so i wish i had gone to columbiana church of the nazarene a lot sooner. i went this morning with kimmy and leah falzetta. i wasn't sure if i was going to like it, but it was awesome!! mom wants me at our church for the next 2 weeks tho :(, but i think i have a compromise. they have church before sunday school there, so next sunday i'm going to church there and leaving at like 10:20 and going to our church for the service. the sunday after that i probly have to go to our church cuz its "graduation sunday", but i think that every sunday that i'm home this summer i'll most likely go to Columbiana. its a lot different than LMC, but i think thats a good thing. its a lot more emotional, if thats the right way to say it. but i never got bored during the sermon. at LMC my mind kinda wanders, but that didn't happen at all. i dunno. the sunday school was a lot louder than i'm used to, but maybe thats because there's usually only 4 people in my class at LMC and there were like 15 there. i definitely am gonna go back, hopefully next sunday.

i worked 4-10 last night, and it wasn't too bad. we got into a really deep discussion, which isn't something that happens often at work. it was danny, mike, taylor, steve, and me. we started out with talking about heaven (i don't know how that started, i just came back from doing something and they were talking about it). from there we talked about the age of accountability, when satan was cast out of heaven, what it means to be a christian, it was just really interesting. danny knows a lot more than i thought he did. i figured he was one of those people that just thought that good deeds could get you to heaven, but he was saying how his dad thinks that and it bothers him and he doesn't know how to tell his dad that just being a good person isn't going to get you into heaven. so mike asked what was, and between steve and i we explained how you have to accept Jesus and stuff. it escalated from there. someone asked me what mennonites believe and that lead to a discussion on the necessity of so many different branches of christianity, etc. it was just really interesting!! i'm glad stevo was there tho, cuz i'm terrible at trying to "argue my point" or whatever when it comes the bible. i haven't read all of it, although i should, and i'm just not a strong debater.
then after work i'm almost in my car and i hear someone yell "tracey!!" i looked up and someone is hanging halfway out of their car in the drive thru calling me. i couldn't tell who it was so i walked over and it was josh kelm! i talked to him for a bit cuz i haven't really done that in a long time! his graduation party is june 21 so i can't go :(, but i need a senior picture of him still. it was cool.
pastor eric just got online, which is good, cuz taylor has some stuff that she's looking up and bringing to work tonight and i needed some help finding verses to back up my view. i think i'm gonna go grab my bible now... and leave a message for lynne to call me when she gets back from boardman cuz we were supposed to work on our physics today!! its due this friday!

today was a good day. i got to sleep in, then leah came over. we went to lynne's church to hear her play handbells. it was awesome!! i didn't really know what handbells were before this. i mean i knew, but i'd never actually seen anyone play them. it was great. :) then michelle mcvay called me and i met her at the food court in the mall. it was kinda weird to be walking around the southern park mall with michelle, considering the fact that she lives in st. clairsville... lol. we went to famous footwear so i could buy my graduation shoes, but they didn't have any in white. i wasn't a happy camper. we went to jc penney to find a suit for her, went to the hallmark store and bought car air fresheners (macintosh apple :-D delight inspired me, and she got that one that smells like guy's cologne that jenny used to have), then walked around till it was time to meet her parents back in the food court. then i took those shoes that my mom bought back to burlington, stopped at home for a sec, then headed to alliance to the mall to go to the famous footwear there. they had them. so now i have my cute white graduation shoes. if only i could find a dress... lol.

i'm going to michelle's graduation party next sunday. i'm excited. she named the people that are going, and it sounds like fun. :) i hear weird noises coming from the tv in the other room. i'm going to go investigate...

The Best Deceptions by Dashboard Confessional
I heard about your trip. I heard about your souveneirs. I heard about the cool breeze, in the cool nights, and the cool guys that you spent them with. Well I guess I should have heard of them from you. I guess I should have heard of them from you. Don't you see, don't you see that the charade is over? And all the "Best Deceptions" and "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you. So kiss me hard, cause this might be the last time that I let you. You will be back some day and this awkward kiss that tells of other people's lips will be of service to keeping you away. I heard about your regrets. I heard that you were feeling sorry. I heard from someone that you wish you could set things right between us. Well I guess I should have heard of them from you. I guess I should have heard of them from you. Don't you see, don't you see that the charade is over? And all the "Best Deceptions" and "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you. So kiss me hard, cause this will be the last time that I let you. You will be back someday and this awkward kiss that screams of other people's lips will be of service to keeping you away. I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers, I'll be alright when my hands get warm. Ignoring the phone, I'd rather say nothing. I'd rather you'd never heard my voice. You're calling too late, too late to be gracious and you do not warrant long good-byes. You're calling too late. You're calling too late.

i like that song.

so i just decided that i'm gonna go to purple door this summer. i can't wait!!!!! its about 5 hours away, but if people go with me i'll be fine!! i'm sure i can find someone to go with me. there are so many good bands there!! like five iron, relient k, benjamin gate, brave saint saturn, bleach, the list goes on... i'm so pumped!! that gives me plenty of time to talk mom into letting me go. its august 15-16. :) ok i need to go finish getting ready for my physics test next period, i just wanted to share my excited-ness with anyone who actually reads these posts. :)

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!

i think i'm gonna go see two towers on wednesday. its at the cheap seats. leah said she wants to come. but just in case she doesn't, i'm still going. i want to see it again. plus its a good excuse to get outta the house for over 3 hours. :) thats always a good thing. i should get off the internet and work on my government. but all well. i'll do it before i go to bed. as long as i have a short presentation for tomorrow i'm good. i think i have enough info.

leah falzetta cracks me up. she's like my "coach" or something. not gonna get into details cuz too many people already know and it scares me... lol

erin milhoan you're awesome, i just read your post for the 11th (the first one). we're a lot alike. :)

i'm done now. bye.

yawn. i need more sleep. all well. leah was at church today. we're gonna spend the next couple weeks "church hopping". next sunday we're going to st. paul's to see lynne play handbells, the sunday after that we're gonna go to columbiana nazarene church, just cuz we always said we were going to and never did. the sunday after that i might go to greenford, but she doesn't want to go with me. all well. i think i know enough people there by now. i need to talk to jeremiah or steve and see what time their church starts, and corey jones to see which service he goes to at gcc. wow this is a boring post... lol. but i'm off to find something more interesting to do, like find brian hershberger a fun b-day card. :)

prom was great. i had a lot of fun. definitely better than last year. :) jeremiah was a blast. definitely better than last year's date. i love keefry, but last year just doesn't compare to this year. i won bullcrap yesterday. i've never won that game in my life. but i did yesterday. :) i played with leah, leanne, and christy. kim and i started a club. we call it the suspenders club. i think we have (hang on lemme think.... me, kim, kory manly, corey cantaloupe, alicia kyser, kara kundravi) 6 members. we all have one thing in common: we like people who we can't have.

yes, i like someone. big shocker, i know. its been awhile since i've said that. but don't get too excited about it. boys don't like me. i don't have a chance. so i'm not gonna do anything about it. there's no point in setting myself up to get hurt. i just need a good dose of "christy-ism" to talk me out of it. :)

afterprom was so much better than last year. there was more to do. allthough i mostly just sat around and talked or listened to jeremiah singing and playing guitar. there's nothing better, right kelli? :) i was near kelli's house last night. or rather, this morning. it was probly around 1 or so. on our way to the grand slam. anyway, afterprom. i didn't sleep at all, on the way there or back. kim and jeremiah were both sleeping, so i turned backwards in my seat and spent the ride talking to lolly and cheese. it was great. we sang along with the radio, talked about lighting farts on fire, made fun of the sleeping people, fun stuff like that. lol. i didn't see shannon a lot. that made me sad. she was the only reason i didn't die of boredom at last year's afterprom. i went miniature golfing!! lol. me and lolly both suck at it, so we shared a golf club and took turns hitting our golf ball. we were terrible. we would hit the ball 7 or 8 times and say that we only had 3 hits for that hole. it was great.

mom, tim and i went to see x-men 2 today. it was awesome, well worth the $6 i spent buying all 3 of our tickets (gotta love the carnation mall.. its so cheap!! lol)

i'm off now. i'm running on 5 hours of sleep, and my mom wants the computer. there's so much more i could say about last night, but i can't. thats what old-fashioned journals that no one ever sees are for...

so prom is in 2 days. i finally have all the stuff that i need. i just need to wash my car. i told tim that i'd take him to see x-men 2 if he helped me, so on saturday me and him are gonna go see it. i'm excited! :) i have to pee. but i'm in school and i hate school bathrooms. rrrraaaarrrrrrr.

so 2nd period i'm sitting in the elementary office, like i do every day. and i look out the window to the hallway and i see jordan posey and laurie hoover walk past.... i'm confused. they go to columbiana. why are they here? hmmm...

speaking of jordan... i haven't talked to him yet. i'm still a little weirded out by saturday night. i guess i just don't understand why it's his problem. i'm the one who is me... that doesn't make any sense.

kim just told me that zachy's coming back for graduation. that makes me happy. i haven't seen him since he moved. woo hoo!! i'm excited! that kid cracks me up.

i'm gonna go find something fun to do now... blah blah....

i need more sleep.

farrah was very insistant on me taking these quizzes, so here they are...





Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You? quiz, by Angel.






Take the What Type of Friend are
You? quiz, and visit mutedfaith.com.
[Me.]


these take too much time... lol sorry farrah but i'm done taking them.... lol

got my car. i love it.

so work last night... wow. not really sure what happened. but i ended up flipping out on jordan, which i don't think i've ever done before. but he said some stuff that really bugged me. i dunno... i didn't know how to react. i think that i'm ok. yeah, so i don't trust people easily. so? is that really a bad thing? it saves me a lot of pain! i dunno.. i need to get off here. i don't want to. i'm talking to joe and lacey and it makes me happy. i miss those two. but i just saw joe today. i need to get to bed cuz i'm tired... i still need to think too..