right now i am glad that no one reads this, because now i can go off.

i am not happy right now. a lot of things are happening at once, and that pretty much inevitably leads to me being not happy. a lot of it is dumb stuff, for example, the extra tickets that i paid for for the european disco tonight, that i don't even know why we needed. all we needed was 3, why did we buy 6? and now i can't even go, so not only do i have my extra ticket, i have 2 others, and i was the one that paid for them. that pisses me off.
room draw is not fun, figuring things out is just too much stress. we can't live here because of this or there because of that, etc, and now we can't even do the college hill room draw tonight because a room deposit hasn't been paid.
this policy paper ticks me off, because it takes up so much time, and yet is worth basically no points. i guess she told our class today that she's going to have them graded/handed back to us by tuesday. we're turning them in on thursday. how the heck is an adjunct who teaches just that class b/c she has a real job outside of this going to grade 12 or 13 20-30 page papers in 4 days? that means she's not going to read them very carefully, which REALLY ticks me off, because i've been working on this paper since the beginning of the semester.
i'm tired of people complaining about money and such. get a freaking job. i have one, i may not like working, especially in fast food, but i am working. and have been since i was a junior in high school. i have pretty much never in my life just worked one job at a time, i've almost always had at least 2, especially in the summer.
i pretty much wish i hadn't stayed at malone. i'm not happy here anymore. i'm worried about my future/my loans, and the fact that social workers make diddly squat. but my mom has worked so hard for me to be able to stay here, and i've paid a good bit of money myself. and i think i would probly feel the same way at a different school anyway.
i get brushed aside a lot. i know that i've said it before, but i'm so sick of people telling me how many friends i have. it's not true at all. i'm not even gonna get into that.

and now it's time to get back to what my life has consisted of lately, writing papers.