i didn't call david. i actually forgot until a few minutes ago. all well. he wouldn't have cared anyway.


cd of the week: truth, soul, and rock and roll- the elms

that sounded mean. but i was mad.

i still hate him. every time i hear him open his mouth and talk i hate him.

i talked to ali monnot on the phone today. it was only for a little bit, but it was still good stuff. tomorrow is now officially pureé iraqi day. i dunno if i spelled that right. all well. its still fun. i'm talking to heidi online. i haven't talked to her online in forever! its good stuff too. but anyway. back to pureé iraqi day. i told her that i haven't talked to david since i was at her house at the beginning of the month. she wanted to know why or something, and i told her that i only talk to him on the phone once a year-on his birthday. (well normally anyway, i've talked to him kinda a lot this year. only like 3 or 4 times, but thats more than usual.) but anyway. she said that i should call him and say happy pureé iraqi day. (yes my friends, she made that up off the top of her head.. lol). so now we're both gonna call him at some point tomorrow and say that to him. the point is to confuse him. JUST LIKE HE CONFUSED ME THAT ONE DAY!!!!!! lol. i'm off... i gotta find the appropriate card to email to someone on pureé iraqi day. :-D i'm out

i have to work tonight. 7-close. thats actually not a bad shift. i close with kutch (tkach), so thats alright. i think i'm gonna take my cd player so we can listen to music after 10 when the lobby closes. awwww. my little brother is going to a jr hi dance tonight. i'm dropping him off on my way to school. he looks spiffy in his khakis and sweater. i think i'm gonna go grab my cd player, some cds, and change my clothes.... i have a headache. and i'm not getting contacts, i don't like them.

i'm not happy. i haven't been for a long time. i hate myself for it. but its ok. i can pretend, i'm good at pretending. i do it all the time.

another no-contact day. i got them in yesterday after school, but not this morning. it sucks. it gives me a headache. at least i know why i'm getting headaches now-i have the wrong prescription. i coulda fixed it so long ago.... lol. all well. mike tkach is a dork. but i mean that in a good way, of course. :) he's funny. only 37 days till i see heidi (i was 1 day off on yesterday's count.) thats happy. i think i'm gonna go see if i can find online somewhere what musical tuslaw is doing next month.... :)

wow. i'm really pissed this morning. we had a two-hour delay, that wasn't bad. but i stood in front of the bathroom mear from 9 until 9:30 trying to get my contacts in. my eyes are raw from being poked at for that long. and i didn't even get them in. lynne came to take us to school so i grabbed my glasses and left. without a lunch. i didn't have time to pack one. it didn't help it that mom was hovering over me yelling at me half the time i was up there. she has absolutely no patience. so i have to wear my glasses. my glasses are my old prescription. my contacts are my new prescription. i can actually see with them in. the doctor thought maybe my headaches were caused by having the wrong prescription. but who knows, cuz i can't get my contacts in. oh well. 39 days till i see heidi. i can't wait. i miss her so much... it sucks so bad to have my best friend live 8 hours away. :( :(

yep. homestarrunner is definitely my new favorite thing.
its hilarious.
i think the band is home.
i hope we don't have school tomorrow.
i got some contacts today.
my eyes feel weird.
good night.


CD of the week: seven day jesus (the one with butterfly on it, from like 1997)

50 Things Guys Wish Girls Knew courtesy of Jimmy McCloud. I didn't read all of them cuz I need to go get ready for work, but it was interesting...

david orr's away messages finally sparked my curiousity. i wanted to know who strong bad was. lemme just say this--it's one of the most hilarious things i've ever seen! check it out, seriously. homestarrunner is my new favorite thing. :) thanks david bobby :)

work sucks. my hands are all dry and cracked and gross from doing all those freaking dishes. oh well.

i love the rk fan club. seriously. i meet awesome people thru it. its amazing how the love of a group can unite strangers. we all just talk about relient k for hours on end. :)

my headache is gone... for now anyway... i'm happy :)

CD of the week: Delirious?-Touch. i just got it. its good stuff. i'm really liking "take me away". the video is great. :)


i called heidi. we're sad, but we're going to make it work. we're still coming out. :)

sometimes i feel really unimportant. i was talking to brian hershberger online last night. i'm supposed to be meeting him, ali, and david in alliance on saturday. but they don't know if david's coming up. even if he doesn't, i still want to do something to get out of the house. i mentioned that to brian, and he was kinda weird about it. i got the impression that he wasn't interested if david wasn't coming up. you know, i really have lost my friends. they say that i haven't, but i have. i used to be so close to brian. now he doesn't want to drive 20-30 minutes to see me. a few years ago he would have freaking walked if he had to. but now he doesn't really seem to care. it doesn't really bother me i guess. i'm trying not to sound as depressed as i usually do about everything. i'm used to it. so i'll be ok.

so i've had a headache for about 3 days straight now. i really think i need to go to the doctor. but i don't think we can afford it. i know my mom really wants to go get a new prescription, she has for like 2 years now. she just spent her money for that on a new stove (yes, our stove broke 4 days before christmas.. it sucked.. lol). so if i went to see a doctor, she wouldn't be able to go get a new prescription/new glasses. so i think i'll just live w/my headaches for awhile longer. i've lived with them for this long already, i'll be ok.

night... i'm gonna go overdose on ibuprofen (JUST KIDDING!!don't flip out on me like last time!!) and then try to sleep off this headache... :-/

NO!!!
Tmanlivin4God: hey when u coming?
relientkbandgeek: lemme check the date brb...
relientkbandgeek: march 28-30
Tmanlivin4God: wait wait
Tmanlivin4God: bad idea
Tmanlivin4God: were gone on our quizzing invitational in PA
relientkbandgeek: are you serious???
relientkbandgeek: that really sucks!!!!!!
relientkbandgeek: will you be gone that whole time?
Tmanlivin4God: umm from the 28-30
Tmanlivin4God: ahhhh!! tracey
relientkbandgeek: :'( this is sad

this really sucks!!!! that was supposed to be our awesome weekend, when we all stay at ben's house for the weekend and screw around, and crack ourselves up (like the past 3 or 4 times we've all been together for a weekend). this is sad. very sad. i think i'm going to go cry... and call heidi. she's not gonna be happy either. :( :( :( :(

so i'm talking to this guy from cali on IM. first of all, he's in the sun and warmness, and my fingers aren't working right cuz they're too cold. but he has this awesome webpage with awesome buddy icons!!!! i'm really excited by these icons. i'll be frequenting this page to get different ones. :) this is great... ok i'm really cold, i have to pee, and i'm 100 pages away from finishing the hobbit (i know, i know, again?!?! but farrah made me... lol) i'm SO gonna beat her... lol
i'm out

i have to work 7-close tonight so this is gonna be short, i need to get ready still.
i talked to kory manly on the phone for almost an hour and a half today. it was really cool. like it really didn't seem that long at all. he was driving home from the indiana border (and i was bored outta my mind doing nothing, lol). ok i need to go get dressed now... ttyl (wait talk to who later?? wow thats a bad habit... lol)

i'm over at casey's. we worked on government and english. i wish i didn't have to go to school tomorrow. i don't want to do the debate in government. its seriously going to bring my GPA down a lot cuz i'm gonna fail. oh well. at least i have a 3.8 in the class placements. :) but yeah. casey is fun. and i didn't get lost on my way here. thats a plus. ok i'm done now. i just like to post random, meaningless messages on here. :) i'm out.... (and i wish that when i said that i mean to bed, but no... its only 7, i don't get to sleep for like 5 more hours, because my body is cruel like that and thinks i don't need sleep...)

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

jenny's team in albania has a blogspot. i didn't know that. thats exciting. i'm not dying anymore. i woke up this morning and felt all bloated and gross. let's just say i didn't miss my "monthly friend" in the very long period of time that i didn't have to deal with it (like 8 months).
so, if i had a weapon and was standing in front of chris (snaggleshocker), he'd have a problem. he lied to me. i figured he was lying, but because i'm a nice, trusting person, i gave him a chance that he didn't deserve. and he used it against me. i gave him joe's email. he IMed me last night and said he'd talked to joe, called him a faggot (except he's retarded and spelled it with an e instead of an o), and tried to start a fight with him but he wouldn't fight back. (thats my boy :-D i've taught him well.. jk) i was like "why did you lie to me?" he told me he was drunk and asked me if i was pissed. yes. i am. i HATE ppl who treat joe like that. you don't even understand. the last thing he needs is another person telling him he's a faggot. i love joe. i always have, i always will. he's been there for me thru so much... ok i'm crying now and i hate crying in school, so i'm out before anyone notices.... :(

ooop todays monday i forgot...

cd of the week: raw talent by the rude staff checkers
they played in the rockoff, and the were awesome!!! i bought that cd and lynne bought the other one, and its just good stuff. btw the rockoff was a lotta fun too.

i'm at school....
i had a good weekend. david (lantz) was going to come to solo and ensemble and surprise me!! everyone knew about it except for me. they were gonna hide him until i was done playing, and then surprise me. but, he got sick. we called him from ali's house and we musta had him on the phone for 2 and a half hours. i got kinda mad at him cuz he was being stupid, but he's david and he's like that, plus he was sick. i might be seeing him in 2 weeks, cuz if he stays at ali's that weekend then i'm gonna try to go out there. i dunno if mom will let me, but i hope that she does. elizabeth (krabill) called on saturday while i was gone, but she called me again last night. i might be going to acquire the fire with her youth group down in west liberty. thats so awesome!! she has to know for sure by saturday, so i have to talk my mom into it. i hope that i can!!! it was awesome to talk to her too. we talked about lyle for awhile. of course. ;) he isn't being as dorkish as he was over the summer/beginning of the year, but he still is a little. she and a friend have a bet going on over a candy bar. liz thinks that he doesn't like her, but her friend susan thinks that he does. she's so funny. i'm gonna try to go to one of her track meets in april to see her pole vault, since she's so obsessed with it. :) i think the bell for physics is gonna ring soon.... i'm out...