down and update this. but for now, i'm going to bed. g'night.

tonights my last night of mcd's. for a while anyway. i'm excited about that. i've actually had a relatively fun time this past week or 2. lol. the people that i've worked with have been cool [mostly]. i wish i coulda worked a little more often with jacob. he's fun. and he did the chicken dance. thats good stuff right there. doug was fun yesterday too. i know a lot of people named doug. anyway. he was really quiet for the first like 2 hours that i worked with him. jacob and i were trying to think of "topics" to bring him into the conversation. after awhile, he wasn't quiet anymore. no, he was just like all those other guys back there in the grill, making fun of me. lol. it was still fun tho.
all my junk is packed up in mom's van. my clothes, stuff, computer, tv, dvd, all that good stuff. thats cuz i won't have time to do anything in the morning. working till close and then getting up early and driving an hour to canton isn't gonna be fun. but all well.
i close with derek tonight. that should be fun. hopefully. maybe i'll get to work on counter like last night-oh wait no. no one ever puts me up there. ashley didn't even know that i knew how to work counter until i said something about it. then she put me up there. it was fun. well, as fun as working at mcd's can be.
our mail lady was just talking to my moms bird cuz its out on the front porch (in it's cage). i don't really know why its out there. cuz mom put it there i guess. anyway...
i should go get ready for work. and find a band-aid to put on my eyebrow. i hate wearing a band-aid over it. it smashes it down to my forehead. blah.
ok i'm going now...
i wrote a really long email to heidi today, but i don't think it sent right cuz i sent it in a hurry. that makes me not happy. and taylor still has my RK hoodie. that makes me REALLY not happy. ok now i'm gonna go pee, change my clothes, and go to work... COME SEE ME!! I WORK 4-CLOSE!!! :)

i just spent the last 45 minutes or so reading lynne’s deadjournal. i miss her. i don’t think we hung out at all this summer. i mean i know i wasn’t home much, but i dunno… things with her are just weird. in my view, anyway. maybe she doesn’t notice or care. i just hate it when people tell me that they want to hang out, or that i’m a great friend or something, and then have them go away without even saying bye. once. she mentioned me in her journal once in the entries that i read. and it was just about a time that she went to mcd’s to see if i was working, and i wasn’t. i guess she’s not in mine either tho. i dunno. This is a screwy post. i just wish we coulda hung out before she left.
i’m glad that i hung out with the people i did this last week or 2. jenny, taylor, derek, jeremiah, mike, ashley, kory, abbie, kurt, and there’s probly more. its weird that i’m leaving in 2 days. wow. i think i’m ready. mom and i really get at each other sometimes, dad and i never even talk anymore, i’m just ready to get away from all that for awhile. i’m coming home next weekend, lol. jeremiah’s “celebration of achievement” (lol) party is on sunday, so i wanna come home and go to that. plus i guess jenny’s talking at LMC about her trip, so i’ll probly go to that too. so i’ll be home sunday.
mom said that leah was at church yesterday. she keeps making these little comments about LMC, hinting to me that i should go back. every sunday she tells me who’s asked about me. but i’m not going to go there. i really like Columbiana Nazarene, and am gonna continue going there whenever i’m home. i hated LMC. i do miss the church family a bit tho. i mean that was my church from second grade until just a few months ago. i dunno.
well its 1:30 and i’m still sitting around doing nothing. i think i’m gonna go get the boxes and put my computer in it. and make a last “sweep” of my room to make sure i have what i want out of it. But i’m not too worried about forgetting anything, especially since i’ll be home most of the day on sunday. i need to wash my car too…
oh oh exciting stuff before i go. elizabeth called me on saturday and i told her about sonfest. she’s probly gonna go now. :) that’s really exciting to me. i miss her big time.
ok i’m off to get some stuff done before mom gets home and chews me out [again].

sitting around doing nothing... i should be packing, but i think i'm almost done. i just need to pack up my computer, finish washing my sheets, and go buy shampoo and crap like that. all well.
had lunch in smithville (i am SO tired of eating at the barn!!!) with my grandparents yesterday. i don't feel like writing right now, so i'm just gonna stop... maybe more after work tonight. i close with kurt. yippee...

today was a good day. i hung out with jenny all day. i went over there around 2 or so, and left around 11. we went garage sale-ing, lol. and we went to dollar general-where i saw my girls!! jordan and taylor. the 2 cutest girls in the world! they weren't at church on sunday so i didn't get to see them then. anyway. then we went to pick up boston from day care. doggy day care. lol. we rented a movie (what a girl wants). we watched like an hour of it, then went to mcdonalds to meet taylor there at 6:30. i managed to fall down in the grass and get a nice grass stain on my knee while jenny was changing. i was playing with boston and i didn't know the grass was that wet.... lol. so we met taylor, and i ended up clocking in and working for 5 or 10 minutes cuz they were freaking swamped with like 3 new people on counter who didn't know what they were doing. so i grabbed a shirt out of the office, clocked in, and helped get them caught back up. we got to lazy bean around 6:55. its a really fun little cafe. i wish i had known it was there before now. but i don't think its been there long. maybe just this summer? i dunno. but its cool. the concert was fun. i've never really seen jeremiah drum before, except like 2 or 3 years ago when i didn't really know who he was, i just saw his band at punk rock prom. he's really good. they played some fun songs that i actually knew. jenny, taylor, and i sat at a table and colored. not the whole time, but for part of it. it was fun. i randomly found some twist-up crayons in my book bag. i crocheted thru most of the concert. taylor kept looking at me and cracking up. but hey, it gives me something to do. i hate just sitting still doing nothing. thats why i crochet. lol.
after the concert a guy came up to me, tapped my arm, and said "i'll see you next week?" he looked a little familiar, but i really had no idea who he was or where i was gonna see him. i tried not to seem rude, but i really didn't know. he told me he'd dropped jeremiah off at my graduation party, and then i remembered. i felt bad that i didn't. he remembered my name and everything, and i didn't know his... but there was a lot of stuff happening when i met him. (it was at my graduation party, i met a lot of people that day). i still felt bad tho. its cool to know that i know someone else on campus. i know like 5 people now... lol
i talked to kurt for a sec when we were at mcdonalds. we're meeting at 8:30 for breakfast on sunday morning before we go to church. that means i have to get up even earlier than planned... i might actually have to go to bed tomorrow night... lol.
i got an email from travis tonight!!!! i was so excited when i opened my email and saw it!! there's an internet cafe where he is in africa, so he emailed me! that made my night. it made up for stupid people, not mentioning any names. sometimes i just wish i knew what was going on....
well i'm done for now. oh wait one more thing. this is my current favorite song, i love it. its awesome. its exactly how i feel right now.

For You To Notice by Dashboard Confessional

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
Where I would impress you
With every single word I said
Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming
And you'd want to call me
And I would be there every time
You'd need me
I'd be there every time...
But for now I'll look so longingly
Waiting...
For you to want me,
For you need me,
For you to notice me

ok now i'm getting off, since no one's online to talk to anyway...

by the way, 31 days till heidi leaves...

i'm closing tonight. blah. i was supposed to work 5-10. then last night julie asked if i could come in at 4. so then i was gonna work 4-10. charity called 15 minutes ago and asked if i'd close tonight. so now its 4-almost midnight. whoopee. i don't know who i close with. hopefully NOT kurt. but anyway...
i actually haven't minded working as much as i have this week. i'm gonna be really happy when i get my paycheck. and its been fun to see people. of course, a lot of the old crew is gone, but some of the new people are fun too. i had a hilarious time working with taylor and jacob last night. jacob really cracks me up. he's really quiet, most of the time. when he talks or does something, it cracks me up. like last night. i mentioned heidi being in mexico (probably) for a year and how i was sad. he asked me if she spoke mexican. i was like "no she took french in high school." then he informed me that i was dumb and that mexican isn't a language. (i knew that, i really did!! i'm not that stupid!! lol) then he told someone else that there was no doubt about how dumb i am, or something corny like that. then later on to "apologize", he did the chicken dance. let me tell you, you have seen nothing until you've seen jacob do the chicken dance. lol.
taylor's going to the glen concert w/me tomorrow (she'd better bring my relient k hoodie that she borrowed to wear to 7&14 last night, or i might cry!!! lol). i didn't wanna go by myself. i might call nathan and see if he wants to go. i talked to him online earlier and i wanna hang out with him before i leave next week.
speaking of nathan. i was randomly reading old journals last night cuz i couldn't sleep. a lot of stuff has happened between me and him. we had a real "love/hate" relationship there for awhile. i liked him, he didn't like me. then he liked me, but i didn't like him, and so on and so forth for many years (like all thru junior high and most of high school!), thats just crazy! so now i look back at it, and i miss him. we haven't been talking much in the last year or so, and that makes me sad. he was one of my closest friends for awhile, i could tell him anything. i probly still can, he's cool like that.
but anyway. that was an interesting tangent.
i could go off on another tangent, but i won't. i'll save that for the journal that no one else will read but me. stuff is just weird right now, we'll leave it at that.
so i went to kory manley's house the other night. i know, i know, thats weird. but it was cool. he was recording some music for jeremiah, derek and keef. i hung out with ashley (workman) and abbie (i dunno her last name... keef's fun girlfriend) while they recorded. it was fun. except for getting lost on the way... but hey, it was like 11 at night and it was dark!! i ended up giving jeremiah a ride home cuz we both had to be home by 1. i got home a little late, but mom was asleep and didn't know. i was only like 10 minutes late, not that bad.
so anyway. this entire blog was pretty much pointless, so i'm gonna end it now... lol
i need to go get dressed for work one of these days... BLAH!! if you're reading this, come see me at columbiana mcdonalds anytime after 4!! :)

i hate mcdonalds. i should quit, but i can't. i was so close to walking out last night. nome wanted to, but i need the money too bad. i couldn't listen to him cuz it wouldn't have been that hard to talk me into walking out. i really wanted to. it woulda been kinda fun to leave ashley screwed, cuz she did it to us! she freaking played with her cell phone all night!! i don't know what she was doing, but every time i looked up she was messing with it! she told nome to close the lobby-thats most definitely a manager's job! and then it left me and him screwed cuz by the time he got back, we were really far behind. i had the deck mop almost done, but we got really busy so i had to watch the screen (by myself) instead of deck mopping. we closed at 11 last night, but didn't get outta there till like 11:50. it sucked. i have to go back tonight. and tomorrow. and wednesday and thursday. and maybe saturday. and probly monday and tuesday. then wednesday i leave. blah. lynne came thru the drive thru last night. i didn't get to hang out with her at all this summer, and she's leaving in 2 days for kent.
oh and apparently i've been a hot topic of discussion there while i was gone. grrrrr. i really need a new job. but who's gonna hire me when i say "hi i can only work for a week now, and then i'm gonna be gone until fall break, then gone until christmas break, etc. etc." no-freaking-body. so i'm stuck there until God knows when. with people who are stupid.
but sometimes its ok. it was ok saturday night. maybe it will be tonight. but probly not, cuz i close with kurt. he likes to make statements, and then not explain them. it drives me insane. he did it the other day. first of all, i think he was just making up everything he was telling me. grrrr. ok i'm done now. i'm gonna go find something more productive to do, like get dressed and clean my eyebrow ring...
grrrrrrrr (that reminds me of donna, lol. gri gralmost grorgot grabout grat.)

yesterday was good. it was awesome to see everyone one last time. but at the same time, it was sad. i spent my entire summer with these people. they were there for the highs and the lows, the laughs and the cries. and now we're all back in our various homes in various parts of the state (or other states!!), apart until december, and it seemed like a lot of the people i asked aren't coming to the december reunion. no job on earth will ever compare to being a camp counselor, as stupid as that may sound. i know at times i want to quit (like at jr hi camp, when i was ready to just walk away and never come back! but i stayed, thanks to craig and others who calmed me down), but its awesome. the friendships that you make doing it will last for a lifetime, cuz they're friendships made in the Lord. i dunno. it just makes me sad. i really miss everyone, they're like family to me.
but yesterday was fun. i got to camp around 11. i was a little not sure about the whole piercing thing, not sure how people would react, but everyone was cool. the best reaction had to be joe. i'd been there for about an hour and a half. we're sitting there eating lunch, joe is across from me. he looks at me, jumps, and goes "aahhh!!" i was like "just now noticing it?" it was funny. i have some good craig quotes from yesterday, but i think i get good craig quotes every time i see him, lol. ooo ooo ooo! i'm gonna get into sonfest for free!! woohoo! i haven't decided yet, but i can go down the night before and craig will hook me up with someone to stay with. my other option is leaving my car at ben's or travis's and riding down with them. so i dunno what i want to do yet.
i wish i'd spent more time with sarah yesterday. i talked to her at camp, but she'd left by the time i got to clay's park. but i was glad that i could see justin one last time before he leaves for hesston. and i got my central shirt, after like 2 years of asking. :)
heidi. a year. in another country. AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! i don't want to think about it right now. yesterday was it. i'm not gonna see her for a year now. that sucks.
think happy thoughts: i got a letter from my sis elizabeth yesterday. i'm definitely gonna go down for a FB game and watch her direct. i can't wait. i guess i got to camp half an hour after she left yesterday. thats sad.
i had fun at kelli's last night. i'm glad that i invited myself to her house, lol.
ok i'm gonna get off here now. i wanna play roller coaster tycoon on my computer.
i have to go back to work tonight. 4-close. with some kid i don't know named nome. its gonna suck. lol
i'm out...

today was a very random day. i decided i to get my eyebrow pierced, so i called up kimmy cuz i didn't want to go by myself. she not only went with me, she got her nose and belly button pierced. girls gone wild today at the tattoo parlor... lol naw just kidding. :) i think it looks fun, but who knows whats gonna happen when i go to kidron on friday... lol

i was really bored afterwards, so i walked down to the library (my gas gauge is on E... i have no gas. i'm not sure if i can even make it to a gas station!! lol) and got some movies: angela's ashes, america's sweethearts, and k-pax. i watched angela's ashes. they did a good job with it, if you compare it to the book. i'm not crazy about either one, but it was alright. i still don't understand why its called angela's ashes, cuz she doesn't die!! if anyone knows, explain it to me!
then i did a fun logic puzzle-i love those. it made me think of the beginning of the school year when lynne and i did those like crazy. we musta analyzed the ones that we had for hours and hours... but it was a lot of fun. :)
i'm going to lunch at band camp tomorrow. blah. i don't really want to. i want to see some people, but i really don't wanna see rodik. i'm NOT one of the graduates that's gonna start calling him randy and act like he's my best friend even tho i hated him when he was my teacher, like other people have done. all well. that doesn't matter. i'm leaving in 14 days, and then i won't have to see people from leetonia ever again if i don't want to, and i'm not sure if i do! i wanna see friends, but thats about it. there are definitely some people in this town that i could live without ever seeing again. but all well. thats that. i have a headache. so i'm going to go take some drugs. lol.
heidi leaves in a little over a month. 39 days, to be exact. i am seriously gonna go insane. i need her. and she's gonna be reeeeeeeeeeally far away. but i guess thats what paper, pen, and stamps were invented for....
ok i'm really leaving this time, i just had to be "depressed" for a bit.

i had a good weekend. i didn't want to go home, but do i ever? i've spent the past two days in my room, cleaning it. not my idea of fun. i went thru everything, threw away like 3 garbage bags full of stuff... i'm glad its done. i think i'm gonna go to the mall tomorrow, if i can find someone to go with me. i'm too scared to go by myself. i know i know, it's just a little eyebrow piercing, but still. i don't want to go by myself. :)

i'm excited for the staff reunion on friday. i hope elizabeth is there. she thought she would be the last time i talked to her. so hopefully she will be. :) i've really missed her this last month, or however long its been since i saw her. she really is like a sister to me. i can't wait to go down to west liberty and see her direct the band. :) i hope ben remembers to burn me a copy of the sims for my computer. :)

i have a new favorite song. when in doubt by thousand foot krutch.

We sat upon your bed,
You said the things you said
And I could not believe that you seem so naive
We exchanged our poetry,
You seem to think a lot like me
I'll guess I'll just assume that we could talk about most anything
Then I asked have you ever felt abandoned? F
elt so lost that you were stranded,
Just like all the walls are closing in
And you were left inside
Have you ever felt like your days were numbered?
Stuck under a tree in thunder
Seems to be no way out!
But there is One when in doubt

Ready for another day
Slowly watch ya waste away,
Havin' fun, bein' cool
Like we did in high school,
Elementary romance feelin' nervous at the dance,
Crack a smile hold it down,
Whatever the circumstance,
Sex, Drugs, Hadda be cool,
All the things we learned in school,
Typical teenage machines,
Anyone tell me what this means?
I could learn, I could try,
Never really had an alibi
Wish I did, that’s no lie
Everybody's asking

(chorus)
Why
When you feel like you cant fly
You gotta know I got the answer for ya baby,
Drives ya crazy, it's not over
Theres so much more to life then this
Why?When you feel like you cant cry
You gotta know I got the answer for ya baby,
Drives ya crazy it's not over
Theres so much more to life then this

Things seem so hallucinary,
In the corners of my mind they scare me,
I know ya never meant to desert me,
Just like ya never really meant to hurt me
Then I ask have you ever felt abandoned?
Felt so lost that you were stranded,
Just like all the walls are closing in
And you were left inside
Have you ever felt like your days were numbered?
Stuck under a tree in thunder
Seems to be no way out
But there is One when in doubt
And you ask

(chorus)

So much more to life than this

i really like that song. :) ok i think thats all for now... i have some stuff i want to do before i get off here and head to bed.

wow its been awhile. lol. like 2 months. all well. i'm back. i'll try to keep up with this again. i forgot about it. the summer's almost over. i start college august 20. eek. lol.

so i'm sitting in the basement at ben's house in kidron, OH. its almost 2 in the morning. i'm surrounded by guys (brad, dustin, and braden) playing counterstrike or something like that, and ben is asleep on an air mattress behind me. tim is upstairs and jenny is asleep in the other room. i'm glad she's staying here tonight, i'm not the only girl now. lol. but she went to bed at like 11:30 or something. lol. i should go to bed. but i had too much caffiene today. i can sleep in tomorrow. jenny's getting up at 8, but i'm just gonna sleep in till like 10. i love the relief sale. lol. it was also a good excuse to come out here and hang out with everyone. :) i think mom didn't want me to stay here, but i don't really care. its always interesting, thats for sure. :)

so tomorrow will pretty much be spent at the relief sale all day long. watching the quilt auction. :) and eating egg rolls and homemade ice cream. and looking thru all the weirdo books at the book sale. and looking at the fun stuff in the ten thousand villages room. lol. i'm such a dork. :)

i have to go back to mcdonalds soon. i told them i could come back august 9 and then found out that i actually coulda started on monday, but all well. another week off will be nice, even tho i can't really afford it. i hear a bunch of people quit, are quitting, or got fired. and practically everyone got a raise. i want one!! i'll flip if they don't give me one.

ok i really do need to go to bed. lol. its getting late. i just need to convince my body that its tired. i'm off...

so i wish i had gone to columbiana church of the nazarene a lot sooner. i went this morning with kimmy and leah falzetta. i wasn't sure if i was going to like it, but it was awesome!! mom wants me at our church for the next 2 weeks tho :(, but i think i have a compromise. they have church before sunday school there, so next sunday i'm going to church there and leaving at like 10:20 and going to our church for the service. the sunday after that i probly have to go to our church cuz its "graduation sunday", but i think that every sunday that i'm home this summer i'll most likely go to Columbiana. its a lot different than LMC, but i think thats a good thing. its a lot more emotional, if thats the right way to say it. but i never got bored during the sermon. at LMC my mind kinda wanders, but that didn't happen at all. i dunno. the sunday school was a lot louder than i'm used to, but maybe thats because there's usually only 4 people in my class at LMC and there were like 15 there. i definitely am gonna go back, hopefully next sunday.

i worked 4-10 last night, and it wasn't too bad. we got into a really deep discussion, which isn't something that happens often at work. it was danny, mike, taylor, steve, and me. we started out with talking about heaven (i don't know how that started, i just came back from doing something and they were talking about it). from there we talked about the age of accountability, when satan was cast out of heaven, what it means to be a christian, it was just really interesting. danny knows a lot more than i thought he did. i figured he was one of those people that just thought that good deeds could get you to heaven, but he was saying how his dad thinks that and it bothers him and he doesn't know how to tell his dad that just being a good person isn't going to get you into heaven. so mike asked what was, and between steve and i we explained how you have to accept Jesus and stuff. it escalated from there. someone asked me what mennonites believe and that lead to a discussion on the necessity of so many different branches of christianity, etc. it was just really interesting!! i'm glad stevo was there tho, cuz i'm terrible at trying to "argue my point" or whatever when it comes the bible. i haven't read all of it, although i should, and i'm just not a strong debater.
then after work i'm almost in my car and i hear someone yell "tracey!!" i looked up and someone is hanging halfway out of their car in the drive thru calling me. i couldn't tell who it was so i walked over and it was josh kelm! i talked to him for a bit cuz i haven't really done that in a long time! his graduation party is june 21 so i can't go :(, but i need a senior picture of him still. it was cool.
pastor eric just got online, which is good, cuz taylor has some stuff that she's looking up and bringing to work tonight and i needed some help finding verses to back up my view. i think i'm gonna go grab my bible now... and leave a message for lynne to call me when she gets back from boardman cuz we were supposed to work on our physics today!! its due this friday!

today was a good day. i got to sleep in, then leah came over. we went to lynne's church to hear her play handbells. it was awesome!! i didn't really know what handbells were before this. i mean i knew, but i'd never actually seen anyone play them. it was great. :) then michelle mcvay called me and i met her at the food court in the mall. it was kinda weird to be walking around the southern park mall with michelle, considering the fact that she lives in st. clairsville... lol. we went to famous footwear so i could buy my graduation shoes, but they didn't have any in white. i wasn't a happy camper. we went to jc penney to find a suit for her, went to the hallmark store and bought car air fresheners (macintosh apple :-D delight inspired me, and she got that one that smells like guy's cologne that jenny used to have), then walked around till it was time to meet her parents back in the food court. then i took those shoes that my mom bought back to burlington, stopped at home for a sec, then headed to alliance to the mall to go to the famous footwear there. they had them. so now i have my cute white graduation shoes. if only i could find a dress... lol.

i'm going to michelle's graduation party next sunday. i'm excited. she named the people that are going, and it sounds like fun. :) i hear weird noises coming from the tv in the other room. i'm going to go investigate...

The Best Deceptions by Dashboard Confessional
I heard about your trip. I heard about your souveneirs. I heard about the cool breeze, in the cool nights, and the cool guys that you spent them with. Well I guess I should have heard of them from you. I guess I should have heard of them from you. Don't you see, don't you see that the charade is over? And all the "Best Deceptions" and "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you. So kiss me hard, cause this might be the last time that I let you. You will be back some day and this awkward kiss that tells of other people's lips will be of service to keeping you away. I heard about your regrets. I heard that you were feeling sorry. I heard from someone that you wish you could set things right between us. Well I guess I should have heard of them from you. I guess I should have heard of them from you. Don't you see, don't you see that the charade is over? And all the "Best Deceptions" and "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you. So kiss me hard, cause this will be the last time that I let you. You will be back someday and this awkward kiss that screams of other people's lips will be of service to keeping you away. I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers, I'll be alright when my hands get warm. Ignoring the phone, I'd rather say nothing. I'd rather you'd never heard my voice. You're calling too late, too late to be gracious and you do not warrant long good-byes. You're calling too late. You're calling too late.

i like that song.

so i just decided that i'm gonna go to purple door this summer. i can't wait!!!!! its about 5 hours away, but if people go with me i'll be fine!! i'm sure i can find someone to go with me. there are so many good bands there!! like five iron, relient k, benjamin gate, brave saint saturn, bleach, the list goes on... i'm so pumped!! that gives me plenty of time to talk mom into letting me go. its august 15-16. :) ok i need to go finish getting ready for my physics test next period, i just wanted to share my excited-ness with anyone who actually reads these posts. :)

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!

i think i'm gonna go see two towers on wednesday. its at the cheap seats. leah said she wants to come. but just in case she doesn't, i'm still going. i want to see it again. plus its a good excuse to get outta the house for over 3 hours. :) thats always a good thing. i should get off the internet and work on my government. but all well. i'll do it before i go to bed. as long as i have a short presentation for tomorrow i'm good. i think i have enough info.

leah falzetta cracks me up. she's like my "coach" or something. not gonna get into details cuz too many people already know and it scares me... lol

erin milhoan you're awesome, i just read your post for the 11th (the first one). we're a lot alike. :)

i'm done now. bye.

yawn. i need more sleep. all well. leah was at church today. we're gonna spend the next couple weeks "church hopping". next sunday we're going to st. paul's to see lynne play handbells, the sunday after that we're gonna go to columbiana nazarene church, just cuz we always said we were going to and never did. the sunday after that i might go to greenford, but she doesn't want to go with me. all well. i think i know enough people there by now. i need to talk to jeremiah or steve and see what time their church starts, and corey jones to see which service he goes to at gcc. wow this is a boring post... lol. but i'm off to find something more interesting to do, like find brian hershberger a fun b-day card. :)

prom was great. i had a lot of fun. definitely better than last year. :) jeremiah was a blast. definitely better than last year's date. i love keefry, but last year just doesn't compare to this year. i won bullcrap yesterday. i've never won that game in my life. but i did yesterday. :) i played with leah, leanne, and christy. kim and i started a club. we call it the suspenders club. i think we have (hang on lemme think.... me, kim, kory manly, corey cantaloupe, alicia kyser, kara kundravi) 6 members. we all have one thing in common: we like people who we can't have.

yes, i like someone. big shocker, i know. its been awhile since i've said that. but don't get too excited about it. boys don't like me. i don't have a chance. so i'm not gonna do anything about it. there's no point in setting myself up to get hurt. i just need a good dose of "christy-ism" to talk me out of it. :)

afterprom was so much better than last year. there was more to do. allthough i mostly just sat around and talked or listened to jeremiah singing and playing guitar. there's nothing better, right kelli? :) i was near kelli's house last night. or rather, this morning. it was probly around 1 or so. on our way to the grand slam. anyway, afterprom. i didn't sleep at all, on the way there or back. kim and jeremiah were both sleeping, so i turned backwards in my seat and spent the ride talking to lolly and cheese. it was great. we sang along with the radio, talked about lighting farts on fire, made fun of the sleeping people, fun stuff like that. lol. i didn't see shannon a lot. that made me sad. she was the only reason i didn't die of boredom at last year's afterprom. i went miniature golfing!! lol. me and lolly both suck at it, so we shared a golf club and took turns hitting our golf ball. we were terrible. we would hit the ball 7 or 8 times and say that we only had 3 hits for that hole. it was great.

mom, tim and i went to see x-men 2 today. it was awesome, well worth the $6 i spent buying all 3 of our tickets (gotta love the carnation mall.. its so cheap!! lol)

i'm off now. i'm running on 5 hours of sleep, and my mom wants the computer. there's so much more i could say about last night, but i can't. thats what old-fashioned journals that no one ever sees are for...

so prom is in 2 days. i finally have all the stuff that i need. i just need to wash my car. i told tim that i'd take him to see x-men 2 if he helped me, so on saturday me and him are gonna go see it. i'm excited! :) i have to pee. but i'm in school and i hate school bathrooms. rrrraaaarrrrrrr.

so 2nd period i'm sitting in the elementary office, like i do every day. and i look out the window to the hallway and i see jordan posey and laurie hoover walk past.... i'm confused. they go to columbiana. why are they here? hmmm...

speaking of jordan... i haven't talked to him yet. i'm still a little weirded out by saturday night. i guess i just don't understand why it's his problem. i'm the one who is me... that doesn't make any sense.

kim just told me that zachy's coming back for graduation. that makes me happy. i haven't seen him since he moved. woo hoo!! i'm excited! that kid cracks me up.

i'm gonna go find something fun to do now... blah blah....

i need more sleep.

farrah was very insistant on me taking these quizzes, so here they are...





Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You? quiz, by Angel.






Take the What Type of Friend are
You? quiz, and visit mutedfaith.com.
[Me.]


these take too much time... lol sorry farrah but i'm done taking them.... lol

got my car. i love it.

so work last night... wow. not really sure what happened. but i ended up flipping out on jordan, which i don't think i've ever done before. but he said some stuff that really bugged me. i dunno... i didn't know how to react. i think that i'm ok. yeah, so i don't trust people easily. so? is that really a bad thing? it saves me a lot of pain! i dunno.. i need to get off here. i don't want to. i'm talking to joe and lacey and it makes me happy. i miss those two. but i just saw joe today. i need to get to bed cuz i'm tired... i still need to think too..

CAR UPDATE!!!!
exciting news: derek said that after school tomorrow, he's gonna hand me the keys to his car, and its mine. :-D :-D ok i'm gonna go find something to do now.... :)

rarrr. i need more sleep. there are finally computers in the band room. maybe i'll keep up with this thing that i never write in.

i have the money for derek's car. its in a check made out to derek. i want it. but i work today, tomorrow, thursday, and friday. :( :( plus i have to tan on wednesday and friday before work. i really want this car but i don't have time to get it. thats sad.

my inbox has been full of email lately, after my email writing rampage. thats happy. christy is looking at the computer. hi christy. how are you? you whats always fun? to type everything that christy says. here we go....
you whats always fun? thats really bad grammar.
you might want to fix that.
*nods head and spits out apple chunks onto herself*
how about every lisbon game i make a total butt of myself. (note from tracey-christy is obsessed with butts)
and i just dropped apple on my crotch.
what was i gonna say?
oh.
i found someone that was more obsessed with butts than i am.
brittany schrode.
i have been mooned 3 times by her.
um.
she openly admitted that she likes butts. i tried to explain to her what a fetish was without being gross. it almost worked.
yes you are.
the better to eat you with my dear.
my hear nice.
you typed hear first then erased it.
i don't wanna talk to Inchak today.
cuz mallory is cheating on me with him.
no not really.
um.
i have to talk to him about the car wash.
i know i packed a lunch. amazing isn't it?
huh-uh.
thats not till next weekend.
period.
remove foot from mouth then speak.
um.
yeah.
that happens.
when i think about you... never mind i'm not gonna finish that line.
people would start to wonder
be like "tracey your friend is really gross and obscene i don't see why you like her. she should crawl in a hole and die."
kara you should crawl in a hole and die.
i'm tellin ya, i have a lot of butt pictures.
i'm sorry.
what?
hooblyhuttiwhattie?
not that i'm the greatest speller in the world, but i don't think thats right.
oh my.
um.
dee dum dee dum dee dum.
don't ask.
it still looks wrong tho.
yeah you're torched.
dude's cajun style.
so what would happen if i took that bottled water and squirted it into the computer? just be like "skruu" and it would be like i'm peeing.
i think we're gonna need to let someone in.
i tell you what.
feels nice tho.
susan es muy torched.
awww does rubber cement work really well?
is it acid free?
you're screwed.
she had a beard and it felt weird.
she had a beard.
if susan ever has kids, so help me...
no. who do...excuse me cuz i wasn't talking... yeah
um humminna
do you think i give a flying fickle?
just kidding.
um.
yeah allow me to pull it out of my sphincter.
what?
*weird noise with mouth, sorta like sucking in*
at least its not weird noise with butt.

and thats all cuz the scary little torched kids are coming into the bandroom now... LUNCH!!!!!!!!!

i feel like a butt. i was just looking at jordan's webpage. he mentioned me in his friend thing. and i feel like a butt. cuz i am a butt. i have a big butt. we were talking about that at school today. (how i have a big butt.) i think i need to go to sleep now... my bed is calling me "tracey...tracey..."

derek brought his car over to my house after school today. i'm so pumped. its gonna take a bit to pay off (prolly a year) cuz i only have about half of what i need, so i have to take out a loan on the rest. but still. i can't wait. my very first car. complete with a cd player. i can't wait. i think i said that already. oh well.

kurt blackburn is a very random person. in case you were wondering.

i got the new brave saint saturn album this weekend. it hurts me to say this, but i think that i possibly like them better than five iron frenzy. its nice to listen to reese roper's voice singing a different style than ska. don't get me wrong. i love my ska (lol sarah and katters). but i also love the sound of reese singing pretty songs. well they're not all pretty, but you know what i mean.

ok i'm gonna go continue discussing the necessity of gynocologists with kurt now. i'm out :)

THIS JOURNAL IS MAKING ME SO MAD AT THE MOMENT!!!!!! I WANT TO KICK IT!!! lol. i'm trying to change the template cuz this one is messed up, but it won't do it. GRRRRRRRRRRRR

oh never mind. it works now. ooops :)

la de da... its been forever since i posted. the concert was great, leah and i had an awesome time, of course!!

for my 18th b-day i checked movies out of the library... woo hoo.. lol
oh speaking of my b-day, farrah eichler posted an awesome 3-part b-day card for me and lynne online... here's the links
part 1
part 2
part 3

i got a kick outta those! thanks farrah! :-D

off to do some dishes... ick

UGH!!!!!!!!!!! i'm FRUSTRATED!!!!!!! i just had a very maddening conversation with andrew and sarah eades' younger brother. here it is, in full... lol

relientkbandgeek: hey quick question before i get off here... did your brother get the skillet tickets yet??
Johnnyrock311: no
Johnnyrock311: your icon changed
relientkbandgeek: !!! do you know when he's going to?
relientkbandgeek: yeah it did
Johnnyrock311: i have no clue
Johnnyrock311: i dont even know if were aloud to go
Johnnyrock311: but if we are
Johnnyrock311: he better do it soon
relientkbandgeek: well then he needs to send me my money back so i can have someone else get the tickets for me!!!!!!!!
Johnnyrock311: yeah
Johnnyrock311: thats what i told him
relientkbandgeek: is he home right now?
Johnnyrock311: yeah
relientkbandgeek: tell him to get on
Johnnyrock311: no
Johnnyrock311: i dont know were he is]
Johnnyrock311: where*
Johnnyrock311: or i would
Johnnyrock311: but
Johnnyrock311: he isnt here
Johnnyrock311: well
Johnnyrock311: hes here
relientkbandgeek: ok then just tell me to mail me my money. tell him to put it in the mail TOMORROW so i get it in time
Johnnyrock311: but hes not
Johnnyrock311: ok
Johnnyrock311: well
Johnnyrock311: we might be going
Johnnyrock311: but if not
Johnnyrock311: ill tell him\
relientkbandgeek: no just send it to me, that way i don't have to worry about it. tell him to send it back to me tomorrow, whether you're going or not.
Johnnyrock311: well ok
Johnnyrock311: well
relientkbandgeek: just send it!!
Johnnyrock311: my mom just asked andrew if he wants to go too a skillet concert!!!!!!!
Johnnyrock311: soo
Johnnyrock311: mabye were going after all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

relientkbandgeek: just send me my money so i don't have to worry about it. someone told me that getting tickets at the door isn't going to be a problem
Johnnyrock311: ok
Johnnyrock311: ill tell him
relientkbandgeek: thanks
Johnnyrock311: yuppers
relientkbandgeek: tell him as soon as you see him. the next time you're in a room with him. don't forget so that i'll be sure to get the money in time
relientkbandgeek: do you need my address?
Johnnyrock311: well
Johnnyrock311: ok
Johnnyrock311: i dont if he knows it or not'
relientkbandgeek: i'll give it to you just to be safe
relientkbandgeek:
Tracey Yoder
160 Chestnut St
Leetonia, OH 44431
Johnnyrock311: do you know how to save convos?
relientkbandgeek: yeah
relientkbandgeek: go to file
Johnnyrock311: so idont forget
relientkbandgeek: and click on save
Johnnyrock311: ok
relientkbandgeek: and then name it whatever you want
relientkbandgeek: and hit "save"
relientkbandgeek: or "ok:
relientkbandgeek: *"ok"
relientkbandgeek: i don't remember which :-)
Johnnyrock311: i think i saved it
relientkbandgeek: good job i'm proud :-)
Johnnyrock311: lol
Johnnyrock311: welll
Johnnyrock311: gotta go
Johnnyrock311: grrr
relientkbandgeek: ok ttyl don't forget!
Johnnyrock311: ok

i'm freaking MAD!! he shoulda mailed my money back to me the minute he found out that he might not be able to go!!

5 minutes later... actual convo with andrew

Drewbobfire: I'm going ;-)
relientkbandgeek: when will you be getting the tickets then? keep in mind that i'm at least 2 days away by mail
Drewbobfire: to the skillet thing
relientkbandgeek: i'm sorry if i sound mean to you or john, but i'm a little "riled" right now
Drewbobfire: yeah... I'm going to send the tickets on Saturday I hope
Drewbobfire: about what?
Drewbobfire: don't worry :-)
Drewbobfire: you'll get the tickets ;-)
relientkbandgeek: if you can, try to send them friday. they have to leave the post office by saturday or they won't get to me in time
Drewbobfire: okie... I'll see if I can get them tomorrow then
Drewbobfire: :-\I couldn't get a group
relientkbandgeek: that would be good... i just want to make sure that they get here in time
relientkbandgeek: its ok i'll bring $4 with me
Drewbobfire: ok... if I don't get them sent by saturday I'll fed-ex them on Monday from my dad's work
Drewbobfire: okie?
relientkbandgeek: that'll work as long as i have them by 4 or so on wednesday!! otherwise you'll be the one paying for two more tickets so i'm sure to get into the show!! ;-)
Drewbobfire: wait... so I should bring $30 to the concert in case you don't get your tickets?
relientkbandgeek: i'll call you guys as soon as i get them to let you know. or i'll call before i leave on wednesday if i don't have them. that way you'll know
Drewbobfire: ok :-)
relientkbandgeek: ok i feel better now :-)

i'm going into this with much reservation. and if for some reason the tickets don't get here, he IS going to be paying for me and leah's tickets. i'm not shelling out $20 bucks and don't expect leah to either. this whole thing is really ticking me off tonight.
ok i feel better now after that last bit.

on a better note... here's a fun story. while writing my research paper i came across the word "brouhaha". i found it highly amusing, so i made a fun, colorful away message out of it. i didn't give a definition of it or anything, i just typed the word. i get online tonight, and jordan posey's away message is:
brouhaha
n 1: loud confused noise from many sources [syn: hubbub, uproar] 2: a confused disturbance far greater than its cause merits
i just found that funny.

off for now... gotta go read for a bit, those brio girls books are pretty good :)

graduation is two months from today on june 8th. wow. kinda blows my mind!! MIKE T BROUGHT IN EVANESCENCE FOR ME TODAY!! i don't care that i have to pay for $10 of it, i'm so excited to have it!! ok i have to go get ready for work... ugh.. 4-9. five hours of smelling like grease. then when i get home i REALLY need to work on those scholarships that are due tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!

gotta scurry ;)

I'M DONE WITH MY ANASTASIA REPORT!!!! :-D it only took me like 15 hours out of 2 days.. lol

today's convo w/heidi wins most torched IM convo of the year award. lol. i was so tired of sitting in front of the computer... here's part of it.
relientkbandgeek: this is my online equivalent to hiding in a bathroom :-D
WICheri44: haha
WICheri44: so chatrooms are now the online bathrooms?
...
relientkbandgeek: grrr i lost the chatroom... it was running really slow on my computer anyway
relientkbandgeek: i guess i can't hide forever
relientkbandgeek: lol
WICheri44: oh... cna i get you back in the bathroom?
WICheri44: I don't know how if I can
relientkbandgeek: lol!!!!!! that sounds hilarious!!!!!
... (thats called an elipse. i learned that while doing my report. well i already knew it, but anyway. you use it when you take out info from a resource :) )
relientkbandgeek: lol its like a mini-soap opera
relientkbandgeek: a bathroom soap opera
WICheri44: and I'm intently watching my "soaps"
WICheri44: hehe how fun
relientkbandgeek: get it, bathroom soap?? haha! lol
WICheri44: haha
...
relientkbandgeek: sorry that was lame... i tried to joke and it didn't work
relientkbandgeek: lol
WICheri44: no no.... not lame!!!
WICheri44: I love my Tracey's jokes
relientkbandgeek: cheesy... but then that would have to be a kitchen soap opera and thats another story...
relientkbandgeek: wow i'm sleep deprived and you can tell..... lol
relientkbandgeek: she just said scurry
relientkbandgeek: who says scurry?
relientkbandgeek: i've never in my life heard someone use that word
relientkbandgeek: lol
relientkbandgeek: i'm going nuts over here
...
relientkbandgeek: LilMilhoan06: so when he walks down the hall as he says he can talk to you and you won't scurry away
relientkbandgeek: scurry... thats a funny word... lol
...
WICheri44: haha
relientkbandgeek: in like 7 minutes i'll have to scurry away and get back to my report
relientkbandgeek: or maybe scurry to the kitchen and get some dinner
relientkbandgeek: or scurry to the bathroom (the real one... lol)
relientkbandgeek: maybe i'll start calling chatrooms bathrooms and bathrooms chatrooms!!
relientkbandgeek: timmys mice scurry
WICheri44: haha... go to your teacher at school... "I need to use the chatroom please"
relientkbandgeek: i'm going insane... i'm sitting here laughing my head off at my retarded scurry jokes... wow
relientkbandgeek: lol
WICheri44: he has mice?
WICheri44: did you give him his picture?
WICheri44: did he like it?
relientkbandgeek: yes, yes, and yes :-D
WICheri44: haha... that's ok... b/c I"m laughing too
...
relientkbandgeek: because i'm in a weird mood
relientkbandgeek: lol
relientkbandgeek: full of sleep deprivation
relientkbandgeek: and scurrying
relientkbandgeek: and bathroom chatrooms
WICheri44: hhaha.... you make me smaugh so much
...
relientkbandgeek: is he going to scurry? ... lol i'm sorry... funny word and i'm sleep deprived, which makes it funnier

and there are the highlights of my conversation with heidi. minus the parts that got deleted from "the bathroom" where i was hiding (aka a chatroom so i could put up an away message and pretend i wasn't at the computer) when i got kicked off AIM.

i'm off for now... i can't stand sitting in front of this screen any more... lol

18th b-day: 9 days
skillet concert: 10 days

oh one more thing... notice how all of a sudden a bunch of people are using blogger? yup. when i started using it no one had heard of it. now people are using it. nice. i guess i'm a trend setter.

ok i'm really going now... my hands are dry and need lotion

awww i wish i was still at kelli's! that was an awesome weekend. it was great to just get away from crap for awhile and just have fun. and thats exactly what i did: have fun! i love those girls... seriously. i forgot how close the 3 of us used to be (well 4 if you count leah). i don't know what i'm going to do when heidi is in another country for a year. joe said i'll hang out with him. :) that would be good. he's great. it was awesome see him since i hadn't for a year. i was so surprised when he said he wanted to go to the coffee house with us. i hadn't been there in a year, and he said he hadn't been there in like 2. it was the first "church" type thing that he'd been in for that long. i wish we hadn't gotten there so late, but me and heidi got soo lost trying to pick joe up... lol.

i'd better get back to my anastasia report... but actually i'm talking to travis and thats much more fun, so i'm gonna continue doing that.... :)